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{ASSM} The Choice (Bradley Stoke) (FF)

Title: The Choice
Author: Bradley Stoke
Keywords: FF
Short Summary: Marianne must make a difficult choice.


[This story has been previously published on Ruthie's Club
(www.ruthiesclub.com) where it was edited by the much
missed Ruthie and illustrated by Sergio Castro.]

For More : http://www.asstr-mirror.org/files/Authors/Bradley_Stoke/www



Story: The Choice (4,338 words)

Layla and Marianne are so terribly in love. But Layla has
exams to take and a future to look forward to. So, Marianne
is faced with the choice: either she lets Layla study for
those all-important final year exams or their relationship
is doomed.




The Choice
==========


The cool nylon sheets clung to Layla's back and shoulders
as underneath them she gently applied her tongue and lips
to Marianne's oh! so very beautiful crotch. The folds of her
vulva, the labias minora and majora as she remembered
them being named in her Biology classes, and, most of all,
that little button, the clitoris. Although she'd never studied
her own clitoris with nearly as much attention as she now
could Marianne's, she was sure hers wasn't quite as perfect.
How could anyone's be? The "button of love" as she and
Marianne christened it, but one so beautifully intricate and
so delicious to lick with her tongue or nibble with her
teeth.

Despite the two girls having been so passionate through the
night, their periods of sleep interrupted again and again by
the re-arousal of their mutual lust, Marianne was still easily
stimulated. Her crotch twitched and trembled with passion,
while a trail of Layla's saliva slid down the "tunnel of love"
as the two girls had re-christened the vagina. Although
Layla was under the sheet, it was thin enough to let through
plenty of the early morning sunshine. Even without her
glasses Layla could see the details of Marianne's crotch and
that contrast between the darkness, the near ebony
blackness, of her skin against the slightly golden, slightly
brassy, brown of Marianne's equally firm young flesh.

She could hear, and almost feel, the sound of Marianne's
pleasure. That gasp she loved, rising up and up from inside
the very depths of her, sometimes exploding in a
suppressed and delightful squeak and sometimes a more
full-throated bestial cry. Oh! She loved Marianne so much!
And what was better, Marianne said that she loved her too.
Despite all the men she'd fucked, far more than the single
(and singularly uninspiring) one that marked the totality of
Layla's other sexual experience. But she was sure she could
never miss having other lovers now she had Marianne. One
who was so like herself: slender, slim, smallish breasts and
even the same slightly sharp chin. Of course, there was no
way they could have both inherited that pointed chin,
although who was to say what was in the ancestral mix of
Marianne's muddled genes.

"Shit!" suddenly cried Marianne, mid-gasp. "Someone's at
the door."

"That's only Mum," smiled Layla. She pulled herself up
from under the sheets and wrapped an arm around her
lover, pulling the sheet up to cover her nipples. Marianne
sat next to her. The sheet was bundled onto her lap and her
own small pointed nipples, still excited and stiff, stood out
prominently on her bosom.

"Hello, dears!" announced Layla's mother, carrying in a
tray with coffee, cereal and orange juice for two. "Don't
forget you've got school today!"

She smiled at Marianne who warmly returned the smile.
Layla was pleased that she and her mother got on so well.
How would she have felt if the two people she loved most
dearly in the world didn't get on? She shuddered at the
thought.

"Thanks, Mum! We just got carried away!"

"I can see that, Lay! But remember your studies come
first," Layla's mother commented. She regarded Marianne,
perhaps too obviously evading her gaze from the needle
scars on her long thin arms and the zits that still
discoloured her brow after all those months since she'd
come out of rehab. "What are you doing today, Marianne?"

Layla's lover scratched her cheek perhaps a little too
vigorously. "I don't know, Mrs Lampton. I might go down
the Job Centre. You know, look for a job."

"What happened to that other job, dear? The one in the fast
food restaurant?"

"The Lunchbox? I turned up late one day, only an hour or
so, and they sacked me. Just like that!"

"Well dear, that's what they're like with casual labour in
these places. What about going to college? Have you
thought more about that?"

"Yes, Mrs Lampton," Marianne said, idly scratching one of
the pale scab-like scars on her arm. "I thought about it.
After you talked to me and all. I dunno. I wasn't too good
at lessons and stuff when I was younger. But I'm thinking
about it."

"Well, Layla dear," continued Mrs Lampton. "Eat your
breakfast and I'll take you to school. But hurry! I don't want
to be late for work. Like Marianne was."

