Message-ID: <51628asstr$1122765004@assm.asstr-mirror.org> X-Mail-Format-Warning: No previous line for continuation: Wed Aug 14 16:30:23 2002Return-Path: <anu_g42@hotmail.com> X-Original-To: ckought69@hotmail.com Delivered-To: ckought69@hotmail.com X-Original-Message-ID: <BAY106-F7D515F058E033473201718BC10@phx.gbl> X-Originating-Email: [anu_g42@hotmail.com] From: "Sharmila Sanyal" <anu_g42@hotmail.com> X-OriginalArrivalTime: 30 Jul 2005 19:01:16.0267 (UTC) FILETIME=[0FEB23B0:01C59539] X-ASSTR-Original-Date: Sat, 30 Jul 2005 15:01:15 -0400 Subject: {ASSM} Repost of "My Story" parts 19 to 25 Lines: 3098 Date: Sat, 30 Jul 2005 19:10:04 -0400 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: <assm@asstr-mirror.org> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: <URL:http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/Year2005/51628> X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Story-Submission: <ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, hoisingr Here are the parts 19 to 25 Enjoy SS <1st attachment, "MS19.TXT" begin> The Revised Repost Continues: ************************* Please be aware that the following is a mixture of fact and fantasy, gleaned from my own life experiences. If some readers find this 'boring' or not meeting certain expectations, please be so kind as to look elsewhere. I am sure that the vast ASSM repository is quite variegated. Please visit my ftp site at ASSTR. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with comments and corrections. WARNING: Do not proceed beyond this "warning" if you are not a mature person and/or are offended by explicit written descriptions of sexual encounters. ++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ My Story (Part 19) There was an old wooden bench under the concrete canopy. I gestured towards it and tugged at him. I was breathless, so I sat down. Sanju followed me to the bench and stood in front of me. I could see the bulge in his pants right at my eye level and, the muscles deep inside my moist recess contracted spasmodically. Without a word, Sanju started opening the buttons of my blouse and I let him. I felt both his hands on my bare breasts . . . "You are not wearing any bra, Shona-di!" Sanju observed. "No, I'm not . . . how come you never noticed that before now?" I said as I continued to gently, and lightly rub one hand over his bulge. I was hesitant to take the next step of pulling his zipper down. "I . . . I . . ." he stammered. I was a bit flattered, I must say, at the possibility that he did look but failed to notice. "How hot are you?" I asked, again. Unsure as to what my next move would be, I was essentially biding time. Sanju's hands were very tenderly caressing my breasts under the blouse. I was surprised at the gentleness that he maintained. To be honest, in those Bengali smuts, the descriptions of the men "kneading" had mostly been turn-offs for me. Debi and I had tried the motions -- admittedly to be on the ready for such "manly" attacks -- but we relented after a couple of tries. We had decided that, if it came to that, we would have to teach our men. I was wondering if Sanju had already had a teacher! "Mmmmmm. . ." I heard myself acknowledging his masterful touch, as my nipples stood up in attention under his palms. "Do you like it, Shona-di?" Sanju asked. "Mmmmm . . ." I responded, and couldn't hide my curiosity much longer, "where . . . did . . . you . . . learn . . .?" "I have been reading . . . since that night," I could hear him breathe hard as he answered. "I see . . . you learnt well," I said and wondered aloud about the book that could teach a skill like that to an adolescent. "What book? Kamasutra?" I asked in jest as I started to fumble with his zipper. "How did you know?" he sounded astonished. "Really? Kamasutra?" it was my turn to marvel at my own guess, "it . . . it was just a guess . . ." "Good guess . . . have you . . .?" "No . . . I have never read it," I admitted rather sheepishly. I can't explain why, but I thought I should have. I was so hot that I didn't even bother to ask where he might have obtained the book. Come to think of it, I still have no idea! Once a widely read anthology of human sexuality, 'Kamasutra' is not a title to grace every library these days. My literary inadequacy notwithstanding, I managed to unzip him while my cunt throbbed between my widely parted thighs. The fabric of his brief, lot more stretchable than that of his trousers, bulged out and through his fly. I felt his hardness with my fingers and he let out a rather loud groan, stepping back a little as if to avoid my touch. Then he let my breasts go and pulled me up by my arms. I faced him as he put his arms around me. By then, my blouse was open in the front, with just the front tucked into my knee-length skirt. It had parted, exposing my nipples that were now grazing against his shirt. He pulled me closer and I melted in his arms. The next several moments, things were blurry. I don't remember half of what we did -- only bits and pieces of a very intense session of extracting pleasure from one another. I remember that we were on the bench and that I had his rock-hard member out if his 'jaangia' with his help. I remember feeling the moist autumn breeze on my bare nipples as he slid down along my length and kissed my legs. I remember parting my legs for him as he buried his head between them at the seat of my pleasure. I remember his struggle trying to pull my soaking panties off; and that I pulled him down onto me; and that I felt him rubbing his erection on my inner thighs, his own light juice providing the lubrication against my soft skin as I felt the searing rod throb when I closed my legs upon his adolescent manhood. I remember the spasms I suffered inside my own sex with every slow simulated motion that he traced between my thighs with his. "Are you ready?" I heard his voice faintly through the buzzing in my ears as Sanju put forth the question directly, adding again, "shall we?" "Shall we . . . ? Well . . ." I was suddenly catapulted into the moral world with that question. In Bengali it sounded more pregnant a phrase than that everyday English query can possibly convey. The muscles in my thighs flexed with the sudden surge of tension as I groaned back "No! . . . I mean . . . ready for what?" "Don't you want to . . . ? Today?" Sanju asked, his elbows on either side of my chest supporting his torso and his hardness between my thighs. "Sanju ! Are you serious . . .?" I asked . . . again. I needed to be sure and I needed some time to catch my breath. "I have . . . you know . . . I have the . . . Nirodh," he let me know. I am sure he was ill-equipped to fathom the real source of the indecision in my voice. "No . . . Sanju! We shouldn't . . . no!" I suppose there was a finality in my voice, for I remember him sitting up from whatever position he was in. He sat there awkwardly on the bench, while I lay on my back in a state of partial undress. His reaction to my single refusal was so fast that I was left without any further response for quite a while. I looked at his form and at his manhood, still standing up -- as if in defiance -- through the open fly. "Sanju," I sat up and put a hand on his shoulder. "Forget it . . ." he responded with angry terseness by brushing my hand off and I fully understood his frustration. I blamed myself for having to do that to him. In an instant I was conscious of my own wanton disregard for his adolescence. My throbbing inside wanted to squeeze the pleasure from his manhood, yet the sensible 'sister' in my head prevailed. "Sanju, sweetie . . . " I swung my feet around to sit beside him, and I held him from the side with one arm around his waist, and I pleaded, "don't do that, . . . please. I want to . . . really . . . but we should not." "I don't understand," he looked away and said, "I thought . . . I even bought . . ." "You imp, where did you buy them?" I asked, as I put my free hand on his not so hard cock. "Forget about where . . . how did you manage to buy them? Don't they ask your age?" "No they don't," he said, "I bought them from that vendor around the corner over there," he gestured in the general direction. I was almost dumbfounded! 'My God', I remember thinking, 'that guy knows our family and me and must have seen Sanju with my brothers or with me! What must he be thinking!' I remember that a thousand scenarios played through my mind in rapid succession and I could feel blood rushing to my ears in total embarrassment -- however imaginary. But, strangely enough, through all that, the very thought that the vendor might imagine Sanju having sex with me -- his cousin -- excited me. The vendor had absolutely no reason to imagine that; but, of course, in my state of arousal and through my 'guilt-ridden' senses, there hardly seemed to exist any other possibility. "Oh my! Sanju . . . he knows us!" I verbalized my concern and, in the next instant, the inanity of that statement -- out of my sexually inebriated brain -- made me giggle out loud. "Shona-di! What's so funny?" he finally looked back at me, "and, how would he know why I bought them?" "You're right," I said, feeling the life returning to the flesh under my palm. It moved as it hardened. "What now?" he asked and put his hand over mine that shielded his erection, "I guess I'll have to jack off myself." His uninhibited use of the vulgar expression told me that he was not as mad. "And what should I do then?" I gave his cock a gentle squeeze and said. "We will do each other . . . like that night . . . OK?" I added with a wet kiss on his cheek. As I traced my tongue along the side of his face, he turned his head and reciprocated . . . our tongues met between our lips . . . and I felt his hand was between my legs. I parted my thighs to make room for him. His hand caressed the inside of my thighs with the utmost affection. If I had known better then, I should have surely been amazed. It turned out, as I later learnt, that he was a natural. How else could I explain his maturity and deftness with me, considering it was his first encounter with a woman. He had had the usual infrequent sessions with his best friend at school -- as I later learned -- but that hardly qualified as something that prepares anybody for the ultimate thing! Anyway, enough praise about my cousin -- for I am sure that my deep affection for Sanju is made abundantly clear by now. Lets go back to the issue at hand. "Oh . . . oh . . . Sanju . . ." I broke off the kiss to come up for a breath -- as the 'issue at hand' started to throb and twitch -- and said "lets do it in our mouths." That sent another flutter through his manhood. "I need to go to the bathroom," he pulled my hand off his engorged rock-hard penis and said. "Now?" I wasn't sure what to say. It hadn't been that long that we were fondling each other -- maybe fifteen minutes -- so I had not expected that he would have to relieve himself. There was no bathroom on the roof, but there was the huge water reservoir and the gutter drain beside it. When we were kids, we quite regularly made use of that drain. There was also a faucet attached to the reservoir, which had come in handy several times. I told Sanju to do it there. "Look away then . . ." he stood up and said tentatively, his erection solidly sticking out of his pants. "OK, OK . . . go now," I pressed, my own bladder, too, suddenly having started to make its existence known, "and don't forget to wash your 'nunu' thoroughly." He stood there in the shadow of the reservoir, not ten feet from me and I heard him pee. He turned the faucet on and I saw him wash his magnificent 'nunu' sitting down in front of it. As he came back, I took his flaccid cock in my palm and kissed it on the head. It responded by regaining its turgidity almost instantly . . . right before my eyes. "Now I have to go . . ." I declared, "look away, naughty!" While it was exciting to see him pee, I did not want him to watch me do it. That was something that I carefully separated from sex. Double standard? Perhaps, but a mind is an uneven and complicated arena. We did it to each other then. After another few minutes of indulging in a mock intercourse with his cock held tightly between my thighs, I suffered the excruciating heat in my cunt as he moved his buttocks up and down and sideways. The inside of my thighs were by then well lubricated by my own juice and I thought I could afford him a little feel for the real thing by moving with him. My sexual tension kept building with each of his thrust and as my clit got squeezed delightfully between my thighs. I was almost at the verge of giving up and parting my legs to take him inside, when he suddenly withdrew his member and gasped for air. He almost jerked himself up as he stood with his legs on either side of the bench. "What?" I groaned in despair, "you done . . . already?" Not that I was much further away from it myself. "Almost . . . I would have . . . Oh . . . Oh . . . Shona-di . . ." he panted and swiftly brushed my hand away as I extended it to hold the twitching, uncapped, manhood. He left it alone himself and I saw it jump up and down rather violently. He had taken his pants off and I had pulled his jaangia down under his testicles that were themselves taut. His silky curls were covering the base of the six-and-a-half inch rod. I wanted to run my fingers through them but he wouldn't let me. I sat up and faced him, the throbbing hardness, proudly tilted up, just inches away from my mouth. I looked up at him and saw his eyes tightly shut and his face in a grimace . . . as if he was in pain. "What's wrong? Sanju. . ." I was concerned. "Oh . . . nothing . . . just . . . oh . . ." he answered under his breath, and then I saw it happening. As he stood there, akimbo, carefully and strenuously trying not to tip the balance, a sizable glob of white semen dribbled out from the slit of his cock and then another small portion, as the cock twitched mildly. "No! You're done?" I exclaimed in utter frustration. I was fleetingly reminded of the urgency between my legs that was about to break down the last barrier. "No . . . no . . . " Sanju said, "I just kept it from happening . . . just a little . . . release." "Wow . . . where did you learn that?" his maneuvers were amazing me. "I didn't learn it . . ." he laughed, "never had to do it before . . . you know." He swung one of his legs over me to stand on one side of the bench. "Then why?" I asked, expecting to be amazed yet again. "I wanted to do it together . . . with you . . ." and he didn't disappoint me. "Want to?" I asked, "I am ready . . . to do it!" "Sure?" "Yes, I'm sure," I could hardly wait. I was not going down that path again when I would be forced to feel his hard magnificence inside my throbbing slippery cave. I wanted a safe way out before Sanju felt my weakness. Given his carnal aptitude, I wasn't too sure that he couldn't. I stood up from the bench and my skirt fell around my ankles. Sanju had already helped me take my panties off. I stood there with my blouse that offered little cover. Sanju had his shirt off too and all he had on was his undershirt and his briefs -- the jaangia. He faced me and embraced me with his arms, our chest against each other separated by the thin material of his undershirt. I pulled it up all the way to the bases of his arms . . . I wanted to feel his skin. My nipples -- hard from my intense heat -- dug into his well- formed chest. "Aaaaaaaaah . . .. nnnnnng . . .. Sanju . . ." I heard myself murmuring as his cock lay flat against my stomach . . . twitching and throbbing. I felt myself starting to loose control again. "Let's . . . do it . . . sucking . . ." I said hurriedly as Sanju was trying to feel my entire body against his by holding me tighter. He was also rolling his cock against me from side to side, which made me apprehensive of another crisis. I was sure he would not be able avert a second one so soon. I broke off from him and pushed him down on the bench and then, placing my hands on his shoulders, made him lie down flat on his back. He swung one leg back over the bench and planted both his feet on the ground. His undershirt pulled up, his jaangia rolled down below his balls and his adolescent cock standing up straight from the curls, he looked marvelous and irresistible. I tried not to dwell on his form too much as I straddled his face, planting my feet on either side of the bench firmly, and I bent down over his body to reach for his manhood. Sanju placed both his hands on the sides of my waist and gently tugged down. I didn't need any further coaxing, as I responded by lowering myself on his face. "Nnnnnnnnng. . . aaaaaahhhhh . . . Sanju . . . you imp . . . you naughty . . . yessssss . . . yessss . . . yes" I felt his tongue on my cunt and I shrieked out, "yessss . . . oh . . . oh . . . oh . . . my . . . yesssss . . . eat . . . eat . . . eat!" And eat he did! My mouth hovering directly above the glistening head