Smiles, Everyone. Smiles!

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This is the spot where I usually put an essay about how I came to write my stories. I think I've done three or four of them by now. But as I sit here writing new copy and obsessing over an HTML color chart, I'm thinking, "Why not try something different?" I'm excited about the new design, which comes from being newly excited about writing stories, after not being very excited for a good stretch, to be honest.

I am aware that a little bit goes a long way, in terms of pages like these. Does anyone really care what music I was listening to when I wrote Delerium, or what my writing process was? Are you hanging on my every word, thinking "Oooh, AK, you're so funny and interesting!"

Doubt it!

I think what I'll do—at least for now—is put some random, very intermittent, bloggish noise here and let you decide. Feel free to nod and smile, say "All right AK, thanks for sharing," and wander back to the stories :-)

AK

And We're Back

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July 14, 2007

So back in the spring I got this idea for a new series, and started cranking away on the first chapter. Within a week I had a pretty good draft. It started to polish up real nice and purty-like.

Then I started thinking it needed a few more scenes. For some reason, this discouraged me and I wandered off to do other things.

The other night I read through it again, and realized it was basically ready to post.

What the hell was I thinking?

Anyway, this new thing represents the new approach I was babbling about below. It's lean, it's mean, and hopefully it's sexy as hell. It's AK Version 2.0. It might start out a little slowly, but I like where I'm going and I hope you will too.

On another subject, if you hang out at one of the EMCSA related forums and wonder why I don't (even after gushing about how nice the folks at The Garden are), it's because, well, they've gotten pretty far away from being EMCSA related. My interest is in the stories at the archive and in talking to the authors and readers about the writing. For whatever reason, that's not what those places are about anymore.

Which is kind of a drag, really.

AK

WTF??

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March 27, 2007

Okay, yes. I redesigned my site, made a bunch of noise, then disappeared. Why's that?

Real Life (you know, what you do when you're not online?) has been busy.

I go through phases as a gamer. I'll go a few years without playing, then spend months on the couch with a controller in my hand. Guess what just happened?

Most important - this new direction for my stories thing turned out to be a bigger challenge than I ever imagined. But I'm working on a new series and I think I've finally gathered up some ideas and approaches that have me excited to be writing again. Don't believe me until you see a new story, but the current plan is to put up the first chapter some time next month.

AK

Chasing the 'E' In MCE

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August 24, 2006

Crap on a cracker. I just deleted my entire (very lengthy) post. I haven't done that in years! But it's gone daddy gone.

Funny story: I was signing up at The Argent Garden while I was writing, and the welcome I got there sort of stunned me. I remember forums as being fun places to be a long time ago, but more recently I remember them as places where lots of screaming took place. I was unprepared for such niceness. We'll see. Anyway, in my excitement, I closed my essay document window and here we are.

I was talking about how long it's been since I wrote regularly, and how in the meantime I drifted away from the story worlds I created when I first started writing, and how I want to move in new directions now. And how I don't want to freak out any longtime fans by saying that. And how in striving to improve as an amateur writer in the six years I've been doing this, I've often flinched away from eroticism in my stories, and that's something I want to remedy.

The point is, I'm wrestling with what to do next. I'm not bitching about it in lieu of writing so much as thinking out loud.

It's funny, in looking back at what I've done so far (which is one of the perks of redesigning your website), I see that I've very rarely gotten to the chewy center of mind control erotica. I've set up hot scenes of enslavement only to cut to something else. I've rescued characters just before the really hot programming scene. I've regularly failed to get inside the heads of my characters while they were being convinced to submit and stare at the pretty lights. I've had characters teetering on the brink of submission, only to let them shake their heads and realize that they were impervious.

It's not that I want to gleefully feed all my characters to the MC machinery from here on out, that they're all doomed and every story I do from now on will be 'pathic as all hell. But I will be re-examining my approach to MCE in great detail and trying some new stuff.

And yeah, expect some dark, mixed in with the light.

AK