Layla nodded. She liked it when her mother gave her a lift
to school. So, she was doing a morning shift today at the
clinic where she worked. She should have guessed from
the fact that her mother was wearing her black nurse's
outfit with the metal badge across her bosom.

Less than half an hour later, Layla and her mother had
descended the stairwell of the council flats where they
lived and were getting into the battered old Focus, which
after all these years and all those miles was still reliable
enough for Mrs Lampton. Not that she could easily afford a
replacement. Layla kissed Marianne goodbye, but couldn't
resist a tighter hug and a more slobbery kiss while her
mother watched with an indulgent smile. And then mother
and daughter were in the car, as Layla's lover strode away
in her battered denim shorts and that top that showed off
her navel-ring to its very best advantage, her shoulder bag
slung over her shoulder.

"Oh! I love her so much!" exclaimed Layla, watching her
lover recede from sight in the rear-view mirror.

"I know, dear!" grinned her mother. "I could hear you all
night!"

Layla blushed, her skin turning an even darker colour.
"You heard? We didn't make that much noise, did we?"

Her mother nodded. "Ours is a pretty small flat. But it's
love, Lay. I'm happy for you. I'm sure I was just the same
when I was your age. Only, of course, not with another girl.
You and Marianne make a lovely couple."

"Oh! Mum!" said Layla with glee. "I love you too! After
Marianne, you're the most important thing in my life!"

"But what about your exams, Lay sweetheart. You don't
want to end up working in the Lunchbox like Marianne, do
you? You've got to concentrate on them. Especially if you
want to go on to Medical school so much."

"I know. I know," sighed Layla sadly, nervously adjusting
her wire-framed spectacles. "I've got to study. I know I
have to."

"You've done so well, so far. So very well. Soon you'll be
leaving the Leamington Heights Flats and go off with that
scholarship that's just a few exams away. You don't want to
jeopardise that. And if you love your old mother, please
don't risk it. I'd hate to see you not do as well as you
ought."

"I know, Mum!" sighed Layla. "You're really talking about
Marianne, aren't you? I've got to see less of her until my
exams are over, haven't I?"

"Well, dear," nodded her mother. "I know you're both very
much in love. But she's not got examinations to do like
you. I'm sure you can hold out a month or so till your
studies are over. You don't want her to think she ruined
your future for you."

"Oh Mum!"

Layla could see the school coming into sight. A large
block, partly Victorian and partly, and rather dilapidated,
more recent brutalist architecture. Not the most revered
educational establishment, but Layla was almost the star
pupil and her fellow students were so supportive of her.
She couldn't let down them. Or her mother. She gripped
her satchel tightly to her corduroy lap and brushed some
dust off her cotton sweatshirt.

"I'll never let you down, Mum! Never! I love you. I'll tell
Marianne we're not to see each other until after it's all over.
I'm sure she'll understand!"

"I hope so," Layla's mother agreed. "I certainly hope so."

Unfortunately, Marianne wasn't quite as understanding as
mother and daughter had hoped. In fact, Layla's mother
probably had the more realistic view when she stressed to
her daughter just how difficult it might be to persuade her.

"Given her background, you know. It's not as if she's had a
mother who's supported her like I have you. It could be a
tough call," she advised her daughter.

"What! A whole fucking month!" exclaimed Marianne
angrily when she was told. "A whole fucking fucking
fucking month?"

"And then it'll be over, Mari dearest! Than we can spend
all our time together. Morning, afternoon, everything!"

"But till then I can't stop over. We can only kiss and only a
little bit. I'll fucking die. I love you, Lay! I fucking love
you! I can't be fucking fucking ..."

Layla could see real tears of anger and frustration in her
lover's eyes. She was so close to relenting. To see what she
could do. Find some way they could continue to spend
every night together. But she remembered her mother. And
not just her mother. Only yesterday, the Maths teacher,
Miss Anderton, had said she was probably the brightest
student she'd ever had and was certain she'd get that
scholarship she was hoping for. Straight As were just not
going to be a problem for her.

"I've got to, Mari. It's important. We'll be together after the
exams. It's not long!"

"But what am I to do? I live in a fucking squat you know.
Full of junkies and crackheads and tarts and the like. I've
just got a fucking mattress to sleep on. And it's not easy for
me, either. I still want smack and stuff. You know, fags,
booze and blow just ain't enough when you're coming off."

"I know. I know."

