Before I tell you about what happened in July, I have to tell you about one other thing that happened in May or June 2002. My mom works for a local motel, and the boss got new computers, so he gave my mom two of the old ones he had, and so she could do some book-keeping work from home for more money, he had an internet connection put into our house. Not like a slow one like we had before, but a dsl one.

My sister got a computer in her room for school (hah. The dummy didn't finish even 2 years), and the other one was down in the dining room for mom (and me.) When it was all set up, the homepage was a site called excite@home. Just playing around there one day, I discovered chat.

That was a big deal in the story of my little sex life. There were lots of rooms for places you lived, stupid chat by kids and teens, and there was an adults only section. No way I wasn't going in there. I quickly discovered that Girls Only was a lesbian room. It, and a bunch of other rooms (Married and flirting, roll play, etc) were up all the time. And lots of lesbians who were ready to talk to a little girl, though I was not into that yet (and in fairness, lots who told me to go to a kids chat room, which is what most of the adults in the adult rooms did.)

But there was also the ability to create new rooms for "special interests." The rooms I got the most attention in (Id have to leave the room and do just IM chat - instant messages - because I'd have like a hundred of them and they'd keep popping up) were things like "little girls / older guys" "school girls" "lolita" (I read the book last year. Hot story, lousy ending.) "dads and daughters"... You get the idea.

So I chatted with guys. A LOT. It was summer. My sis didn't care much what I did, if she was even home. My mom worked til midnight or later. I had to stay home after 7, was not to let anyone in, and was not to answer the phone unless I knew the caller ID number. (And mom checked the list of calls so she could keep track of my sister.)

So I would go on chat. I had all kinds of guys IM'ing me. I pretty quickly figured out that what turned me on most was not just cyber-sex, but doing an interactive roll-play story with a guy (sometimes a girl) that included how we met, what I was wearing (whatever he liked) and how he talked me into it (seduced me) and only THEN a pretty good description of the action.

Most of the stories centered around being outside a liquor store trying to get a guy to buy for an underage girl... or being in an arcade and running out of tokens... shopping in the mall and running out of money... or something like that.

Most of the guys were not very imaginative, but think about it: which of these chat starters sounds more likely to turn a girl on? (1) "I was standing there in my boxers, with a hard on, expecting my girlfriend to knock at any moment. When the knock came, I opened the door and found a 12 year old girl scout with some cookies to sell. Embarrassed, I tried to cover myself and invited her in..." Oe (2) "I whip out my 15 inch cock and tell you to suck it." Yeah. One.

So most of the guys who would do stories like that - real roll play - were older guys. Most of my fav chat partners were 30 years old up to almost twice my moms age!

Now some of you have asked for more details about me. Sounds like the guys on chat. They wanted to know all my personal measurements, so I took them and that is why I know this stuff now. I was about 52 inches tall and weighed about 65 pounds. Chest waist and hips were all in the low to mid 20's in inches. I grew a lot that year and was 56 inches tall when my birthday came. My hair was about shoulder length and a little stringy (I think). It was mostly brown, but sometimes I would put lemon juice in it so I was a little blonder in the summer.

So that summer I spent a lot of days sucking Marcus and or Jacob off and then spent the evenings in the dining room wearing nothing (and I do mean nothing) but a sleep shirt and typing with one hand.

It was a guy on chat who told me how to get to the newsgroups on Usenet. He'd sent me some kiddy porn, and I didn't think such stuff existed, but now I wanted to see more. He told me how to get into the Usenet and... wow. There was some hot shit on there. I could not believe some of what I was seeing, but two things were true: some kids my age (and some younger) did have sex (some with other kids and some with adults), and I was very turned on looking at it, especially combined with the hot chats, where grown men were telling me what they'd do to me.

The pics I liked best were of a girl named Joy (about 12) and a younger girl (maybe 9 or 10) in a blue sweater. Both of them getting fucked by older guys. (They were old pics, and somebody told me they used to make magazines in Europe with pics of kids having sex in them. These were old magazine shots. They were hot.)

(This is a little rant: Those were good days for the Internet. Our ISP was not blocking the groups that had the hot kid pics, nobody was monitoring chat on most of the sites, and no Dateline to Catch a Predator to scare off guys. Nowadays it sucks.)

So that set the stage for July 4. Mom had the night off, but we went up to the motel anyway and watched the fireworks on the beach. There was a party in one of the rooms and I slipped a glass of wine (not my first, but I hadn't had many either) and after we went home, and mom's boyfriend came home with us. The two of them were kinda drunk.

About midnight I woke up with a headache. I was sneaking around trying to be quiet, because I did not want mom to ask why I had a headache and then get in trouble for drinking. There was no Tylenol in the upstairs bathroom, so I went downstairs quiet as I could, but there was noise coming from the living room.

I looked into the living room, and there is mom, on her knees, bent over the coffee table, blouse open, panties on the floor and skirt up around her waist. Her boyfriend was kneeling behind her, screwing her brains out and she was moaning over and over "Oh fuck me. Fuck my hot cunt. Give me that beautiful cock. I love it when you do this." And more things like that.

On the one hand I was turned on. I watched for a while. And when I went back to bed I petted the kitty a couple of times.

But then I started to get mad. She had told me over and over about how she only had sex when she was married and I should too. But here she was getting banged by her boyfriend and they had only been going out a few weeks. And the way she had said stuff it was pretty clear this was not the first time they had done the nasty.

The next morning, mom went shopping across the river. I stayed home. I got on the net and looked at some pics.

Anyway, it seemed everybody was having sex. My sister, the fat whore, my mom who had lied to me, even the kids in the pics. But nobody was allowed to touch my "center."

When mom got home, I told her I was gonna go to Jacobs to play video games. I got there and Jacob and Marcus were both home. I told Jacob I wanted to watch a porno for a while, so he put one on. And then I took my clothes off and he did too. I was petting the kitty and Marcus got tired of waiting for the action to start and left the room. I told him I'd call him back to suck him in a little while.

A few minutes later I'm watching the porno and Jacob sticks his cock up by my face and I started to suck him. Then after a couple minutes (he was lasting longer now) I stopped and he said, "What?" I looked up at him and said "Fuck me."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

Of course, with Jacob it was fast and not really very good. But I got fucked. It hurt some, but not that much because he was not that big. And there was a little blood spot on the sheet.

When he was done, he called Marcus in and showed here the cum running out of my pussy. Marcus was worried that he had made me, and I said "No, I wanted him to. And I want you to do it too."

So Marcus stripped and got on the bed, laid down and said suck me first. So I did and then he said get on top. That was a good idea because he was a lot bigger and it hurt more. Lucky that I had Jacobs cum in me so I was really wet now. After he was all the way in and it felt ok (not great but ok) he rolled me over and got on top. He was slower, more gentle and much better than his little brother. And lots of kissing.

I didn't cum, but I felt like a woman. At least like one of the ones in the porno videos.

After we were done, I went home. I was wet (it had been raining, like usual around here) and I told mom I was cold and wanted to take a shower. The rest of the day was pretty normal, except that my pussy hurt.

I was still a little mad at mom but I felt like I had my revenge so it was ok.

And one more normal thing. Jacob and Marcus stopped by that evening to see if I was ok... and to get blowjobs. LOL