After that day, I continued dining on forbidden fruit on a regular basis, usually having sex with my cousin at least three times a week. Our encounters after that first Saturday were usually briefer, taking place mostly on weekdays after school, but they were always fun, exciting, and satisfying, at least for me. Due to Lily's tendencies towards exhibitionism I always had some doubt about her orgasms, but I'm pretty sure I made her genuinely cum a few times in between the fake moaning and screams.

There was always a little bit of tension between us, though, that went unstated. It was like we were in a tug-of-war, me trying to get her to tone down those exhibitionist tendencies, with the eventual goal of getting her to stop camwhoring on the Internet, and she trying to drag me over to the dark side, so to speak, with riskier sex and indulging her whims. My part didn't happen openly, of course... any time I tried to broach the subject directly, I was treated to the old "you can't tell me what to do, it's not like you're my boyfriend" speech, followed by a sulk, and sometimes her going home early leaving me horny and unsatisfied, but I tried to give her hints, here and there about the risks she was taking or the kind of people who were watching her. Lily was free to operate openly on her side of the struggle, and regularly pleaded with me to make videos.

It was clear Lily had the advantage, so it was no surprise she won the first few battles. I caved on making a video pretty early, in the first week. She'd been asking every time we did it, and I don't know about most men, but apparently I have a hard time refusing a girl I'm having sex with, or a little cousin, or both at once.

When I finally gave in, I was naked from the waist down and Lily, for a change, was still fully clothed in her school-clothes. She'd started flirtily rubbing up against me once she got in the apartment, and then slid my pants down and gave every indication she was going to give me an awesome blowjob, although she had so far only held it in her hands and nuzzled it a little with the side of her face before saying, "Hey, you know what we should do?"

"What?"

"Make a video."

"Lily, you know I don't..."

"Shhh," she said to cut me off. "Come on, it'll be fun. It's not like anybody's going to see your face."

"Still..."

"Please Jack? I'll make it really, really, good," she said, giving me the look that defines the term puppy dog eyes. And let me tell you, how effective that look normally is, is nothing compared to how it looks when your rigid member is inches away from their face. I was about to give in anyway, when suddenly her look took a turn for the mischievous. "How much do you want a blowjob?"

I could see what she was getting at, and even though it was fairly light in tone, I didn't want to set a precedent. "Now that's not fair..."

"No, what's not fair is me giving you what you want all the time when you're not willing to help me with this one little thing. I mean, I'm not trying to threaten you, but it's not like you're my boyfriend and I'd want to do it just to please you, this is supposed to be a deal that works for both of us, and if it doesn't..."

I sucked in a breath then let it out roughly. Precedent be damned, the thought of her ending our arrangement and maybe finding somebody else to indulge her fetishes was too terrifying to contemplate. "Fine," I said. "Just this once. Get your camera."

She smiled, handed it to me, gave me a quick lesson on how to start it, and then got down on her knees again. After a moment's contemplation, she removed her top and cast it aside. "You starting?"

I nodded. "Just, before we do this... remember not to use my name or anything, okay?"

Lily rolled her eyes. "Of course not. And you shouldn't use mine, either. Call me... 'baby', If you want."

I didn't plan on saying anything at all. In the back of my mind I still had this idea that one day everything on her site would be discovered and, if Lily was too stubborn to talk, the police would ask her parents to see if there was anything familiar about the man in the video. They might not recognize my naked body, but with my voice, there was a chance.

When I gave her the signal that I'd started recording, she asked me, in what seemed to be a slightly higher-pitched voice than she usually used, "Do you want me to suck your cock, baby?" I nodded and bobbed the camera along with my head, and she went to town on my dick, first a long lick along the underside, then opening her mouth and going down as far as she could, followed by pulling her head back slowly letting her lips drag along the entire length. It was much like how she started the first time she did it, in fact, but slower, or at least it seemed that way. After that she took her mouth off and began a series of lingering licks around the head. Once in a while she would pop it in her mouth and let it bulge out one of her cheeks, but soon it came out and she returned to using her tongue on the outside, all while making noises like she was enjoying a delicious meal. Eventually she shifted focus, and spent most of her time with at least the head in her mouth, and often much more, and only occasionally drew off to give the side a little lick.

At one point, when bobbing down on my dick, I guess she went down too far and I hit her throat in a funny way, so she had to draw back suddenly, with a grimace on her face, and coughed. It didn't look very attractive but was probably the most sincere moment of the whole blowjob, and it only lasted a few seconds before she went back to work.