of his masculinity, I ground my hips in an all out effort to suffocate my young cousin, as he sucked hard on the lips of my cunt. Were I not so incapacitated by what was happening over my entire body, I surely would have been amazed once more at his mastery. "Mmmmmm . . . mmmmm . . . mmmmm . . ." Sanju's muffled moan into my flooded tunnel reminded me to reciprocate. I let my torso go over his and, my nipples digging into the muscles of his thighs, I rested my head on one side as I took the head of his cock in my mouth. I felt him flex his legs as he lightly bit down on my swollen labia. I was close . . . "Aaaaahhhhh . . . Shona-di . . ." I heard another muffled gasp as he moaned out my name in pleasure. I wanted to give him the utmost delight . . . to compensate for what I denied. We lay still for several minutes, with almost a practised ease that rivaled the sessions with Debi. Somehow sensing the degree of my heat, he left my cunt alone and concentrated on the area surrounding it. Lying on Sanju with 'him' between my lips, my heart raced faster with every passing minute. Increasingly, it seemed impossible to delay the inevitable. The source of its acumen still a mystery, Sanju's expert tongue on my moist flesh -- just millimeters away from 'ground zero' -- sent sparks in every direction . . . especially to where it counted. The abdominal muscles, and those of my buttocks, were flexing in uncontrolled rhythm. I relaxed my entire body to enjoy his mouth and I took in a deep breath drawing in his musk. The calm before the . . . And then it came . . . like a giant hurricane . . . the moment of total abandon with the helplessness in the middle of a storm. "Aaaaaahhhhhh . . . yess . . . yes . . . yess . . . you imp . . . Sanju . . . my God . . . yesss . . ." I shrieked and shrieked again, as my hips -- as if with a life of their own -- gyrated in their own pleasure, grinding my flooded cunt into his face . . . I had no need to wait for his mouth or his tongue. As I was about to get to the peak, Sanju somehow managed to get one of his hands down between my mouth and his cock and pulled it out of my mouth. Before I could protest, he started to spurt. Streams of thick white semen shot out of his cock in rapid successions. As I watched his manhood jump with every spurt and spend gloriously, I felt my final convulsions take hold of my body. With my feet firm on the ground, I bucked and I ground and I took his still throbbing and spurting cock in my mouth. As I climaxed with a mind- blowing orgasm, I sucked and I bit and I pumped his cock for the last bit of semen that he had to offer. I didn't get much -- for I was watching him spurt his heaviest loads -- but whatever dribbled into my mouth tasted heavenly at the moment of my climax, making it as intense an orgasm that I would ever remember. "Oh my God . . . " Sanju was the first to speak. We lay like that, with me on top of him, for an eternity. The heavenly taste in my mouth was starting to turn rather funny and I sat up . . . on his face . . . when he spoke . . . "you ate it! My God you ate it?" "Well, so what?" I reassured him, "doesn't taste so bad, actually." It really did not! A slight astringent aftertaste, but that was about it. I had not had the chance to swallow as much the first time in his room. I was completely satiated as I stood up in my nakedness, my dripping cunt directly above his face. He lifted his head and tried to lick it some more and I moved away. It was just too sensitive right then for any touch. As I dressed up, I looked at his prone form still lying on the bench. His soft yet enlarged manhood was still twitching . . . perhaps remembering the pleasure. I smiled to myself remembering my screams at the climax, and I thanked the loud music down below. "Wow, Shona-di, that was good!" Sanju sat up and said fondly, "Was it . . . I mean . . . good . . . Shona-di?" he asked with genuine concern. "Stupid imp," I bent down to kiss his flaccid cock and said, "what do you think?" I was still in a state of bliss. My mind was filled with the sexual euphoria that dared to defy any censure from my 'moral' half. "But, get dressed quickly, and splash some water on your face," I said with a hint of caution in my voice. After we were both 'proper', I unlocked the door to the roof. I looked at my watch in the faint glow of the festival lights. It wasn't quite eight. Talk about "hurricane"! We had been on the roof for about thirty minutes! We decided to sit there for a little while longer and we did . . . on the bench . . . without saying much. As the minutes wore on and my brain regained some blood, I started to take stock of what we did and how close I came to crossing that technical boundary. "Sanju . . ." I said in a soft tone. "Hm?" "You know that what we did was not right, don't you?" It sounded lame even to me. "Ah . . . yes," he looked up at the sky and said, "but . . . you know what? I have always fantasized about you." "Really? What about?" I said. I cannot say his confession came as a total surprise, and I surely had some idea as to the nature of his fantasies. So, I added, "Never mind, you needn't tell me. I think I know." There was no word from either of us for a few minutes and then Sanju spoke again, "So, now what, Shona-di?" What answer did he expect? I wondered. "What do you mean?" "I mean, is this the last . . ." he uttered in a subdued voice. "I don't know," I was afraid to say anything. While a voice of reason inside my head was trying to cry out its caution, the sensual self remembered the pleasure too vividly. As has been often the case with me when it came to my libido, that voice was finally drowned by a host of libertine rationalizations. "We cannot make this a routine, you know," I said in quite an equivocal tone. "I understand," Sanju responded in a mature voice. He sounded relieved by the lack of resolve in my last statement. The tension between Sanju and me completely disappeared. I had been trying to avoid being discovered talking to him alone in the house. Since that evening, I found myself behaving 'normally' -- as an elder cousin would. Sanju stayed for another week before returning home and, as far as I recall, we probably had similar encounters twice more on the roof. During his stay, he gained some insight into the mysteries of enjoying sex with a woman, and I learnt a lot about how to please a man and what semen tasted like. The evening before he left for his home, I didn't let him pull it out of my mouth as he came. Amazingly enough, I had managed to keep my 'cool' regarding going 'all the way' with him. While he had accepted it and had respected my desire to draw the line somewhere, I was painfully aware of my own hypocrisy. *** After he was gone, I felt very lonely at home. I tried to analyze if I missed him or the sex with him. After a whole week of soul searching and a few very hot sessions with Debi, both Debi and I decided that it was a little of both. "He seems to be a very mature person for his age, Sharmi!" Debi had commented after I had described in some detail (and with a little embroidery) what Sanju and I had been up to. It was the Saturday afternoon, a couple of weeks following his departure. The couple of times I had had the occasion of meeting Debi during those two weeks, I had kept from her what had been happening at home. She had suspected -- she later told me -- that 'something' was afoot. I was a bit unmindful all that time, she said, and knowing that Sanju had been in town she thought his very presence might have had put me on the edge. "I hope you are right, too," I said as my hand traced circles around her exposed nipples, "he seemed to have understood that I wasn't going to go any further than that." "Further than that?" Debi inserted two of her fingers inside herself and I remember detecting a touch of envy in her voice, "you went further than us . . . I mean Ajit and I . . ." True! I never really thought about it. I hadn't thought much about anything anyway. All Debi had done with her fiancé was to jack him off inside his clothes. Neither of them had actually seen the other's 'nunu' and there I was suddenly more 'educated' -- however self-taught -- and with more experience! I felt good. A leg up . . . in more ways than one. I think that it was indeed the first time that I became fully conscious of the sense of competition with Debi. I was lying completely naked on the bed, my head resting comfortably on her stomach as I was talking and caressing her breasts. As I saw her getting hotter and hotter, I started garnishing my story. I told her how he sucked and sucked on my cunt for a whole half-hour and she wet her lips and asked, "Better than me?" I told her how I sucked on his cock and bit the head and licked the slit for a very long time, whereas in truth he barely could withstand that manipulation without having to withdraw from my mouth almost every five seconds. But it felt good to gloat about my younger adolescent cousin and it made Debi close her eyes and bite down on her lips and moan with increasing excitement. Then, when I described the details about Sanju's cock and his grips during jacking off, she opened her legs wide and started sliding her fingers in and out almost in a frenzy. Of course I lied. Even after so many encounters with Sanju, I never saw his magnificent dick under sufficient light to describe anything. And, he was not good at jacking off with his hand. But, I got into a roll and I already had had good practice at fantasizing; only this time my fantasies were being based on something concrete. "Wow . . . wow . . . Sharmi, I am so hot . . . I still have not seen Ajit's nunu clearly," it was a groan of frustration from Debi. I sat up and looked at her brisk hand between her legs, her fingers wet from the juice. "Slow and steady wins the race," I uttered the adage, and, with a laugh, climbed on top of her. She still had her petticoat and her blouse on. "Get off," she pushed me and rolled out from under me, "let me take the blouse off." It was open and she had no bra on. We both would occasionally go bra- less. It was not something our mothers approved of -- especially with the saari -- but we did it anyway. One of her friends at the Presidency, Bidisha, would comment that the bra-manufacturers must hate us. As Debi slid the blouse off, I tugged at her petticoat cord and undid it. She smiled as I slid it off her legs. We were both naked and it made things a lot easier. I pushed her down on the bed and said, "don't worry, you are going to get married soon and then you can see his nunu as much as you want." "Yeah, now I will have to be satisfied seeing yours," she said as I straddled her face. She pulled me down on her and started licking me. I arched my back and moaned out in a low voice. It was the afternoon; we were not at liberty to make too much noise. It was hard . . . it was extremely hard not to scream, for under my closed eyelids a vivid movie -- of Sanju fucking Debi while I watched and masturbated -- was playing with sight and sound. I did not stop to think if Debi was my surrogate, enjoying every moment of the fantasy as Debi's expert lips fluttered on my swollen love-button. I was simply oblivious to everything else other than what was sending the current from between my legs. With eyes closed, I cupped my breasts with both hands and imagined my nipples against Sanju's smooth supple skin. With my brain in overdrive, I smelled his semen as the room filled up with our own scent. As Debi moaned into my dripping cave, I heard the groans of my adolescent cousin against my breasts. "Do me . . . Sharmi . . . Oh . . ." Debi's muffled pleading voice, from between my thighs, brought me back from the roof. Peeking through my eyelids, I looked down to find one of her hands on mine, gently trying to pull it away from my breast. I turned my head and looked behind. She was frantically trying to pleasure herself with one hand. Her legs folded at her knees, she was in a awkward posture trying to get to her own cunt from under her buttocks. Her arm was essentially pinned down between my legs and her chest, making it virtually impossible for her to reach herself. I got off her face and slid down along her body, planting wet kisses on her softness along my way. I reached her cunt and my tongue found its mark. She couldn't stop a loud "Aaaahhhhhnnnggg" escaping her throat, and we both froze -- she, with her back arched and her fingers on her taut nipples, and I, couched between her wide open thighs with my mouth on her wetness -- and waited for somebody to knock on our door to inquire our well being. Several seconds passed as I felt the tension in myself and in her leg muscles. For what seemed like an eternity, our love making form just lay there on the bed expecting the inevitable interruption. Looking back now, I am sure our tableau would have made a fine subject for any sculptor. As I relaxed and brought myself up, I found Debi still in that position, her magnificent fullness quivering in apprehension. I felt my cunt throb as I took in the beauty. "C'mon . . ." I whispered, "I don't think anybody . . ." I could barely finish what I started to say, when I heard my brother Arun's voice outside. "Sharmi? Are you okay?" there was general concern in his voice. Debi hadn't even began to relax when she froze again, a rather ashen face looking at me with beautiful big eyes now even wider in trepidation. "We are fine, Debi saw a cockroach on the bed," I giggled as I almost yelled out at him. I kept on giggling at my own ingenuity and thinking of the scare we both got. We heard a very perfunctory "Heh!" from the other side of the door and we heard Arun leave, satisfied and secure, I'm sure, in his conception of the very feminine response to the universally loathed creature. "My God, Sharmi, sorry," Debi spoke finally and in a whisper, as if afraid that even her normal voice would bring down the whole house. Then she started to giggle with me, "Cockroach on the bed, indeed . . . two very well trimmed and wet ones too . . ." "Lets eat . . ." I said and swung myself around. Without wasting anymore time we feasted on each other gently. I did not think about Sanju and his hard cock the rest of the time as I lapped her up and filled my lungs with her sweet aroma. Lying side by side with our heads resting comfortably on each others inner thighs, we writhed on the bed in perfect leisurely rhythm. We moaned, but very softly and into each other's cunts. Both ready at the same time, we signaled each other. We came in a series of gentle waves of pleasure, hugging each other by the waists in a tight embrace as our orgasms melded into one. We rested and had sex again . . . and again for the third time that afternoon, each lasting about fifteen minutes. They were pure sex, with a new addition in our fantasy land. She went wild thinking about Sanju and then including Ajit and Dipankar in an orgy. I had a distinct feeling that Debi was more sexually charmed by Sanju than she would admit. By the end of the torrid sessions, as we lay in each other's arms, covered in sweat, I came to the conclusion that what happened with Sanju was mostly a physical thing with me. Of course I felt the affection that a cousin feels, but that did not translate into this. I knew that, beside his handsome features, it was the sinfulness of the liaison that was arousing to me. Debi seemed to think so too. It was, according to her, my subconscious desire to get some of what she had been getting. Right! I could tell her that myself. Anyway, by the time I went to bed that night, I had put all the psychoanalyses of the past couple of weeks to rest and accepted for what it was: My lustful seduction of my adolescent cousin because I had liked the feel of his arm against my breast, and I had enjoyed his surreptitious self- pleasuring against my being. I decided that I was not going to go on any guilt trip about it, nor would I blame Sanju for it. I received pleasure as much as Sanju did, and I was not going to deny myself that memory. I fell asleep, at peace with myself . . . probably one of the few times that I did without playing with myself. ++++++++++ End Part 19 (To be Contd.) <1st attachment end> <2nd attachment, "MS20.TXT" begin> The Repost Continues: *************************** Please visit my ftp site at ASSTR. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with comments and corrections. WARNING: Do not proceed beyond this "warning" if you are not a mature person and/or are offended by explicit written descriptions of sexual encounters. My Story (Part 20) by Sharmila Sanyal. Drizzles of the autumn afternoons gave way to cool northerly breeze. Almost imperceptibly -- rather apologetic -- feeble winter dragged himself into the metropolis. Calcutta never slowed down, yet the evening smog of the winter months catered an illusion of lethargy around her. Au contraire, she came alive with book fairs and expositions, with film festivals and music conferences. One, still, could get really lonely in a wintry Calcutta - - if one chose to. Christmas came and went and my 'Apollo' did not show up. Ajit and Debi were getting married the following summer, in June, to be precise, and he had to be present at the wedding. He had decided that he couldn't get away twice within such short a period. I was disappointed and sad, a sure sign that I was in love. I was in my second year of college by then and the work load was the saving grace. However, that was one of the longest winters. As always, Debi and Ajit helped comfort me. Sex have always helped in cheering me up and, naturally, Debi took it upon herself to keep my mind off Dipankar. I knew Ajit would have liked to help too, but I kept a very careful distance. For nothing had changed yet. There were nights alone in my bed when I wished Sanju were there. I knew I would be mindful of the ultimate barrier, but I wanted the thrill all the same. I wished his naked body against mine and I wished his hardness in my grip. Imagining his erection between my thighs, I would feel my clitoris swell up and become taut. I would press down on it flexing my thighs . . . and I would come in a subdued heat, my orgasm gently blanketing me in a restful slumber. *** They wanted me to tag along for the "honeymoon". I respectfully declined. I was in no mood. He couldn't make it even for their wedding. Debi thought that if I went on a short vacation with them it would cheer me up! That was the quintessential Debi . . . ever the tender-heart. Not that she would have invited anybody but me, but it was a ridiculous suggestion nonetheless. Ajit was not that enthusiastic, what with him already having had to wait so long to really be alone with Debi. I would not have, anyway. I knew how much Debi was looking forward to the short honeymoon in Orissa. Ajit had secured a nice position with a new company in another state. He was hired to oversee their semiconductor department. It was a job too good to pass up for somebody from Calcutta University (which has been in shambles for a very long time). Debi did well too, and she opted to continue with her studies. She wanted to get into a teaching position after obtaining a doctoral. They had decided to live apart for a while till Ajit found a decent place to live and, Debi could transfer to the local reputed institute for her post- graduate work. So, I allowed them their time with each other. Indeed, strange as it may sound, even this honeymoon was delayed till Ajit could be back with a couple of weeks of unpaid vacation during November. Ajit had left for his job within a week following their wedding. It was a miserable time for me. I don't remember ever feeling so alone. I was also very upset with Dipankar. He had called me up before the wedding and I had slammed the phone down in what my mother had later described as a 'rage'. It took me a week to get over that feeling of dejection and despair. I reasoned with myself that the only time I really talked to him in person was more than eighteen months back. So, I decided, it was not worth getting all twisted up inside for such a long-distance relationship. Then, out of the blue, I found myself drawn to Bidyut. *** That day the whole country was in the grip of panic. Our colleges shut down early for the day and we scrambled out into the streets hoping to catch whatever transportation we could find back home. Debi and Ajit had left just a few days earlier for their trip. There was an eerie silence on the streets, save the occasional privately owned bus, its horn blaring, speeding off empty at an obscene speed, trying to get back to its depot before the 'riot' broke. Almost everybody had a confused and lost look about her/him. The Sikh taxi drivers were almost flying through the streets with their meters wrapped away and out of sight. "Fifty," said the rickshaw-puller, "you will not find anything cheaper now, Didimoni." He announced with a 'take-it-or-leave-it' attitude. "He is right . . . we could split the fare." I heard a voice behind me. I turned my head and looked at him. It was Bidyut. He was then a couple of years my senior, in his fifth, to be precise. "I heard you ask him," he added with a gentle smile, "I didn't know you lived there. I live in that area too." "Really, where?" I asked. It was strange that I had never seen him around there, but from what he told me he lived a street over from ours. "Sure, Bidyut- da, I don't mind." And that was it! He had an aura of gentleness about him that I found very comforting .. especially during that crazy morning's confusion. I had talked with him before and also had an occasional cup of tea in his company -- albeit not in any exclusivity. I never really noticed him beyond the usual exchanges of niceties. As we talked, sitting in the rickshaw uncomfortably small even for the closest of friends, a warm, if not romantic, feeling swept across me. I don't remember what we -- make it 'he' -- talked about during that twenty-five-minute ride, all I now remember is that I had suddenly found myself rather interested in the man sitting beside me. I remember having looked at his face and feeling the warmth. It was that morning that I actually noticed his features for the first time. Before that, I could have had easily passed him on the street and not recognize him as "Bidyut-da" with whom I had occasionally shared a bench at the tea stall. With voice a very romantic baritone, he had a strikingly typical Bengali face -- a very Bengali mix of Mongolian and Caucasian features in just the right proportions. He had large eyes with a straight nose set between a pair of rounded cheek bones. His wide forehead, above the almost perfect set of eyebrows, looked even wider with his hair brushed back. His clean shaven face was just too flawless to be remembered. With my mind suddenly racing towards a very unknown expanse, the trip home had ended with him getting off at his house and paying off the full fare. I had objected and then had dreamily given up with a very sheepish promise of returning the favor in kind at some undetermined future date. *** They returned from their honeymoon, perfectly radiant, with extremely satisfied looks. When I looked at her eyes, winked and asked the obvious question, she said, with a hint of bashfulness, "Oh . . . marvelous . . . just wonderful . . .." or some such nondescript phrases. I thought I saw a familiar sign of her arousal just as she mentally recollected her conjugal bliss. It was obvious that the recent turmoil that the country was facing did little to dampen her excitement. The Prime Minister assassinated, and the entire country in the throes of intense communal passion, our college remained closed for the next several days. Despite the political odium he engendered among the followers of the Prime Minister, the Chief Minister of our province drew admiration from all political parties for having averted a communal massacre the like of which had gripped New Delhi. It was a strange time indeed. Prior to that day, the political fallout from the very insolent action on the Sikh holy shrine was confined to that part of the country. Now, every Indian was feeling the pinch. The late Prime Minister had never been the darling of every Indian, but she had an enigma about her that kept friends and foes equally in awe. The entire body politic was at a loss. I had never been too political, but something in the air had permeated my apathy. Maybe it was the fact that it was the first assassination and the first communal unrest in India during my existence. We were not reading about these things in the history books, we were living through it. For several days, my libido seemed to have taken a well deserved vacation. "Did you guys go out and see things?" I asked. "We did . . . went on a trip to Konark," she said with a wink and a naughty glitter in her eyes, "and after that you can imagine . . . " "Sure I can," I said, "knowing you and Ajit, you guys probably never left your hotel rooms after that." I wasn't really too much interested in learning the details. It surprised even me. "Why don't you come to our place?" Debi suggested, "and I will tell you all about IT!" There definitely was a pregnant stress on that last word. I would have died to know all about "IT". I would have asked her over to our place. I wanted to talk to her about Bidyut-da. Then I decided against it. I wasn't sure myself about what was happening, so I thought I would keep this newest twist to myself . . . at least for a while. I did go to 'her' place, and I think I did listen to the very detailed description of intimacy between her and Ajit. After the wedding, they were allocated a separate room in the house. The room was on the third floor, which was essentially the roof except for this one room that Ajit and his younger brother used to share. It was of a modest size and very airy. Ajit's brother, about six years his younger, ended up having to sleep in the drawing room since the second room belonged to their sister. Debi locked the doors to their room and proceeded to give me a 'blow- by-blow' account of their honeymoon in Orissa. Not much about Orissa. She described to me in details the numerous erotic sculptures that adorn the many temples, and promised me to show the pictures they took of them. I recollected, even as I listened to her, the very physical effect I had experienced several years earlier when we went to Puri, and then from there, to see the Sun temple of Konark. That, in all probability, would have been my first experience of arousal. I had little knowledge of much more then. (I don't remember the exact year, but I could not have been more than twelve, and I had absolutely no idea what a sexual excitement should feel like). As I listened to her describing how they tried to emulate the very difficult positions depicted on the temples, and how, she banged her head on the floor while trying to accommodate a standing Ajit with a modified head-stand, I found my mind drifting. My disinterested state didn't go undetected for too long and Debi was all over me trying to see if I wasn't coming down with something. "You should, maybe, stay here tonight, Sharmi," Debi said with concern in her voice, "I will make you a bed on the floor." If I were in my usual elements, my response, to that proposal, would have been predictable. When I failed to respond with the usual racy suggestions, Debi looked at me intently and said, "I know something is wrong, what is it?" "Nothing, Debi, I am just preoccupied with the things going on in the country, I guess," I said as I stood up from the bed and looked at her. It might not have been the whole truth but it did comprise a part of it. "I see," she was not convinced, "but I have never known you to be very political." "You don't have to be political, Debi," I snapped back before I could control myself, "you think everything is about you?" "Sharmi!" "I'm sorry, Debi, I am really not in the mood," I kissed her and tried to make up for the damage. "I want to listen to your honeymoon stories, maybe I can come and spend the night when Ajit is not here?" I knew -- even as I was saying it -- that Debi was not buying it. "I'm sorry too, Sharmi," she said, "I know how you feel. Dipu should have come in June . . . even if for a week." "Never mind him," I thought I should tell her that she was way off-base on that one, but I couldn't; I wasn't entirely convinced myself of that either. Besides, I didn't want to give her another reason to worry. However, both politics and Bidyut were to be blamed that evening. For the first time I kept something from Debi. The urge to protect my newfound romantic interest from others was inexplicably dominant. Another year would pass before I could tell her about him. *** We met regularly in the hospital and, before long, started going out to have dinner at the local restaurants. Things were made simple by the fact that Dipankar failed to show up the following year too, and our regular correspondence had slowed to a trickle. Events during that period are somewhat fuzzy and there are temporal overlaps in my mind; but I believe, by the year-end, Bidyut was a general practitioner, assisting his father in his already established clinic. He had wanted to go into surgery, but his father's failing health forced him to pick up the practice. Although he didn't seem to mind, I had felt sorry for him. ++++ When I finally broached Bidyut to her, she had expressed uneasiness. "But, aren't you corresponding with Dipu, too?" Debi had said. "I am . . . but don't you think it would be rather selfish of him to expect that I will keep my life on hold for a person I had basically talked to once about thirty months ago?" I became aware of the acerbity in my delivery. "I suppose," and she had looked at me quizzically. "You sure you have absolutely no feeling for Dipu, then?" she had always been very direct and this one actually caught me off-guard. "I . . . I . . . don't know," I had said, "But Bidyut is here and now!" I had always known that there was something about Dipankar that was hard for me to ignore; but let me stick to the timeline for now. Other things warrant documentation meanwhile. *** After Ajit had left for his job again, Debi was feeling very alone. Especially so since she was in different surroundings. Although she was no stranger to that household, it was, after all, not hers . . . not yet, anyway. Not where she grew up and not the room she was used to falling asleep at night. The two weeks following their wedding that she and Ajit were together, had passed in a blink. She had had little time to brood. There is an age old Bengali aphorism -- "ghharete parabaashi" -- that could aptly describe her state of mind. She was a stranger in her 'own' house. As for myself, I was feeling relieved that Ajit had left the week before. Now that he was Debi's husband, I felt uneasy being my old self in his presence. Ajit's parents were wonderful and they made every effort to make their 'daughter-in-law' comfortable, but it wasn't something they could fix. Debi was missing Ajit like she had never imagined. It was probably compounded by the short week of honeymoon. It was not the same as before their marriage. She described to me how the physical union had felt like the ultimate melding of their two souls. It was something I could not comprehend then. I wondered how she could be so miserable all of a sudden when she knew all along that they were to live apart for a while. Indeed, not accompanying him was her decision all along. After my initial sympathy wore off, I felt irritated at her whining about it every time we met. Part of my vex (I am sure now) was due to the sudden cognizance of Ajit's eminence in her life. Strangely I had half expected that, but never saw it coming. Debi somehow sensed my dejection and came to the rescue. "Sharmi," she tenderly said that afternoon as we lay side by side in their bed, "you are upset, aren't you?" "No!" I was looking at the ceiling, "why?" "I know you," she sounded contemplative, "I think you are jealous." After a short pause, she whispered out loud, "My God, Sharmi . . . you ARE jealous . . . of Ajit . . . aren't you!" she sat up straight beside me. I looked at her and marveled at her beauty. She looked so damn beautiful, the vermilion along the thin parting of her dense black hair showing like a line of fire! I wanted to hug her, and kiss her, and become her as Ajit obviously had. But for my bruised ego, I would have pulled her down on top of me and be naughty. Instead, all I did was turn over on my stomach and break out in a bawl, thankfully muffled by the pillow. "Great!" Debi jumped out of the bed and quickly closed the door. "What on earth . . . ! Why . . . why are you crying like that? If anybody should cry it should be I ! Sharmi . . .?" "See . . . you don't even think about me anymore, Debi," the words escaped muffled. "What?" Debi stood beside the bed and turned me over, "what are you talking about? You are being childish, Sharmi. You know better than to say that." "You have not stopped talking about Ajit since I came," I was being childish. "Now! Upon my word, Sharmi! I thought you wanted to know about Ajit and me!" she said, "and whom should I talk to about these things but you, anyway? Oh, Sharmi . . . you know I love you both . . . equally" she added, "well almost . . ." and broke out in a giggle. In the deep recesses of my head somewhere there still was a sane voice that poked me and alerted me to my juvenile behavior. I just wanted to hear it from Debi. I was certainly mature enough to know the meaning of "almost" in that context. I also knew rather well that I was really not jealous of Ajit (indeed, I was, at that moment, feeling a kinship with him). I could not myself fathom my own emotions; I felt stupid. "Damn . . . I know . . . I feel stupid, Debi," I murmured. "Never mind now," she said, "I have not