"I'm a fucking mess, Lay. You're the only fucking thing in
my life that holds me together."

"I know. I know. But I love you, Mari. You've got to
believe me. Just a month or so. You managed before me.
You can manage a little longer."

Marianne kissed Layla tenderly on the lips, wiping the tear
from her cheek.

"Oh! Layla. It's only 'cos I love you so much! Okay! Okay!
You're right! I can do it. It'll be fucking hard. But I can do
it. 'Slong as we stay together tonight. I'm sure there's a few
things we haven't tried out!"

Layla sniffed and brushed the back of her hand across her
eyes. "I don't believe that's possible!" she said with a sad
laugh, happy that Marianne seemed to have come round to
seeing sense.

The following morning left Layla feeling wretched and
guilty as she kissed Marianne's lips one last time until the
exams were over. She was inconsolable as her mother
drove her to school, her face a vision of misery, her
spectacles fogged by tears and her fingernails digging deep
inside the stiff fabric of her satchel. Her mother was silent
all the way, perhaps knowing there was nothing she could
say that could at all comfort her lovesick daughter. Even
their lovemaking during the night had had an air of
desperation about it. Whatever new thing it was that
Marianne might have introduced to their love life was
forgotten as the two girls cuddled each other tight and
explored the favourite parts of each other's bodies for the
last time. At least for now.

But Layla was wrong if she thought it would be as easy as that.

Two days later, she was sitting on the chair where she stood her
spectacles at night. Her desk was wedged tightly against the bed
with exercise and text books faced open. The angle-poise lamp
her mother had bought in a car boot sale was shining on an
illustration of a dissected rabbit and cast its shadow on a poster
of a black four-girl R&B group.

Layla's attention was suddenly taken by a familiar tring on her
mobile. It was the special tune she'd chosen for Marianne. The
one the two of them had spent ages choosing on the Internet
until they found the tune whose lyrics best captured the love
they felt for each other.

Layla picked up the phone instantly. "Hi!"

She was disappointed to hear nothing much on the other
end. Some kind of grunting breathing noise. Nothing.
"Hello! Hello! Is that you, Mari?" She was about to put the
phone down with disappointment when she heard
Marianne's voice, but it sounded distant and not really
addressed to her.

"It's in, is it? All the fucking way in?"

"Is that you, Marianne?" Layla asked. And what was that
strange man's voice that seemed to be saying "Yeah!" in
the background.

And then Layla heard Marianne's voice more loudly. "That
you, Lay? Just phoning to tell you I'm fucking Dave. That's
your fucking name, isn't it? No. Sorry. Gav. I'm fucking
Gav. Or he's fucking me. You wanna hear it?"

Layla flushed. "No! No! I don't want to hear!"

"Well! You're fucking going to!"

And then Layla heard strange sounds that could have been
anything, but were probably the sound of a penis thrusting
in and out of Marianne's sweet vagina, the one that had
been promised to only her.

"Oh! Fucking stop that shit!" suddenly came a loud man's
voice. And the phone went dead.

A few hours later, after Layla had at last regained her
composure and was able once more to concentrate on the
intricacies of mathematical integration, the phone rang
again.

"I just fucked Don!" came Marianne's voice as soon as
Layla had spoken.

"I thought you said it was Gav?" queried Layla. Was this
proof that Marianne was lying?

"That was earlier. I just done Don. He's fucking lush. And
you know what, Lay?"

Layla made no answer. What was Marianne doing to her?

"Lay? You can fucking hear me. You know what? "

"No, I don't," said Layla, feeling quite angry now.

"He fucked me up the arse."

"He did what?"

"Up the fucking arse!"

Despite herself, Layla's nascent medical conscience clicked
into place. "I hope he used a condom. For his sake."

"No fucking rubbers here, Lay!" laughed Marianne. "We
done the whole lot. Fucking spunk everywhere."

"But... You know... It's not as if..."

"Relax, Lay! He's positive and all. I'm not that bad. I don't
want everyone to get what I've got."

"What are you doing, Mari? Why are you doing this? Why
are you calling me? Why are you fucking with all these...
these... boys?"

The phone was quiet. Layla wondered whether Marianne
was still there. And then she heard a rather loud sob. A
heartbreaking guttural sob that came from deep deep
within Marianne's chest.

"I fucking love you, Lay. I just fucking miss you!"

And then the phone clicked off.