I didn't want to speak, but I made a sound like "Uhh, uhh..." and tapped her on the head.

She got the message. "You going to cum, baby?" I nodded. She pulled off and arched her back. "You want to cum on my tits? Or my face?" She still had the bra on, so she didn't let me answer, just milked me with one hand and extended her tongue out right under the head of my penis, mouth wide open. When I exploded, moments later, most of it went on her tongue and into her mouth, though she closed up for the third or fourth jet so some of the creamy goo got on her face and chin. Lilly giggled, and when I was done, sucked me one more time, like she was cleaning me off, and then lay on the ground with a smile. I shut the video off.

Lily excused herself to wash her face, and when she came back, asked, "Why didn't you say anything, during? It was like you were a statue!" That was an exaggeration, I did make sounds, but even they were quiet and restrained. I explained about fears of my voice being recognized, and she just shook her head and smiled. "You are such a worrywart." Still, she came up to me, gave me a hug, and said, "Thanks for giving me a video." I put my arms around her and we held it for a few seconds.

I sensed that this might be crossing an unwanted boundary, so I pulled away and suggested we play some Halo for a while, while I recharged.

With the first video shot, it was harder to say no to subsequent ones. I tried to hold a hard line, but gave in, and a few days later, I held a camera on Lily while I fucked her in the missionary position. Later, I did her doggy-style in the same way. Holding the camera meant I only had one hand to hold her, which made it less fun for me, but I guess she made a good show for her friends, moaning as I thrust into her and practically screaming as she 'came'. I made her cum for real after the camera was shut off, with my fingers, although she was very close from the fucking.

The one thing we never got on video was anal, and that was because we only tried it one more time. Lily had been pushing it, telling me she wanted to try again, but I knew the truth... she didn't want to, her 'friends' wanted her to. I'd seen them requesting it. But Lily kept pestering me, telling me she'd been trying to relax and get more used to it, and so finally I told her I'd be willing to try, but not on video in case it hurt her.

So, on the day we decided to do it, she got up on my bed, naked, and in pretty much the same position we tried last time. She looked back at me when there was a tearing sound, and asked, "What's that?"

"A condom," I said. "I hope you know what those are." We hadn't been using them... we should have, I know, but we hadn't gotten in the habit and Lily assured me she was safe, one of her friends helped her get birth control.

"Yeah but, if neither of us have been with anybody else..." She looked angry for a moment. "You haven't, right?"

"No!" I insisted. It was the truth. In fact, just recently I had been beating myself up a bit because I'd turned down a shot at a real relationship in favor of Lily. That girl, Allison asked me to coffee. It was a hell of a surprise, actually. Maybe it was because I'd been a little more distant to her, with my sexual urges no longer pushing me into the scent of desperation, and that intrigued her in a reverse psychology type of way, or maybe she wanted to date me all along and just got tired of waiting for me to ask. Either way, I thought it was just coffee, but then she suggested catching a movie, and that wasn't just coffee, that was a date.

A date with a pretty girl, my own age, who I could tell was interested in me... and all I could think of is that I made a promise to Lily, that if I started dating somebody, our 'thing', whatever it was, had to end. I didn't want that. So I told Allison "No," that I was "sort of" dating somebody. I chose a continued dangerous sexual affair with my underage exhibitionist cousin to what could be a stable relationship with somebody I could tell my friends and family about. What kind of person does that?

A person like me. But I may be a lot of things, I wouldn't break my promise to Lily. Even if she didn't have total faith in me. "Are you sure?"

"I promise," I said. "I wouldn't do that to you."

She shrugged a little and looked away. "It's not like you're my boyfriend or anything, but we agreed..."

I cut her off. "I know," I said. "I haven't. I swear."

"So why the condom?"

I tossed the package to her while I tried to put it on. "It's extra lubricated. I just thought it would go easier." My first time putting on a condom, you might expect I had some difficulty... which is why it wasn't my first time, I'd practiced the day before, so I could avoid looking like an idiot. I think I managed that, although I was far from smooth. The condom was... smooth and very slick.

My explanation seemed to satisfy her. "Oh, okay. But it would look better without it. The pictures, I mean." It wouldn't be video, but she wouldn't let me get away without taking still pictures.

"Humor me." I approached her again, now with a condom on and my shaft slippery. I rubbed it along her ass-crack to transfer some of the goo, and then poised my dick at the entrance to her hole.