had any release for over a week now, are you in a mood to . . .?" "God, yessss," I said with a naughty hiss, grabbed her hand and pulled. She lost her balance and fell on the bed. The next moment she was all over me. "Do you think you'll like me after doing Ajit?" I said, trying to sound despondent. "We'll see . . ." Debi answered as she unbuttoned my blouse, "if not, we'll surgically fit you with something." We both giggled at that very crass quip. "I should get out of my clothes, Debi," I said and stood up from the bed, "I will have to go back home, you know." "OK . . . hurry up," Debi was evidently starving. She was looking at me with a fiery lust in her eyes. I took my time as I undressed. I watched her breathing getting irregular and her eyes glazing over as I teased. "Sharmi!" she hissed as I gently gathered my sari up and started pleating it for properly putting it away. "You don't want me to go home in a crumpled up sari, do you?" I said with a nonchalant smile and that drove her mad. "I have a million saris you could wear, you imp!" she got up and from the bed and grabbed the half- done thing from me. She had already divested herself of her own and was in her blouse and petticoat. I could see the outlines of her nipples from above the fine material of her sleeveless blouse. She seemed to have added some to those beautiful orbs since I last saw her in a state of undress. "Wow . . . Debi . . . Ajit certainly has applied his touch there, hasn't he!" I said as I felt the contour of one of her breasts with my hand, "Ahem . . . I wonder if he will be willing to oblige me too . . ." "Sure . . ." She said while unbuttoning her blouse, "but I don't think you really need any in that department, you look just fine." We were most certainly in our comfortably racy frame of mind. The allusion to 'Ajit's touch' is traceable to the widely held contention among Indians that the lover's massage serves to augment female breasts (a concept that surely would save a lot of money for a lot of misdirected souls, and, of course, push back the retirement age of a certain group of professionals by about twenty years). I stared at her full, proud breasts with envy and affection. As she bared them, I lunged forward and stooped to plant a kiss on one. A strange scent greeted me. Debi even smelled different! It was in no way a turn off, but, in a flash, I became aware of her mutation from being just 'Debi' to being somebody's wife, somebody's daughter-in-law and somebody's sister-in-law. I might have froze in that posture, for I heard Debi's low voice, "Sharmi?" "You smell different," I looked up at her eyes and declared, "maybe it's the house." "Bad?" she asked naively. There was a slight hint of embarrassment in her voice. "You never smell bad," I said, and licked at one of her already swollen nipples still under the thin fabric of her blouse, "just a little different." Debi moaned and took her blouse off. 'C'mon . . . Sharmi . . ." she said as she pulled me towards her and we both crashed on the bed. It was a big bed and it felt different not to have to maneuver our bodies within the confines of a narrow cot that we were used to. I still had my blouse and my petticoat on, but I think I forgot about them. I was hungry for her, and for her sex. I had not even masturbated for a few weeks. The pent up tension -- and my frustration at not being able to connect with Debi and Ajit following their union -- made me frantic. I wanted to make love to Debi like the very first night we explored each other. "Mmmmmm . . ." I buried my face between her breasts and let myself go on her body. She held me tightly with her arms across my back and rocked. "Ohhhhh . . . sweet . . . my sweet Sharmi . . ." she moaned and she rocked as if cradling a baby, "yessss . . . suck . . . suck on my tits . . . ohhhh . . . nnnnngghhhh . . . missed you . . ." I soon forgot my anguish and had the most exhilarating afternoon in months. Debi let me relax on my back while she feasted. She definitely appeared more hungry than I was. I wasn't complaining, however. "You look more beautiful now," I said as she unbuttoned my blouse. "Really?" she looked at my eyes "why?" Even as she said that I could tell she knew already. Her eyes betrayed her. There was a knowing contentment in those beautiful eyes that was hard to miss. "You tell me," I reached with my hands and caressed her breasts, "Could it be Ajit?" "I don't see how," she was in a very playful mood, "except that I eat . . . ate . . . a little different," she added and threw me a naughty grin. She reached around my back to unhook my bra and I let her fumble for a few seconds before pointing out that I was wearing one with a clasp in the front. "I should get one of these," she said, "he should have less of a trouble then." "You shouldn't make everything that easy for him, Debi . . . or else you'll spoil him," I said, very seriously, as I lazily played with her nipples. "OK . . . boss . . ." she said with a mock salute and a smile. She bent down on me, taking my already sensitive nipples between her teeth -- one by one. Arching my back, I bit down hard on my lower lip trying to stifle a moan. We savored each other without bothering to get rid of all our clothes. She still had her petticoat on; and I my blouse, my bra and the rest. Soaking my panties through, I let Debi rub her closely trimmed cunt on my upper thigh, while, hunched over my torso, she licked me and kissed me and caressed me, her fingertips tracing abstract patterns on my skin. Considering the extent of our want, we behaved with utmost civility, I must say. Whether that was a subconscious decision on our part -- given that it was Debi's 'Shashurbaari' -- or it just happened that way, I couldn't tell, but we enjoyed what we did that afternoon. We played with each other, despite the urgency, and spent the entire afternoon slowly satisfying our bodies. I don't remember having ever done it that way till that day. We had had taken our time before -- ascending to feverish heights of passion and then letting go with volcanic raptures -- but that afternoon was very different. Time waited in deference to our mutual homage at the alter of Pleasure. It was an extended autumn that year in early October and its indolence -- in that room -- had us in its grip. We licked each other in a sixty-nine and the heady aroma between her thighs made me tipsy. I don 't have any other word to describe my state. When we knew that we were close, we faced each other and we held ourselves in a soft embrace, our thighs entwined and the petals of our womanhood softly but surely against the other's thigh, grinding in a deliberate rhythm. Our tongues mingled, our eyes locked, and we moaned and we groaned into each other's mouths as we started a slow ascension to the peak . . . the peak I had not visited in the longest time . . . the peak from where I would let myself go . . . the peak where Debi pushed me up to, in a gentle, sustained fervor. I dug into the smooth skin of her thigh with my wetness and my senses reeled, my lightness soaking up every sensation that permeated from between my legs. Our resolution washed over our perspiring bodies like tiny, yet unbroken, waves that break at a lake's shore in a calm afternoon. We could have easily drifted off to an afternoon siesta, only that it was not quite afternoon anymore. The late autumn's Sun had already undertaken his hasty retreat. We looked into each other's eyes and smiled. I thought I detected a shyness in her eyes. I put my lips on hers. "Ki bhaabchhish?" I whispered my question, my lips barely moving on hers. "Kichhunaa . . ." she replied with her eyes closed. "You ARE thinking something, Debi," I moved my face away and asked with some emphasis. Her eyes were still closed. "Well . . ." she looked at my eyes and said, "I was wondering if this could be considered adultery!" "Because you are married now?" I found myself wondering at the same time. Never did I consider that possibility. "Yeah!" she said out loud and sat up. She looked ravishing in her disheveled hair and her state of undress. "Good question," still mulling the idea, I responded unmindfully. I had no idea either. The scenario never played itself out in my imagination. "Maybe I should actually ask Ajit," Debi chuckled and ran one of her hand across my breasts, lightly touching the taut nipples with her fingertips, "if he doesn't think it is . . ." "And if he does?" I put my hand on hers over my chest and asked. I knew that Debi wasn't going to ask him anything and our occasional afternoons or nights together would remain the presumed play, as it were, between us. But, again, just that thought of Ajit's confidence amused me. "Well, I guess I'll have to make sure he doesn't. Won't I?" she replied with the same naughty smile and a feigned sigh. We lazily dressed and made ourselves civil before joining the family downstairs. Debi's in-laws were sitting in front of the TV in their small drawing room. They looked up at us and smiled approvingly. "Byash ghum dili tora!" Ajit's Mom said with an affectionate nod and in an accent reminiscent of her ancestral home. I was glad for her inference. "Not really . . . I was just dozing," I laughed, "I usually don't sleep in the afternoons." "I did . . ." Debi said in a very low voice. I detected a hint of guilt in her voice. She never could lie very well. "Stay for dinner, Sharmi," Ajit's mom insisted, her sense of hospitality a reflection of her unmistakable roots in the erstwhile 'East Bengal'. "No, no, it'll be too late then," I said. "I will come back and maybe stay the night one of these days," I added with a fleeting glance at Debi. She was looking straight ahead through the window. I felt a nip in the air as I stepped outside. Debi was going to see me off at the bus stop. I gathered the thin shawl around me and looked at her. "Toke jete hobe na . . ." I said tentatively. I wanted her company as long as I could, but I said that anyway! "No, I want to . . ." Debi started walking. "It feels good to be out," she added, "Can't go out on a whim anymore." "Why do you say that?" I was a little puzzled. "Oh Sharmi . . ." she made a gesture of exasperation with her shoulders, "It's not the same when you are married! You'll see . . ." "I still don't get it," I said, "They are so nice . . . you are lucky!" I was referring to her in-laws. They were indeed nice. "Sharmi, Sharmi . . ." she said, "They are nice, but no matter what, I am now a 'married woman' and 'married women' don't go out for evening strolls." Not that I was not familiar with what Debi was saying, it was just that I could not picture her as a 'married woman' in the way she submitted herself to be one. I wanted to give a hug, but I knew that the way I would hug her would attract curious looks. Not that it would essentially result in any inference at large, but I had become more aware of our relationship that went beyond the social prescription. I had learnt to control my spontaneity in public. Anyway , I was feeling much better knowing that marriage had not diminished her affection. *** It was getting a little too much for Debi. The commute to the university, for her post- graduate classes, was not that difficult; and she was used to it. However, what she was not used to was being a 'daughter-in-law' and a graduate student at the same time. In an extended family - - no matter how moderately extended it is -- there are certain things that are expected of the new inductee. A 'hyphenated daughter' is supposed to help in the general upkeep of the house, which a 'daughter' often may be excused from. That is not to say that, Jayeeta, her sister-in-law, didn't do her share. Being the youngest of the three siblings, and by virtue of the fact that she was only fifteen at the time, she was the darling of the household. Debi was very fond of her. Nonetheless, she increasingly found herself unable to cope with her dual role. When she talked to Ajit's mother about withdrawing from the University, his mother was very upset. She suggested that Debi better set her priorities and forget about the household for the time being. After another month or so, she wrote to her son to come to Calcutta and find a place for themselves closer to the University. That was simply a way to have her out of the house so that she would not feel obligated to do things that are usually expected of the daughter-in-law. Even after being told not to bother with the household, Debi was carrying on with her chores as usual. That worked out just fine. I 'agreed' to live with Debi, and Ajit found a very decent place on CIT Road. It was closer to the Sealdah train station than it was to Park Circus, and indeed was close to both our schools. My parents agreed that, since I would be staying with Debi, it would be convenient for me too. So, by the next May, Debi and I were sharing this wonderful flat on the ground floor of a three-storied house. It had two bedrooms, a drawing room, a kitchen and an extended dining space. The neighborhood was good too. My father wanted to pay half the rent, but Ajit declined. "You must be joking, Meshomashai," he had said, "I am relieved that Debi doesn't have to live all by herself." As a gesture, then, my father bought some furniture for the drawing room. Ajit had only a week's leave from his job, and so we finalized the rental deal and moved in within that short time. He had arranged for the flat through a friend soon after his mother had contacted him. So, it was ready when he arrived. Needless to say, I allowed Debi and Ajit their privacy for the couple of nights they got to spend together in their "own home" -- albeit rented -- and stayed home. "Now . . . Sharmi . . . behave yourself while I am away," Ajit whispered in my ears at the train station. "Did you tell that to your wife too?" I responded sharply -- in an undertone. "what are you two whispering about?" Debi asked. "Tell her, Ajit . . ." I smiled. "Tell me what?" "He wants us to behave," "Yeah?" Debi looked at Ajit and then at me with a very coquettish grin, "What did you say?" "I said to tell you," I hugged her from the side and said. "I see that you are not going to," Ajit winked at us, and then added "At least I don't have to worry about anybody else getting into my bed." "You are being rather presumptuous, aren't you Ajit?" I said with some defiance in my voice. "Who do you have in mind?" he asked, "Sanju" and then followed it up by a quick "Oooops . . . sorry." "Debi!" I was genuinely shocked, "You . . . you told him?" "Ajit!" Debi was embarrassed, "you are useless, Ajit!" "Don't worry, it is safe with me," Ajit grinned devilishly. I was not sure how to react. I was a little embarrassed but that was about the whole extent of it. I was shocked that Debi told him, but I wasn't mad. Within a few moments it made every logical sense that Debi would share this with Ajit. Fleetingly, I could visualize them in a passionate embrace on their bed . . . he inside her and she murmuring the torrid details about me and Sanju, while he slid in and out in a slow rhythm . . . listening to her. I must say, the scene, as I imagined it, made me humid. "Who said I was worrying . . ." I found myself saying as I tightened my embrace of Debi, "but you never know . . . really . . . Ajit." I felt some satisfaction in giving some of his own medicine back. Well . . . neither did I! +++++ End Part 20 (To be Contd. . .) <2nd attachment end> <3rd attachment, "MS21.TXT" begin> The Repost Continues: ************************** With due apology for my protracted postings of this long story, here is the twenty-first part. As always, I look forward to feedback from the readers. Please visit my ftp site at ASSTR. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with comments and corrections. WARNING: Do not proceed beyond this "warning" if you are not a mature person and/or are offended by explicit written descriptions of sexual encounters. My Story (Part 21) by Sharmila Sanyal. It was a strange feeling living independently and away from home. Almost overnight I was catapulted into real adulthood, it seemed. A lot of things that I used to take for granted while living with my parents now started looking like privileges. I never had to see the inside of a kitchen till then, and I had no reason to decide what a day's menu would be. I was a spoilt child of a relatively affluent home, who hardly ever had to make her own bed. Anyway, with my study load, I had little time to worry about such things. I had no culinary know-how and Debi had moved from her in-laws so that she would not have to deal with such things. So, naturally, we hired Promila to take care of our daily housekeeping and an elderly lady to cook for us three times a week. We affectionately called her "Maashi", meaning auntie. We probably never bothered to know her real name, otherwise I would have remembered. Promila came every morning for a few hours. Her job was tidying up, sweeping and mopping the floors. She also did our laundry when needed. Debi and I slept in Debi's room, of course, and that - I must remind the readers - was hardly unusual. I suppose a plethoric mention, too, that I was happy being so close to her every night would be pardoned. What may be of interest, though, is the fact that -- however unwittingly -- Ajit was lending a helping hand almost every night. It seemed that Indian Postal Service needed no other reason to justify its existence other than to keep the passion between the two love birds alive. That, in turn, was sufficient to keep us warm in bed at night. Did I feel used? Come to think of it, such a notion had never crossed my mind until this very moment. Maybe, in a way, I was; but I loved every bit of that use. Ajit wrote to Debi almost every week, and sometimes more frequently than that. Debi was not as regular in writing back, but that hardly seemed to matter to either of them. Indeed, I remember having to remind her every few weeks that she would need to respond to her "husband's" letter. Ajit's letters sizzled with pent up passion, and Debi had little flare for expressing passion on paper. So, it behooved me that I should help her verbalize her response once in a while. Yes, like everything else in Debi's life, I was privy to Ajit's letters. They read like some very well-written "Anonymous" literature. He was good with words, I must say. His descriptions of what he wanted to do to Debi while she stood against the wall, or as she showered, or when she would be fast asleep, never failed to light my fire. It was obvious -- from the way they read -- that Ajit knew that I had the privilege of reading his letters. Every so often, one would include me in their joint fantasy. He also knew, however, how not to overdo it. Here is a running excerpt from one of such letters that I had borrowed from Debi: "I cannot possibly describe my state of mind as I write this letter to you, lying on my stomach on my cold bed at night. . . . I have not relieved myself in over a week. As you can imagine, I am ready to burst. . . . I had saved all of it for you, thinking that, if by some miraculous turn of events, you arrived here and took your charge in your hands, I will fill you up with what is truly yours. . . . If you wanted to share it with somebody else, like Sharmi, you will have to do it yourself. I don't think I could handle both of you at the same time. . . . I want to love you to the fullest and satisfy your body and mind all night long tonight, . . . and let Sharmi watch (maybe she will join in, or perhaps gratify herself, as we climb towards the peak) . . .' That was, by no means, the full extent of his fantasies. And, I must admit that, during translation of the originals, some of the edge may have been lost. It may have been seasoned with my own sensibilities and my own "façon de parlar". " . . . This morning I couldn't contain myself any longer, as I showered." -- another of Ajit's letters read, ". . . I have not received any letter from you for almost a month now, and I have been thinking about you every minute and all through each passing day . . . I start it at night, as I retire, but the bed is a poor substitute for my Debi. I fall asleep holding back and wake up the next morning with a yearning unmatched in this world. . . . As I showered this morning, I worried about the state in which I was in. I couldn't possibly let others see me like that. It would have surely attracted much attention from the coworkers. Especially from the ladies. And more I thought about it, worse it got. Almost painful. I took it in my hand and it reminded me how you held it the last time we were together, ever so gently as if you were caressing Sharmi. I had implored you to be brutal . . . to close your fist tightly. I wanted you to bite down hard on the head and you looked up at me in amusement. You did . . . and I screamed in pleasure. It didn't take me long as I imagined your mouth on me and I imagined Sharmi lying beneath, her head hidden away from view between your beautiful, smooth, thighs. I saw my seeds -- that should have been yours to have -- wasted against the wall, as my fist tried to emulate your beautiful mouth. I imagined Sharmi's tongue reaching out to that distended button of yours and you screaming out in a delightful release . . . with me." My existence in their fantasies was hardly news, but to see it in black and white -- in such exquisite detail -- did wonders to my already over-active libido. Somehow, the hide-and-seek that Ajit and I played, with Debi in the middle, added spice. As Debi and I would grind our bodies together, recalling Ajit's most lush words, the seed of Debi's next letter would form in my head. We were inevitably -- though slowly -- perambulating towards the completion of the lascivious nexus, that had had started some time back. And, as Ajit's letters got bolder, I had a distinct feeling that they were as much for me as they were for Debi. They served their purpose to the fullest: "As I rock back and forth I can see you two," he had ventured to write in another, "locked in a tight embrace, with nothing but a film of perspiration separating your skin from hers. It is full moon tonight and I can see your skin glistening in the soft light of the silvery orb . . ." -- that would have been an impossibility for two reasons. Firstly, our bedroom faced the street and the west; secondly, from the date of that letter, it was monsoon -- but "Debi" certainly didn't bother to dampen his imagination by pointing that out. And she was the least bit perturbed by such licenses. ". . . I reach out and touch your bare skin, and you shiver. Sharmi extends her hand and I place myself on her soft palm . . . you open your mouth for a moist kiss and I lose myself there, while Sharmi grabs at what should be rightfully yours . . ." Amazing! ". . . while Sharmi grabs at what should be rightfully yours. Your hand moves down to where Sharmi is moist, and you insert . . ." Well, bashful I'm not, but I believe one gets the idea. I risk losing control here, so I will refrain from translating any more . . . at least for now. Whatever the future would have in store, I really took everything as a part of my ongoing fantasy, the only reality being Debi . . . and, of course, Sanju, my handsome cousin. I cannot discount him. My relationship with him had made me more bold about men, despite the fact that we really hadn't gone all the way. Not yet, anyway. **** We sat on a bench by the pond and watched the kids frolic under the mid afternoon sun. We hardly got to meet as regularly, since he started the internship. Between the clinic and the shifts at the hospital, he barely had time to smile. I did not burden him with my wants. I was busy with my studies too. Ordinarily he would not have been able to carry on looking after his father's practice, but the two professors in-charge of the interns knew their family well. "Debi is going to visit Ajit next month," I said. "That's nice," he looked at me with those incredibly bright eyes and smiled, "when was the last time she saw him?" "Oh, it's been five months since Ajit came for that short two-day visit!" "That long, eh?" he chuckled, "Must be hard." "Yeah," I nodded in agreement, "I definitely couldn't live like that." I gave him a cue that fell flat. That was quintessential Bidyut. And I couldn't have put his concerns over Debi's living without a mate at rest, could I? "Yes, but sometimes people have to . . . you know . . . in this day and age, career is a big concern," Bidyut had opined. "You can come and visit me when Debi is away," I had tried to inject a slight insouciance even as I spoke, my eagerness pathetically seeping through. "I'll surely try. When is she leaving?" he was not insincere. "The Thursday following the coming one," I tried hard to contain my excitement, while making sure the dates registered. "Oh. . . Oh . . ." "What?" "That whole week I will be busy at the department," this time his disappointment showed through. "I wish I could check up on you otherwise." "Busy?" "Yes . . . first there is that symposium on GE and then Dr. Sarkar wanted me to teach the hemato class as he will be away . . ." I wasn't listening to all the details. I just said, "You are too busy even for one evening?" "Come on, Sharmi, you understand," his voice carried no pretense, "and then Bagchi-babu's son-in-law may need my attention any time of the day." "How is he doing?" I asked. "I just hope that his BP stabilizes," he said, "I don't like to continue the Lassix too long." "Hmmmm. . ." "I will watch another week and then call in Dr. Sen," he almost mumbled to himself, "so far nothing serious is being presented except the extraordinary diastole; I had a ECG done . . . at the hospital . . . it looked normal to me . . . but . . . I . . . maybe the PR . . . a bit . . ." By that time, I had already made up my mind about my post- Hippocratic-oath career. I realised that I had little interest in a life that took so much away from personal time. Unfortunately for me, I had not known anybody in medical profession with whom I might have had an opportunity to confer before deciding to get into a medical school. It was more of a social dictum that made me study Medicine. If you excelled in academics, you automatically chose either of the two careers: Engineering or Medicine. Since I liked Biology as a subject and was quite good in Chemistry, the logical choice was Medicine. I liked studying Medicine and I enjoyed all the years at the school, but I wanted to do more than just be a doctor. Bidyut's thirty-six-hour days had made my resolve even stronger. "I don't think I am going to be a doctor," I took his warm hand into mine as I looked at his face. "Hmmm," he was looking straight ahead at the diving board across the tank, "that's nice." "Nice?" It took me a few seconds to realize that he hadn't heard a word of what I said. "Did you hear what I said?" I shook his hand vigorously. "Ah . . . what . . . what?" he came back from wherever he was, "what's the matter?" "I said I don't want to be a doctor." "You don't?" his big eyes easily betrayed his puzzlement. "No" I rested my head against his shoulder, "I don't think I could handle the work-load, Bidyut." "What then?" he was still puzzled. "Raise a family." I said with a not-so-feigned affection in my voice. "Oh!" he laughed. The elderly gentleman, taking a stroll along the path, looked in our direction following the source of that loud chortle. I was embarrassed. "Well . . . isn't it a bit early to be thinking in those terms?" Bidyut placed his other hand over mine. I lifted my head and looked down at our hands. That was a lot for him -- that holding my hand! His show of affection was limited to an occasional twinkle in his eyes while talking to me. Only I could read that! In the two years that I graduated from dropping the "-da" from his name, not once had we kissed. It was natural. Kissing in India is almost having sex! Well, not quite but it is definitely part of the foreplay. It is so intimate that the next step, as imagined, would be quite steamy and unavoidable. And, that's something one would have been hard pressed to reconcile with his nature. I looked at his eyes and smiled. He smiled back and, freeing the hand from mine, put his arm across my shoulders. He gave a gentle tug towards him and I lay my head again on his shoulder. We had never uttered the words, but our friends knew; and Debi and Ajit had accepted us as a couple, going steady. We had never been explicit even to each other. We had progressed to being able to rest my head against his shoulder as if on some intangible cue -- as the autumn follows monsoon. Like the birds heading south in winter, we met regularly, at 5 in the evening, in that park -- by that pool -- on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. We sat there talking till seven and then it would be time for Bidyut to head back to his evening of taking care of the patients. He had always been an extremely good 'doctor', and even as a senior medical student his professors treated him almost as their equal. Some even consulted him on complicated presentations. He had an uncanny aptitude at diagnoses. It was as if he was born to be a physician. And, it was -- to a large extent -- this faculty of his that made my lack of dedication to medicine so stark to myself. I could never be like him as a physician, and that was a compromise my soul wouldn't allow. *** Bidyut did visit me at the flat a few evenings while Debi was gone. She had actually ended up staying with Ajit an extra week. I had cautioned her against getting herself into trouble. "Don't forget that you need to complete your University first, Debi!" I had told her. She had winked and replied, "I will try . . . but you know . . . accident happens!" One of such evenings, Bidyut and I sat at the dining table and had tea and biscuit while Promila took care of the household. She was persuaded to stay the nights while Debi was gone. While I would have liked to stay with my parents during that time, I didn't have the time to pack for it. It had been quite a while that I hadn't stayed there for a whole week. It worked out for us, with Promila switching her time with the house that she went to during the evenings. "He is doing a lot better," Bidyut always found time to update me about his patients. "I'm glad." was my perfunctory response, "You work too hard, you know." "Not really, Sharmila," most of the time he insisted on calling me by my full name, "a doctor's duty . . . that's all." "What about the other duties?" I dropped the question very softly. He was looking at Promila sitting on the kitchen floor and chopping some vegetables at the 'bonti'. Her 'aanchal' had slid off her chest and the slopes of her tightly supported breasts were in clear view. I hadn't noticed till then, but it wasn't just the personality that was attractive about her. I liked her a lot, but this was ridiculous -- I thought. I had to clear my throat with some gusto. "You okay, Sharmi-di?" Promila looked up with her wide eyes and genuine concern, "shall I get some water?" "It's nothing, don't worry, I'll get it myself," I said and hurriedly left my chair to enter the kitchen. As I stepped away from the table, I looked in Bidyut's direction and found him staring at Promila the same way, but this time I was looking at his eyes almost directly. The tinge of green in my eyes instantly disappeared and I almost laughed out loudly to myself. I was familiar with that stare rather well. The typical reflective stare that I would often get while all that 'reflected' off those deep, wide-set eyes were my own puzzled countenance. It had bothered me in the beginning. Bidyut was not staring at anything in particular. I must have laughed out after all, for he came back from his self-communing. "Eh?" "Nothing . . ." I stepped inside the kitchen and came back with a glass to pour myself some cold water from the fridge. "Do you want some?" I asked. "Sure," he smiled at me, "but another cup of tea would be nice too." "I will make some," Promila got up from the 'bonti' and started to fill the kettle, "and then I will have to step out to buy some eggs for tomorrow, Sharmi-di." "Okay," I said, as I poured some water for Bidyut. A little later, as we sat sipping the tea, I suddenly found myself somewhat emboldened by the realisation that, with Promila gone, we were the only two souls in that flat. Never had we been by ourselves before that evening. "Hey . . ." I tapped lightly on his wrist. He was holding the cup daintily by its handle as he took a sip. "Yes?" He set the cup down on the table and looked at my eyes. And, I wondered how a person could be so clue-less. I got off my chair and stepped up to him. I sat down on his lap and, holding his head between my palms, planted a kiss on his lips with my mouth open. "Ohhhmmmmphh!" his surprise was amply detectable even through his pursed lips. A minute later, when I broke my kiss off, his lips were still wrinkled up and his eyes wide open -- the stound ever so obvious! +++++++++++++++++++ End Part 21 (To be Contd.) glossary: bonti = A cutting blade fixed to a wooden base; traditionally used to cut and chop everything from vegetables (smaller bonti) to meat (large bonti). Pronounced with a nasal 'o' and hence transcibed 'bonti'. <3rd attachment end> <4th attachment, "MS22.TXT" begin> The Repost Continues: ************************** Over the last couple of weeks, I have been receiving mails from some readers urging me to continue with "My Story". I appreciate your eagerness, however, I must admit that the recent events have left me rather "de-eroticized" (a term suggested by one of the readers). I had to force myself to finish this part as an attempt towards "normalization". Nothing works better -- no matter what the conflict -- like love and sex. I wish we could bring these deprived zealots and fanatics some of ASSTR. I have a strong hunch that it would go a long way towards attaining lasting peace (and a lot more decisively) than a would gunpowder and missiles. My thoughts are with all of humankind so precariously posited on the verge of extinction because of the falsehoods some people use to incite hatred in the name of their Creator. How ironic, that the Creator should be the silent spectator while Her creatures annihilate each other shouting Her name! Think loving thoughts. Please visit my ftp site at ASSTR. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with comments and corrections. My Story (Part 22) by Sharmila Sanyal. "You mean to say . . ." Debi sounded incredulous. "Well, yes . . . I mean . . . no . . . yes," I didn't know how else to elaborate. Debi and I rarely talked about Bidyut. I must say that I had been less than open about the relationship. If it was out of a sense of privacy I couldn't say, but certainly there was a clear separation in my mind . . . an island that I liked to visit alone. Even now I find it hard to articulate the senses and the feelings. Debi used to ask me about him when it all started and after I announced Bidyut to them. I never could say much. "Tell me, tell me," she would eagerly ask, as I would walk in through the doors. "What?" I would ask back and look away. It was as if I never wanted to allow her a peek into this world of mine. Then she would insist I recount every detail I could think of, and I would say something like, "Oh, we talked about his patients, really." In fact, we often did. I suppose, albeit subconsciously, I knew that nothing about our conversations and nothing about us would sound interesting to Debi. When they met him they did manage to carry on very nice and meaningful conversations, I must say. "And he didn't . . . I mean you didn't feel . . . anything?" Debi's disbelief showed through again, "Did you touch him here?" she pressed on in more ways than one. "I didn't press -- like you are doing now -- if that's what you mean!" We were lying on our backs, in our night-dresses, talking about 'things;' and Bidyut's visit - while she was away - certainly qualified as a 'thing'. Normally I would just have listened to Debi, but something within myself was yearning for an ear. My first kiss it was not, but it was Kiss! And it was Bidyut's first . . . too painfully, and too obviously his First. One has to concede that his nescience in kissing would be hardly unexpected, and I should admit to a certain sense of satisfaction thereof. As I described that evening to Debi, however, my perplexity grew with my own recollection. "Maybe he was . . . you know . . . wearing . . ." Debi tried to find a loop-hole in my perception, "You know . . . they have these tight things they wear . . . Ajit does sometimes." "Perhaps, but . . ." I knew I was grasping at straws there, "But, don't you suppose I could tell even then?" "Not unless you groped like this" Debi demonstrated with passion, while planting a wet kiss on my lips. "Right . . ." I laughed, "I am sure I would have scandalized him right out of Calcutta, if I did that!" Debi's laughter drowned out my feeble contemplative titter. "He did return the kiss, though, didn't he?" Debi looked at me quizzically in the dull bluish-green night light. "Well, yes," I said, "but almost as if he had to." The more I thought about it, the more restless I felt. "You don't want to do it?" Debi propped herself up on one elbow and asked with a very perturbed voice. "Why . . . yes . . . sure. . ." "But you are dry again," she pointed out. I hadn't realised that she had pulled my night-dress up and that her hand had found its way between my legs. "I am?" I didn't know what to say, "I suppose I am . . . maybe not tonight." "That's all right, Sharmi," Debi was quite understanding, "it is disturbing, what you just described." "Hmmm," I concurred with the simple sound of equivocation. I lay on my back and stared at the ceiling while Debi cuddled up against me, her wet lips nudging against the side of my neck. I liked her warm, moist breath on my skin as her hand lay folded across my chest. It was a peaceful night all around. Soon, I felt Debi's breathing become regular as she drifted off to her deep slumber. 'Such uncomplicated life she has!' I thought, as I kept staring at the white-washed ceiling and kept worrying . . . I worried. I worried that night and I worried for several days after that. I had not really thought much about that evening when I let the woman in me get the better of me. I hadn't planned anything, for I had little vision of the future. With Promila gone, something inside of me had urged me to simply seize the moment that evening. I had not paid much attention to his stupor following my kiss. In other words, it made little impression on me. Still seated on his lap, I had loosened his tie, unbuttoned his shirt buttons and slid my hand under his shirt. I traced meaningless alphabets on his undershirt that covered his smooth chest as I looked into his eyes. His eyes betrayed no emotion as he smiled back through his clenched jaws, finally. "Sharmi . . . what are you doing?" He sounded as calm as always. At least, he tried to. "What do you think I am doing?" I asked with my natural eagerness. "I am not sure . . ." he was tentative, as if he didn't want to admit to himself the consciousness. "Never mind then . . ." I had said, sealing off his apparent denial with another kiss. "Sharmi!" this time he broke it off with some determination, "I don't think . . ." "Don't think what!" "We are not yet married. Sharmi!" The tremor was audible in his voice. "I know that!" comprehension was still eluding me. "Then?" he held my shoulders with both hands at his arm's length and said, "I don't think we should be doing this, Sharmi . . . it's not . . . ummmm . . . right, you know!" "What isn't right?" my brain still suffered from a paucity of blood, I suppose. "You know, what you are doing?" "Kissing you? What's so wrong in kissing you?" it was I who was stupefied now. "We shouldn't be kissing before we are married!" Bidyut's voice sounded quite clinical as he pronounced his persuasion. "Okay," I was completely at a loss for any more. I got off his knees and sat down on my chair. I looked at him as he buttoned his shirt and tightened his necktie up -- à sang-froid! Should I have been offended? I don't know, I didn't feel offended then, nor did I feel rejected. A bit amazed was I . . . and amused at the same time. I marveled at Bidyut's apparent coolness and I admired his composure on the face of my 'assault'. I have seen lust in Ajit's eyes and I have experienced passion with Sanju. I have felt other men's desires against me in crowded transport, and have often enjoyed the surreptitious brushes. I have -- on occasions -- encouraged a few past even that. I suppose that Bidyut's nonchalance against my obvious advance was so unexpected that I did not know how to react. I chalked that down to a separation of love and sex in my own mind until that night, when Debi sounded a note of sympathy and concern. I could not let it rest. It has been against my nature to let a sleeping dog lie. Well, I didn't intend any pun there, this was serious! I owed it to myself, I thought, and what ensued did change things for me. ******* "Why don't you come over for dinner next week?" I propositioned Bidyut one Saturday evening. "Sure," he accepted, "What day?" "How about next Friday?" I said. I didn't elaborate any further on my choice of the day. So it was done. When I let Debi know (for it was her idea to begin with) she struggled hard to contain her excitement. Promila was in on it too. Being of similar ages, the three of us had become quite close over the past several months, and that camaraderie, later, had extended far. Indeed, as Promila had revealed later, her trip to the store for eggs that evening was a very well considered gesture to allow Bidyut and me some privacy. When Bidyut arrived that evening around eight o'clock, Debi had already left for her in-laws and Promila, having finished her chores for that day, was about to leave. As Debi was away for that night, she would have to stay over and would return around eleven. She answered the door for him and as he entered past her, she threw me a meaningful look and winked mischievously. I stood beside the dining table and smiled at Bidyut as he came up to me and asked, "Isn't Debi home?" "She is at her in-laws for the weekend," I muttered, the conspiratorial underplot behind her absence eating through my conscience. "Oh!" Bidyut was visibly taken aback. "Do you have anything else for me to do?" Promila's redundant query was addressed to me. I simply shook my head in response. "I will be back later then, Sharmi-di," she said and barely concealed a giggle. And I never thought, till that moment, that I could be nervous about anything. "She is leaving too?" a perplexed Bidyut uttered. "Why, am I not enough?" I couldn't pass up on that little coquetry. Truth be told, I was as much at a loss as anybody in that room. "He he he . . ." he made a nervous sound. "Relax, I am not going to eat you up!" I said as I locked the front door behind Promila and I heard her through the door, saying, "It's not good to lie like that, Sharmi-di." We finished our dinner while talking about my courses and other un-romantic things, and he maintained his elements by going over the past week's patient charts. We retired to my room. Promila, in her usual levity, had decorated the room with a couple of bunches of tuberose. The air in the room was heavy with their fragrance. The unmistakable association of the flower with wedding nights didn't elude Bidyut for long. "Whose idea was this?" he asked, not making any effort to conceal the unease. "Ummm . . . I don't know . . . maybe Promila . . ." I said, as I followed him into the room. I was not a little disappointed in his response, and was beginning to feel rather stupid for having arranged for this evening of romance. "Promila takes a little too much liberty with you two, doesn't she!" "Liberty? No . . . not at all . . ." I said with some emphasis, "She is a good girl and we have become friends." With that I simply swung around in front of him and, throwing my arms around his neck, drew his face down to mine. Keeping my eyes on his, I planted my open mouth around his lips. He stiffened and then let go with a surprised monosyllabic "Hey" that got muffled between my lips. It was high time I took charge, I remember thinking. We stumbled onto my neatly done bed, with him on top of me. I almost could feel his heart beat faster with every passing moment. I held his head against my chest and ran my fingers through his wavy dense hair. "Bidyut!" I muttered through my breath. "Mmmm?" his response was muffled against my chest. "Does it feel so bad?" "Nnnaah" he uttered against my aanchal that covered my blouse that covered my breast. "Why are you so tense then?" I whispered. Bidyut tried to relax. I could tell that he was still rather ill at ease. "I am not sure if we should do this," he managed to blurt out in one breath after a few seconds. "Do what?" I couldn't help but show my amusement at his undue apprehension. Undue it was; for although it was hardly a situation à l'improviste, I myself had absolutely no idea where it was leading to. Bidyut rolled off me and on his side. He looked flushed, his wheaty complexion betraying his emotion. "You know what I'm talking about," he said, "we ought not let the rein loose, Sharmi!" "Eitukutei laagaam-chhaaraa habaar bhoy?" I giggled. Indeed, it was amusing how he was so afraid of what might happen. "Tomaar bhoy kore na?" he asked me, putting me rather in an awkward situation. I have rarely considered physical intimacy with any trepidation . . . especially when there is affection involved. "Bhoy?" I bought time with that reiteration, for I was not considering anything past a little kissing and necking at that point. Something inside me also cautioned me against making my superior experience in such matters obvious to him. "Hyan" His voice sounded tremulous. "Why? What is there to be afraid of?" I said. "Being taken advantage of . . ." Bidyut looked into my eyes with genuine concern. "I want to be taken advantage of," I said, as I flung one of my arms around his neck and drew him down, adding, with the just the right degree of dramatic eagerness, "By you!" I closed my eyes and opened my mouth and waited. I waited for what seemed to be a very long time before I opened my eyes again! "What?" I inquired. There was an utterly perplexed expression on his face. He remained unsure of his next move for several more seconds, till I tugged, and his face came crashing down on mine! For the first time in our eighteen-month acquaintance, he kissed me, albeit with a little encouragement from me. I moved my body to become somewhat more comfortable along the length of my bed and he rolled on top of me. Still in his full formal wear, he kissed my cheek, my forehead and then his lips returned to mine. I opened my mouth and he needed little lesson in kissing after that. I felt his tongue moving gently against my teeth as he tentatively let one of his hands brush against the side of my chest. His fingers tried to feel the softness, unsure . . . as if empirically determining the best spot and the most appropriate pressure to apply there. I took one of my hands between our bodies and, with deft fingers, unbuttoned the front of my blouse. I left the bra up to him. A girl should only exhibit so much cooperation, I remember thinking. Bidyut put one of his legs across my thighs and I felt his growing excitement through his trousers. It wasn't the first time I felt a tumescent manhood, but it was a feeling that I had not experienced before. I waited with patience, like a teacher in a kindergarten class waiting for the little pupil to surprise her. "Nnnnn. . ." I heard his whispered moan against my neck. "Bidyut . . . Oh . . . Bidyut," I heard myself say, my consciousness floating. Up it went in the humid coolness of the late autumn evening, and I could see myself entwined in his arms and his legs . . . still fully clothed. I felt him move against me, his engorged proof of affection pressed firmly against the side of my thigh. I felt the heat of his being and the warmth of his breath . . . and I felt the throb! I waited for his fingers to find their way to my breasts, but he was busy otherwise. I arched my back slightly and unhooked my bra, making a mental note of wearing the 'front open' kind next time. I gently lifted his forearm -- that lay passively across my chest -- and placed his hand on my breast. He froze. I felt the tremor in his body and, through the fabric, I sensed his fingers flex at the feel of my breast. By that time, my already illusive somatic interest had a backseat to a more intellectual exercise. "Ohhhh . . . nnnn" he let out another whispered groan and I felt his cock pulsate against my thigh. Suddenly -- as if possessed -- he tore at my bra and climbed on top of my body. I looked at his eyes and smiled. A glabrous expression blanketed his face, his widely set eyes more shiny than ever. I could easily feel his hard cock against the inside of my thigh as he thrust his pelvis back and forth. I held him tight and then moved my hands to his flexing buttocks. I squeezed the mounds with both hands . . . "Aaaaahhhhnnnnng," a very controlled, if not half-hearted, groan was allowed to escape from his throat as he came, panting, his hard cock held pressed against the inside of one of my thighs in a deliberate final squeeze. Soon, his body was going limp on top of mine. I ran my hands over his back where his sweat had broken through his undershirt and through the thin fabric of his shirt. He always wore undershirts. I stared at the stationary blades of the ceiling fan and wished I had a bed-switch for it. It wasn't warm, but the humidity always hung in the air in this metropolis. I wondered if I was the first for Bidyut. I never asked him. I wondered if it was as good as he would have felt in a crowded bus . . . sweat and all. I wished Promila was back. There were very few words that were spoken. As I shifted under his weight, he came back to his senses and rolled off. He buried his face in the pillow and stayed like that for a while. "I have to go," he spoke as he slid off the bed and, without ever facing me, managed to drag himself off and out of the room. I didn't say a word. I was not paying attention to anything, really. I was lying on my bed with somewhat of a blank mind, with disjointed thoughts flashing through like some poorly edited photo play. When Bidyut came back into the room and said, "I must go . . . Sharmi . . . it's late," I was finally brought back to my surroundings by the sound of his voice -- a note lower than usual. I sat up on my bed, oblivious of the state of undress I was in. Then, following his eyes, I hurriedly drew my disheveled aanchal over my