There were no more calls the rest of the evening. And none
the following day. And then, Friday night, when there was
still no respite from study for Layla, but the night that was
a special night for Marianne and her as it was a Friday they
first kissed. Indeed, it was a Friday night they'd first met
when Marianne had been invited to the same teenage party
as Layla and the two had got chatting over a can of cheap
lager. And just didn't stop chatting. And somehow both of
them had known there was something special going on
between them. It was a Friday when a very tearful
Marianne phoned up again.

And then for half an hour or more she went on and on and
on about how much she loved and missed Layla, while her
black lover got through one paper hanky after another as
she wept over Marianne's plight.

And then Marianne paused.

"What is it, Mari?"

"I fucking shot up again last night!"

Layla gasped. "You said you'd kicked the stuff."

"Well, it's difficult. And anyway it was just going round.
It's not as if I had to fucking nick something to pay for it.
'Sno big deal!"

"But was the needle sterilised?"

Marianne laughed in a hollow empty way. "What fucking
difference would that make now?"

There was an uneasy pause on the mobile. And then
Marianne coughed.

"Well, what I really phoned up to say, you know, what I
meant to say was, it's stupid I know, but just don't fucking
look at any mail you get tomorrow."

"What d'you mean?"

"I was fucking high. It was stupid. And it weren't fucking
smack. It was before that. Bit of charlie. Bit of sulphate.
Loads of booze. You know. I was fucking mongo!"

"What mail?"

"Just don't fucking look at it, right!"

And then the phone went dead.

Of course, when the post landed on the mat in the tiny
hallway that led to the two bedrooms and the cramped
living room, there was nothing in the world that would
have stopped Layla from rushing with it to her bedroom to
see what had arrived. Thankfully, her mother was doing
weekends again for the extra cash, so she wouldn't see
whatever it was that was in the envelope scrawled over in
Marianne's huge poorly educated hand.

And when Layla opened the envelope she was even more
pleased her mother wasn't in. There were a number of
digital camera shots all featuring Marianne, none of them
remotely artistically composed and all fairly unambiguous.
There was a picture of an erect penis halfway up (and
Layla had to squint quite hard) what could only be
Marianne's anus from that angle. And two pictures of her
with her face covered in a gooey sticky mess that certainly
looked like what Layla thought semen should look like.
And a picture of a fat, grotesque, shiny penis hovering just
over the thick bushy mass of Marianne's crotch. And Layla
knew it could only be Marianne's. That small crude tattoo
and the sheer hairiness of it could only belong to her. And
the penis had a kind of pinkish, creamy, clear tear dripping
out of the tip of its fat purplish glans. At least none of the
men whose bits of anatomy she could see were black. That
would be an act of treachery just a little too close to home
after all Marianne had said about how much she loved
Layla's very skin colour.

When Layla's mother came home from work several hours
later, she found her daughter still sitting on the sofa in the
living room. Around her were scattered the obscene
photographs and used damp paper tissues. She put a
motherly arm around her daughter's shoulder and listened
patiently and with affection as Layla recounted how badly
Marianne was taking her enforced separation from her
lover. She nodded sympathetically and wiped away the
tears that still ran down Layla's cheeks and dampened her
tee shirt.

"Well, one thing's for sure," Layla's mother announced,
"and that is that this just can't go on like this!"

"But what are we going to do?" sobbed Layla. "It's not just
she's having... having... making love... with these men...
it's that she's started taking drugs again. I'm terrified she'll
kill herself. She got pretty close to that once she told me."

"Yes," agreed Mrs Lampton. "I can see those scars on her
wrist. But she's not really the suicidal type, you know.
When she did that, she was really very desperate indeed.
But she's not coping well at all with not seeing you, is she?
And what's worse, as far as I'm concerned, is what she's
doing to you."

Layla sighed. "I do so love her. And I know that when she
lets those boys... well... you can see the photos... it's not
what she really feels..."

"Don't worry! I know exactly what she's doing. And you're
a clever girl. You can see it just as much as I can. She's just
trying to make you feel bad. It's not difficult for a girl like
her to find a man who'll... who will... do things like that.
What she knows. And what you know. And what everyone
knows. Is that it's much more difficult for a girl like her,
from her junkie background, surrounded by prostitution,
vice, drugs and petty crime, what's most difficult for her is
finding someone as perfect as you, my darling daughter."

"I don't love her because I feel sorry for her, Mum. I loved
her before I knew she'd got... well, not actually got, but
could get... full-blown... Or the drugs. Or her time in care.
Or when she used to sell her body for heroin. That's not the
Marianne I love. She's just a really beautiful, truly
wonderful..."