She tensed again. "Lily," I said. "You have to relax. All the lube in the world won't help if you're tense."

"I am relaxed," she insisted. "Just do it. Fuck my ass. The lube will help it go in."

I wasn't sure, but she seemed so intent I was willing to try... there certainly was a lot of lube. As I began to push gently, I heard her suck in her breath, but she didn't complain, and slowly my cock began to pry open her asshole. I heard a grunt and paused. "You okay?"

"Yeah," she said, with a strained voice. "Just keep going."

So I did. It was tight enough that it wasn't really pleasant for me, either... tightness is great, except when it's on the head of your dick and not the rest. Then it's uncomfortable. So I wanted to get my head fully past the sphincter for my sake. Before I could, though, she said, "Ow, ow, ow, ow..."

I drew back a little. "You okay?" I repeated.

"Ignore it, I'm fine, just keep going."

"We can try again some other time..."

"No, you pull out now and I'll kill you," she muttered. "We're getting this done. Go all the way in."

Against my better judgment, I did. The next approach was a little easier than the first, and finally I felt the ridge of my glans clear the border. By my definition, that meant I was inside, her anal virginity gone. "Oww," she said again, letting out a breath.

"It's in," I said. It was tight, but now it was a pleasant tightness, although her expression worked against my own excitement.

"Okay," she said. "Just don't move, not yet." She grit her teeth, took a few more deep breaths. "Okay, try now."

I pushed in deeper, and although I thought it should have been easier, the hardest part over with, she once again made a cry of pain, and I couldn't take it any more. "Okay, that's it, I'm pulling out."

"You don't have to," she said, but I could tell from her face that she was still in pain. Even just staying where I was and not moving seemed to make her suffer.

"I'm hurting you."

"It's okay. I'll survive."

"No, it's not okay. I'm pulling out." I just hoped that wouldn't hurt her more than putting it in, but I was already starting to wilt a little.

"Wait," she said. "First, take the picture."

I didn't want to, but I did, and she held still... we both did. The picture might look like I was fucking her ass, but we were posed and I still had just the tip in. I got some shots of that, and then put the camera down and slowly retreated.

Going out was easier than coming in, but then it was designed to be an exit, not an entrance, and I wasn't exactly rock hard anymore. Once I was no longer inside her, she relaxed some, and Lily's breaths seemed less stilted. I sat down beside her and said, "I'm sorry, Lily. I didn't mean to hurt you."

She turned around and lounged on her side, like she didn't want to sit down directly on her bottom. "I asked you to. I'm sure next time it'll go easier. I won't make a peep, I promise."

That's when I made the decision, because I was sure that she'd do her best to keep that promise, even if I was hurting her, even if she really should tell me, she'd want to press on. "No. There won't be a next time."

"Don't say that," she said. "I promise, I'll be good."

I shook my head. "No, I'm putting my foot down. No anal sex."

"You don't get to make that decision, it's not like you're my boyfriend..."

"Yeah, but I'm still me, and I don't have to do anything I don't want to. You've got a rule about me licking your pussy, right?" She was saving it for her boyfriend, and we kept to that, although being denied it made me want to do it all the more. "Well, I've got a rule about anal sex. I'm not into it."

"But guys love anal sex."

"Some guys do, apparently I'm not one of them. I tried it, and once was enough for me. We popped your anal cherry at least. Are you going to try to force me to do something I know I don't like?" Technically she could, all she had to do was use blackmail, but I didn't think she would.

I was right. "No," she said weakly.

"Well, then that's that. I kind of get turned off by pain, and I'd rather fuck your pussy any day. Anal is overrated. To be honest, I never saw what the big deal was... I mean, when you think about it, it's kind of disgusting, people poop from there."

It got a giggle out of her, at least. "Okay," she said. "At least we got pictures of this time."

She didn't put up any more of a fuss about it, and although I was initially a little worried that she'd find somebody else to scratch that particular itch, some careful probing later convinced me not only that she'd hold to our deal and not do anything sexual with anybody else, but also that she was secretly relieved by my decision. She wouldn't admit it openly, but I could tell she didn't like it, she didn't want to do it, and she was happy to have the excuse not to... if not for her Audience suggesting they wanted pictures of it, she might not have tried it at all.

So, I suppose I won one battle there, her Audience got one short segment of anal sex pics and that's all they would ever get.