"I know. I know," said Layla's mother. "Well, this can't go
on. It's affecting your studies for a start. I know the address
of the squat she's staying at. I'm going to go there this very
minute and have it out with her. And if she's not there...
Well! I'll just sit on the doorstep until she comes home.
And if that's not till tomorrow morning, I don't care. It's got
to be done. I love you too much, Lay, to let your girlfriend
ruin your life through her jealous temper tantrums!"

Layla nodded her head and watched her mother change into
her more casual clothes. She continued to sit on the sofa
for another half an hour after she heard the front door close
and her mother leave. Then, at last, perhaps just as a result
of having shared the burden of her woes with someone
else, she felt able to return to her studies. She needed to be
sure she really understood exactly how the valency of
carbohydrates differed from other organic molecules.

It was very late indeed when Layla's mother returned home.
After midnight in fact. Layla was frightened to go to bed.
She wanted so much to hear what her mother had said to
Marianne. She'd long since finished her studies, where
she'd somehow got comfort from the very abstract nature
of the discipline, and was half watching and half not
watching some late night film where the black hero had
managed to single-handedly save the entire city of New
York from destruction, even though his rather stupid white
sidekick got equal billing in the television listings.

"You still up, dear!" her mother shouted.

"Yes, Mum!" said Layla pushing open the door to the
living room and looking into the hallway. And she could
see there wasn't just her mother there, but also, and
surrounded by plastic bags and an extremely battered
suitcase, was Marianne. She looked strangely shy and
sheepish and smiled at Layla in a very weak way. "Mari!
Why? What? I thought..."

"Leave the bags in the hall, Marianne dear. Let's go into the
living room. And then we'll discuss what's going to be the
way from now on."

And so Layla sat on the floor, one leg stretched out and the
other beneath her, while Marianne sat on one chair and her
mother held court on the sofa. Marianne had a packet of
cigarettes and occasionally dipped in for a smoke, and
Layla noticed that, for the first time, her mother did not
object to there being smoke in the house.

When Mrs Lampton had arrived at the squat, Marianne was
indeed not in. But the other people in the house, a tall
Iranian guy and his rather fat girlfriend, admitted her in and
fed her cups of coffee while she waited for Marianne to
return. They offered her some grass, but although Layla's
mother had no objection to the drug, - she'd smoked plenty
when she was younger, - she didn't want it to cloud her
mind. Eventually, it must have been about seven, Marianne
returned home. She was by herself and looked really
dreadful. In fact, almost the first thing Layla's mother did
when she saw Marianne was rush her off to the bathroom
and wash her.

Her clothes smelt of vomit, she had dirt over her face, her
hair was tangled with some disgusting oily muck, and she
was still pretty high from whatever she'd been taking.

"Cocktail!" Marianne clarified unhelpfully.

At last, she and Layla's mother had got talking. And
talking. And eventually it was all decided. Clearly the two
girls just couldn't live apart. It simply wasn't working.
Marianne was falling apart and sliding back into her old
ways. And Layla was worrying herself to death about her
lover. So, the obvious solution was for Marianne to move
permanently into the flat with Layla and her mother.

"But what about my studies?"

Well, obviously Marianne had a choice. She could either
continue to live in squalor and almost certainly die fairly
soon from some illness exacerbated by her... her condition.
Or she could abide by the rules of the house. And really
there was only one rule, apart from not taking drugs, - and
Marianne could continue to smoke cigarettes for a while if
it helped her get off hard drugs, - and that was that Layla
should continue in her studies. Without interruption. It was
more important than perhaps either girl really appreciated
that Layla should pass her exams and go on to pursue a
career as a doctor or whatever she might eventually decide
to be. It was the way out of the life of poverty that was all
any of them had ever known till now. Of course, the girls
could continue to sleep together. But it would be
appreciated if they made an effort to keep the noise down.

"It's not just me, sweetheart. Although these walls are
paper-thin. It's the neighbours too. You're both very vocal
lovers, you know!"

And that was that. Marianne had been offered the choice.
And she took it. More because of her love for Layla than
anything else.

And although Marianne clearly benefited from the security
and comfort of a warm council flat and the attentive
caresses of her lover, no one benefited more than Layla
who, with the assistance of the two people she loved more
than anyone else in the world, studied especially hard for
her exams and did even better than her teachers had
expected.





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