breasts. "T-t-tumi jaamaa-kaapor thik kore naao," he said, the tremor in his voice betraying his discomfort. I wanted to tell him that it was OK. I could have reminded him that we two were alone in the house and that straightening out my clothes hardly seemed a priority, but I kept my thoughts to myself. I was thinking of the intimacy that we experienced a short while back. I was thinking of the intimacy . . . and it suddenly bothered me. "Tumi ekhon-i jaabe?" I asked. The sound of my own voice frightened me! "I should, really . . . it's getting late," he looked at his watch. "Porshu aashchho-to . . . park-e?" It was a question that sounded very matter-of-fact to my own ears. Impertinent and unapt? Why didn't it matter if he came to the park the day after? A host of sentiments flowed through in quick successions through my mind. Despite a rather innocuous encounter of that evening, his demeanor had made me rather uneasy and I could not quite put my finger on it. "Dekhi," his perfunctory response floated off through the door where he was standing, "I'll try . . . a lot of work." He tried, in vain, to look at me while searching for words. I got up from the bed and wrapped my saaree around to cover myself. As I saw him off at the front door -- standing half hidden from the street -- I suddenly felt very naked; almost like a harlot seeing off his john. I stood in the darkness of the drawing room and saw him hurriedly disappear around the block. He never brought his car up to our street. ++++++++++++ End Part 22 (To be Continued). <4th attachment end> <5th attachment, "MS23.TXT" begin> For those handful of loyal reader of this narration, I am posting this long overdue part. For those who care, the previous parts are now back at the ftp site of ASSTR. As always, I will look forward to emails pointing out mistakes and lapses in my writing. But that surely does not mean that an occassional encouraging letter isn't welcome. Wishing you all a very fruitful 2002. The usual warning, regarding immature brains, naive and yet unprepared for the adult world: "Do not venture any further down (pun happens) if you are not biologically and/or mentally of the age that allows such an undertaking" ++++++++++++++++++++ My Story (Part 23) by Sharmila Sanyal. I closed the door and went back to my room. The fragrance from the generous bunch of tuberoses made the air inside the room heavy. Overwhelmed, I opened the window to let some fresh air in. I would have waited for Promila to come back, but I could barely keep my eyes open. She had keys to the front door, so I found no reason to be waiting for her. I changed into my night dress, made my usual round to the bathroom and hit the bed. A thousand thoughts tried to crowd into my head, but I drifted quickly off to slumber land. I dreamt a wonderfully naughty dream. He was kissing me on the slopes of my unrestrained breasts as he lay on top of my eager body, his legs straight and down between mine and his naked chest flat against my belly. I felt his bare back and traced my name with my nails on his skin. I felt his tongue on my taut nipples and became aware of the wetness between my legs. It soon turned into a river that carried my passion between the ridges of my thighs. My naked skin against his . . . his perspiration running down his back and joining in a stream with my passion-river . . . his unseen hardness trying to enter my slippery cave . . . I held it in my fist and he thrust himself inside me, and , in some magical contort, his young tongue found its mark between my outstretched thighs . . . the swollen seat of my excitement throbbingly responding to his ministrations. I was matching the steady rhythm of his piston with my hips, listening to his grunts against my earlobes . . . his warm, heavy breath permeating my warm being and down to the valley where we were one. I held his head between my hands, and I wrapped his robust back with my thighs.while his soft hands kneaded my breasts and his ruddy lips sucked on my aureoles . . . I heard him mutter my name, the sound muffled against my own skin. As I took my hand between our bodies and to the junction where he entered, I felt his silky curls . . . the satiny feel of his wet manhood, pistoning inside me made my entire body jerk in pleasure and I touched my rudimentary shaft with one wet finger . . . and that was all . . . a spasm . . . a deluge . . . I woke up in a sweat . . . an utterly satisfied body draped in a disheveled nightgown bunched up above my waist with both my hands securely lodged between my thighs . . . my legs bent at the knees. A sliver of the fluorescent light from the street was all that softly sliced through the darkness inside my room, casting an otherworldly iridescence on the white-washed wall across from my bed. I grabbed the sheet from under my feet and pulled it over my almost bare body. I turned and faced the window and went back to sleep hoping to dream some more. It was a feeling that I can only re-live in my own memory, for words fail -- no matter how I try -- to describe that satiated state that gently swept over every follicle of my warm body . . . that, yet, threatened to lift me up into another height of passion with my dream-mate . . . my unseen -- yet so familiar -- lover. I dared not go there once again as the delicious languor overcame my still tingling body. +++ "Hmmm . . . Sharmi-di, quite an evening you had I suppose?" there was a naughty smile on her face as she stirred the tea for me. "What evening?" I tried to sound as casual as I could in trying to avoid Promila's probe, "we just talked and then he left." I knew I wasn't being candid, but, in all honesty, that was the truth for me. "Thhaak, nyakaa shaajthi hobé naa," she said through her soft giggle, and I didn't quite understand why she thought I was being coy. Being coy was not, and never has been, in my nature -- at least not when it came to confiding in my friends. Promila had, by then, earned that privilege, I'm sure. "Nyakaa?" I looked at her with genuine puzzlement, "Kéno?" I wanted to see in her eyes what she meant by that? Had she been peeping through the window last evening as Bidyut was satisfying himself of my femininity? "Aami shob shunichi kaal raaté go." Her long urbanization loosing its hold, her roots closer to the Bay often endearingly seeped through in her dialect. I shot a glance at her eyes momentarily from above the rim of my tea cup. She immediately lowered her eyelids, the sudden surge of blood into her fair face betraying her own embarrassment as, perhaps unwittingly, she had broken the code of propriety expected of a maid. I was more intrigued than anything. What could she have heard last night? Neither of us made any sound that would have been audible to anybody standing outside. "You heard us doing what?" I had to ask. "I don't know what you did, Sharmi-di, I wouldn't know, Sharmi-di, I am sorry . . ." she was quite perceptibly embarrassed at her own indiscretion. "No, really, tell me . . . I don't mind," I looked at her squarely and insisted in a tone that, I hoped, would put her at ease. At the same time, I was suddenly struck by her raw beauty even as I prepared myself for a rather embarrassing revelation. "Aami to moné nilaam tomraa kaal khub ékchot mojaa koirlé," she said with the faintest hint of a wink and still hanging on to the suggestion of her dialect. I had no idea why she would have thought that we had a wild time between ourselves. For all I could imagine about Bidyut, "wild" was not one of his attributes, nor would I have categorized that, which happened the night before, as such. Moreover, I was sure Promila had no way of imagining him as one. "Why did you think that?" "Well . . . the sounds that you were making . . . and then . . ." she paused. "You mean last night?" I finally understood what she meant by "kaal raat". "Yes . . . last night . . . I suppose you were dreaming about Bidyut-da, eh?" She was on a roll . . . her excitement showing on her face -- and in her eyes -- even as she recalled. "No!" I said emhatically. I couldn't be any more assertive than that. As it dawned on me that I must have been very noisy in my dream, I have to admit that I might have blushed in embarrassment, even if it were seemingly the lesser of the two. "No?" She had already mustered enough courage to be naughty in her delivery, "I heard your moaning, Sharmi-di." Somehow, suddenly, the "-di" sounded very incongruous coming out of her. She was perhaps my own age and we had had become quite free with each other. From what was about to be revealed, she might as well drop the formality -- I thought. I told her so and it didn't take her but a moment to comply. "Sharmi, aacchhaa," she settled down with that newfound privilege of hers quite effortlessly. "You were moaning and groaning . . . and . . ." she elaborated further. "Was I?" what else could I have said? "Yea, my God, you were making so much noise . . . like . . . you know . . ." her tentativeness was amusing at that point. "Like what?" I suddenly found my ground, "How would you know, anyway?" "Aha . . . aami kochi-taa kina . . . taai," lapsing back to her unguarded dialect with a naughty giggle, she reminded me of her youth. "I see . . . so you are quite experienced . . . are you?" I found her lack of sophistication rather refreshing. "I had to look in . . ." she avoided my question and confessed. "Looked in?" "Yes, you were doing it . . ." I could tell that she was both excited and embarrassed as she mentally recalled what she observed that night. "Hmmmm . . ." I looked away in my own embarrassment. I had absolutely no idea how to react. The three of us in that household had dropped a lot of protocols between ourselves, and that included the occasional plays on word with mildly sexual undertone, but never had Promila been so direct in her banter before that morning. The strangely opposing feelings of unease and excitement had my mind fogged. The embarrassment I ought to have felt at being discovered in a rare moment of my solo self-pleasuring was being overcome by a far more powerful emotion that I had felt but once before in my life. I was in my early adolescence then. This was quite different . . . not so much in its effect as in the involvement of my intellect. It was not the adolescent passion that had my body all aquiver; it was a sinful realization that I had had been the subject of another's voyeuristic delight. "So . . ." I looked up and at her, "I am sure it was nothing new to you, Promila!" I forced those words to form and uttered them mechanically. I still found it difficult to converse freely. I wished Debi were there. She was far more comfortable dealing with Promila and, when it came to sex, she always knew what to say. "Tobé?" she responded with that single word that summed up the awkward formality between the two of us . . . two women - in their very early twenties - separated per chance by an unwritten social dictum. "What 'then'?" I couldn't suppress a smile while repeating her very open ended word delivered with an interrogatory inflection to put me on the spot. "You don't have to be embarrassed about it, Sharmi-di . . ." she said by way of reassuring me. I reminded her of the redundancy of the "-di", and she smiled a shy smile. At that instant I remember thinking of the idiot that left her for another woman. Promila had confided in us about the very short marriage, that lasted about a year, to one of the men in her village. In their society, the men rarely think twice before wandering off. Promila, for her part, was guilty of not having brought forth any issue within the year. So, when her "husband" left her for a supposedly more fertile pasture, she was left alone to fend for herself. As is often the case, she found herself in the city working as a maid. Without any formal education beyond the eighth grade, anything beyond that would be an improbable proposition. She was bright and witty and her sunny disposition enhanced her country girl beauty. With a figure that would have given any centerfold a run for her money, she could have had any man at her beck and call. I hadn't asked her if she had a man in her life, but assumed she didn't. She lived with a distant aunt, and her family, in a nearby slum, in a one-room accomodation. It would have been quite improbable for her to be able to indulge, I thought. I was wrong, but that would be another story! "I am not . . . really," I tried to sound in command of the situation. Increasingly, the thought of her watching me masturbating in my sleep was making me feel something. The early morning's exhausting, and satisfying self-gratification notwithstanding, I became aware of the distinct little tingling in my already swollen labia, and inside of me . . . there the wetness slowly, but surely, building up like a river in monsoon, ready to sweep away everything along its shores. I looked up again at her and found her staring intently at me. Her countenance betraying her own state of excitement, she lowered her eyes and blushed. "Raag korchho, go?" she asked in almost a whisper, her large eyelids still guarding her beautiful eyes. "Naa . . . Naaaah . . ." I tried my best to sound reassuring, but my voice -- through the schism between my brain and my body -- failed to establish that there was really nothing that I could be angry about. That morning, I could not say much more. I just threw a forced smile at Promila and went to my room with my cup of tea. As I sat down on my bed I looked at the door and, through the opening between the door frame and the curtain, caught a glimpse of Promila cleaning up the table. I suddenly realized that probably more than anything, I was afraid that she would find out about my dream! ++++ "You are late today!" Bidyut's voice startled me at the bus stop. I was indeed held back at the college studying Pathology with a few friends that evening, and was waiting at the bus stop in front of the movie theater to catch my ride. Harrison Road was as busy as always and one literally had to shout to be heard. "Oh!" I was surprised to see Bidyut. It was not our usual meeting day, "Tumi jé ?" "Why?" he was visibly amused at my unpreparedness, "You expecting somebody else?" "No . . . No . . . whom would I be waiting for?" I said, trying to sound hurt. "I don't know . . ." "Don't be silly," I grabbed his hand to reassure, "There isn't anybody else!" And I sounded funny to myself, trying to assure somebody who least needed it. "So, what are you doing here?" I asked, "Harrison Road isn't your usual beat!" "Uh . . . Uh . . . Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi Road!" and with that attempt at humor, Bidyut laughed aloud. It was so unlike him that I wondered about his state of mind. "Right, I am used more to "Harrison" than "Gandhi". My entire extended family never call it anything other than Harrison Road, and so there . . ." letting his hand go, I stamped my foot in mock defiance and looked up at him. He was smiling. "Will we get together this week at your place?" he asked almost abruptly. "Sure, why not," I responded, "when?" "Whenever Debi is away," he said, confounding me with a devilish smirk. Till that evening, I had never seen this side of him. "Oh my! Bidyut!" I said and I didn't have to even feign surprise, "I never knew you could be so . . . so . . ." "Naughty?" he completed my sentence. "Yes . . ." I almost stammered back. I must say I was also amused at his directness. I suppose the physical intimacy that he encountrered with me a few nights back had done a number on him. What was even more amusing was that I had thought that night that he hadn't the slightest inkling that I knew what had happened. To me, it was an episode that, in all probability, would not be brought up in any discussion with Bidyut ever. "So?" Bidyut egged on. So, he knew that I knew that . . . oh well, you get the idea. "Oh, Bidyut, you are incorrigible!" I was starting to feel a little uncomfortable by then, "Do you suppose I can pack Debi up every weekend?" It is not often that I am caught off-guard, but that evening's little myth-shattering disclosure certainly qualified as one such occassion. "I suppose you are right," he held my hand -- another first for the seemingly matter-of-fact Bidyut. I couldn't recall that he had ever taken my hand in his unless I put it there. I remember thinking to myself -- maybe not in so many words -- that I had created a monster. In spite of myself, I was pleased . . . immensely pleased. "Oh, don't be discouraged, Doctor, I will parcel her off to her in-laws this coming Friday again!" I said with a deliberate mischief in my voice, and gave his hand a meaningful squeeze, "How does that sound?" It later puzzled me that he never wondered about my ability to "parcel off" Debi at "our" convenience. "Sounds good," he responded with somewhat of a restrained enthusiasm . . . perhaps suddenly apprehensive of his untethered emotions. Then he looked at his watch and excused himself in favor of an elderly patient in the neighborhood. We exchanged composed glances and I saw him briskly disappear into the crowd. The bus, bursting at its joints, pulled up and spewed out the passengers like a pressure cooker exhausting built up steam. I was lucky and found a seat in the still crowded vehicle. Settling down between two rather well-fed housewives - who, by their appearances, betrayed their western Indian origin of mercantile persuasion - I finally could ponder upon the possibilities for the following Friday. Bidyut obviously loosened up since we last met. It was only a couple of nights earlier when he couldn't leave our flat fast enough . . . and they call us fickle! Obviously he liked what he got! Having tried his utmost to take in exactly as many fares as had escaped the hull, the conductor finally heeded the not-so-friendly utterances of the sweaty, exhausted passengers eager to reach their homes. I sighed in relief. I couldn't possibly have described my dream to Bidyut. I looked up and smiled at the young man standing in front of me. He smiled back confidently, blissfully ignorant that I knew the reason for the bulge in front of his pants. I arranged my aanchal a little better to indulge. I could swear that I detected a direct response almost at my eye level. I was in my prurient mood already, the gentle throbbing having started at the junction of my thighs. I looked forward to a relaxing night with Debi. I wished I could make the crowd -- save the young man in front of me -- disappear. There would be the two of us . . . complete strangers tearing at our clothes and feeding on each other. God! I was bad, I thought to myself. I looked up and smiled again, and he turned his head away as if in pain. The trip was not too long and I just remained seated till the last moment. I was wet, and the crotch of my panties felt wet . . . almost like those rare occasions when I would be unprepared for my period. By the time we passed Sealdah, the bus was almost "empty". At my stop, I hurried down the steps and looked up from the street at the window. The poor guy was still staring at me. I smiled and waited till the bus left. I wished that the bus was too crowded for me to have found a seat. I was horny, extremely horny, that evening and spared little effort to let my cousin in on it. She was lying on her bed with a book and Promila was finishing up her day's chores, when I reached home. "You are late!" Promila said as she opened the door for me. "I know, I had things to do at the hospital," I smiled and replied. She was looking tired. I went straight to Debi's room and closed the door. We had never revealed our physical intimacy to Promila, and I wouldn't -- not in a sober mind. I sat beside Debi on the bed, bent down and kissed her passionately. She looked surprised as I pulled my face away from hers. We had the unspoken understanding. "What's the case now?" she looked at me quizzically after we broke our kiss off, wiping the saliva off her glistening lips with the corner of her saaree. "Oh, nothing really," I steadied my voice as I struggled to suppress my impassioned state of mind. "What are your plans for the next Friday?" I couldn't help asking right at that moment. "Nothing, why?" Debi's eyes were intent on mine, trying to see the inside of my brain. "Well, he wants to be alone with me again." "Oh?" she responded with some doubt in her voice, "I could go away again, if that's what you want." "It's up to you, I didn't commit, you know." "That's all right, Sharmi, let's see if he is any better this time," and with that she started laughing. She already looked good enough to eat and her laughter made her even more sexy. "God, I am horny," I confessed. "Already?" she said through her laugh, "In anticipation?" I paused before I answered, "That . . . and then there was this guy in the bus," I said and bent down to kiss her on the valley of her breasts when suddenly Promila pushed the door open . . . "Bordi . . ." that's what she called Debi, "I . . ." I shot up and looked towards the door. Promila stood there with an utterly embarrassed expression on her face. "Promila?" Debi sat up on the bed and asked in a very calm voice, as if to dissipate the sudden tension in the room. I wasn't sure how to handle the situation, except that I should follow Debi's cue and act normal. "Naa . . . maane . . . ekhon khaabe ?" she quickly asked. A loaded question as far as I was concerned. I was indeed ready to eat . . . surely . . . but not what Promila had in the kitchen. Debi and I exchanged glances and Debi sat up laughing. I realised that that was her way of making light of whatever Promila would have had fancied. I followed her lead with my nervous titter. ++++++ End Part 23 (to be continued) <5th attachment end> <6th attachment, "MS24.TXT" begin> The Repost Continues: ******************* I had actually decided that I would not post any more of this story. That, coupled with other preoccupation and some physical "downtime", had almost made me drop out of ASSTR and retire. A few of the readers (three, to be precise) actually expressed much concern or have wondered about my intent regarding "My Story". I decided eventually to continue and at least finish this narration before calling it quits. After all, I write as much for my own pleasure as I do for the readers; and even if there are only these three. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with (sensible, not moral) comments and corrections. NOTE: Please visit my 'ftp' site at asstr-mirror.org's Authors section to read the previous parts if. WARNING: Do not proceed beyond this "warning" if you are not a mature person and/or are offended by explicit written descriptions of sexual encounters. My Story (Part 24) by Sharmila Sanyal. "We'll be right there," Debi managed to stutter through her giggle. "I'll have to leave soon," Promila was looking down at the floor. "What time is it?" It was my turn to put in my contribution towards normalizing the situation. "Half past nine," I heard Promila say as she made an about turn and left for the kitchen. The sheer curtain, that hung from the door frame, flew around like frail maiden trying to guard her charms from some unseen miscreant. As we silently had our supper, Promila sat at the kitchen door and looked away from us most of the time, unless she was being spoken to. And then, when Debi suggested that she could easily stay the night if it was late to be walking back to her 'bustee', she looked up with a tormented expression in her face. A sudden rush of blood made her face almost pink. "I don't think it's very late," I found myself saying. I tried not think about it too much. I was afraid. "No, no . . ." Promila grasped at my words, "I have walked back even at eleven sometimes!" Debi looked at me blankly and tried to fathom the depth, for she could also see the disturbance in Promila's eyes. I returned the blank stare. I didn't want to admit to myself that I was struggling hard to ignore the natural charm and sexuality that seemed to be gushing forth from our maid's flushed countenance. By the time Promila took our leave for the night and Debi locked our front door, I could feel the distinct trickle of my love juices down the inside of my thighs. I was so horny that my legs shook. I could hardly wait for the nightly rounds to the bathroom to be over. Debi was on the bed already when I entered her room and deposited my short night-gown on one corner near the foot of the bed. The whitewashed walls reflected the funny green glow from the night lamp that Debi insisted remain on all night, and my white satin half-slip took on a weird color from it. I turned it off. The room was instantly plunged into a total darkness. Being against three other flats, Debi's room had no windows. Indeed, in that flat, the only rooms that had windows were the bathroom, the kitchen and mine. Debi actually liked it that way, especially since she preferred to have the lights on at nights that Ajit were in town. She liked to enjoy her lovemaking to the fullest . . . with all her senses. As far as I know, she still does. As I climbed onto the bed, I wondered why she had not objected to my turning the night-light off, and then it became clear! She was fast asleep already! It wasn't going to dampen my spirits -- as damp as I was that night. I cuddled up to her and slid my hand under her nightdress and to her supple breasts. The warmth of her skin sent tremors through my already tense body. I wanted her warmth and I craved for her touch with all my being. I could feel my freshly cleaned womanhood welling up inside with my slippery eagerness. "Mmmmm . . . naah . . ." I heard Debi murmur in her sleepy voice. "Shhhhhh . . ." I breathed against her earlobes. I wasn't about to give up. "Oh! Sharmi!" She tried to push me away in her sleep. "Just lie there," I whispered, "I will do it all!" It was a suddenly discovered moment for me. I had started enjoying my role as the late night seductress. "Mmmmm . . ." Debi responded by relaxing her body. Her verbal disinterest notwithstanding, she had -- in her languor -- already started to enjoy whatever I was doing. I sat up and slid my half-slip off my burning body. I wanted to be completely naked with my beautiful cousin that night. My nipples stood erect and taut in anticipation of her touch. I reached for the bed-switch and turned the night-light back on. I wanted to see my cousin's beautiful face. The single button that held the front of Debi's nightdress was already undone. Eyes still closed, her face held a smile that begged me to "wake" her up. She had her legs slightly apart and the thin material of her nightdress clung to the contours of her two shapely legs. Since her marriage, she had put on a little weight just at the right places, and her legs got their optimal share. She was quite conscious of her heavier legs and I took it upon myself to reassure her in every way that I could. I leaned over and started kissing the length of her legs starting at her ankle. She shifted her weight and I knew she was awake. It was not the first time that we played that game, but it was the first time that she had actually fallen asleep before I got to bed. I couldn't ponder on that little detail. I was burning up. I was again feeling the trickle down my inner thighs already. As I slid my hand between her legs, drawing her nightie up as I went, Debi parted them slightly. We knew each other's moves well and that was her way of urging my hand further up. I obliged. "Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhnnnnnghhhhh . . ." faint, almost inaudible a moan though it was, Debi could feign sleep no more than I could dam the flow between my legs. Her hips lifted slightly off the bed as her flexed legs supported her lower back for a few seconds. "Want me to eat?" I asked in a loud hoarse whisper, breaking the raunchy silence inside the room. My voice sounded bawdy even to my own ears and I felt a spasm inside my wet recess. "Yesssss!" I heard her hiss. In spite of myself, I wanted to take my time. In spite of my own urgency, I wanted to make my lovely cousin scream in pleasure. I wanted to make her drip with honey that I could have to my heart's content. I touched the inside of her thighs lightly with a feathery touch of my fingers and she squirmed. I could feel her buttocks flex as she inhaled noisily. I looked down towards her feet and saw them curl. As much as I had found it quite unappealing before that night, the garish green of her night-lamp reflecting off her almost perfect feet made it sinfully inviting. I positioned myself on her outstretched legs and brought my dripping pussy down on her toes. "Yesssss . . ." she said. Her toes took on a life of their own in my wetness as I almost screamed out in delight. She opened her eyes and I saw the lust in them. "And I thought you were asleep!" I crouched low and towards her torso careful not to slip from her toes. "Yeah . . . right!" she panted out her response, "Who could sleep after this?" "I wanted to fuck you badly," I spoke my mind. "Oh, boy! You are rather heated, aren't you, naughty girl!" She wiggled her toes and sent my senses reeling. She knew exactly when and how much my vocabulary gained some extra edge. She was the one, though, that introduced me to the world of sexual slang through the fertile creations of the "anonymous" authors. While she and her husband had, over the years, built up a formidable collection of these less-than-literary endeavors of frustrated souls, Debi rarely made use of the vocabulary that so crudely flowed through them. "So, do you want it or not?" I teased her. I had pulled her night-dress up to her navel and was drawing my fingers lightly across the short-clipped silken triangle of hers. "Aren't you going to shave?" I asked. "Maybe tomorrow," Debi said as she grabbed my hand and guided it to her cunt. It was open and wet, waiting for my tender touch. "Are you going to help me shave?" I always helped her shave. That was a question that begged no response in words. I inserted two of my fingers in her and my own cunt gripped her toes in spasms. I wiggled on them and my distended seat of pleasure lightly rubbed her skin, sending sparks through my entire body. "But now I want to eat you . . . I want to lap up the last drop from you," my voice had grown louder. I was caught in that strange tension when the body wants release but the mind begs to prolong. My mind has always (well, almost always) won over my body. That night was no exception. I lifted myself off her toes and crouched down toward her cunt as she spread her thighs apart to accommodate my hungry mouth . . . "Diiiiing . . . dong" I bolted up straight to a sitting position, straddling Debi's leg. "This late?" I wondered aloud. Debi looked at me through the green hue of her night light in as much puzzlement as could be expected. Instinctively, she had grabbed the bed sheet and covered her semi-nude form even as I reached for my night robe. "Diiiiing . . . dong, diiiiing . . . dong," the door bell rang out through the relative quiet of our cozy little flat for a second time, relaying the urgency on the other side of our front door. "Amazing! Who could it be at this hour?" I repeated myself in utter surprise. It wasn't really "late" -- not for any full-blooded Calcuttan, anyway. Our neighbor, who had all the contempt for TV, was listening to his radio and I could hear Nilima Sanyal's unmistakable voice, on the news being broadcast from New Delhi, permeating through the walls that separated Debi's bedroom from his. However, we rarely, if ever, had had to answer the door at that our. "You are not going to answer the door like that, are you?" Debi giggled as she sat up on the bed in her own state of undress. I looked at myself in the mirror and mused about the effect that I might have on the man standing outside our doors, should I present myself in that night gown. Ending just above my knees, it seemed to reveal more than it concealed. It was obvious, even in the subdued green, that I had little between my skin and my thin gown. Although such an attire may fail to raise any eyebrows in the Occident, in India it would be beyond bold. I suddenly felt bold. "Why not?" I declared in a mock defiance, "If somebody can come knocking at this hour, I have the right to answer the door in my night dress, don't you think?" And with that, I tip-toed out of room and towards our front door. As I placed one of my eyes against the peephole to check, I was surprised again! I really hadn't had anybody in mind, yet . . . "You? what happened" I said even as I hurriedly opened the door. +++++++++++++++++ End Part 24 (To be Continued) +++++++++++++++ Bustee = slum <6th attachment end> <7th attachment, "MS25.TXT" begin> The Repost Continues: ******************* It would seem that there are at least twelve, and not just three. Reason enough for me to continue with "My Story". To those twelve, I express my gratitude for writing to me expressing their appreciation. I have not been able to respond back to all twelve of you readers and for that I apologize. I have been busy with other things far removed from eroticism. Please write at <anu_g42@hotmail.com> with (sensible, not moral) comments and corrections. NOTE: Please visit my 'ftp' site at asstr-mirror.org's Authors section to read the previous parts if you care. WARNING: Do not proceed beyond this "warning" if you are not a mature person and/or are offended by explicit written descriptions of sexual encounters. Please also be aware of my copyright to this endeavor. ___________________________________ My Story (Part 25) by Sharmila Sanyal "I waited and waited for a bus, and then gave up," she explained while closing the doors and bolting them from inside, "I will have to spend the night here." It was a very matter of fact way that she said it and it wouldn't -- not any other night -- cause much problem. That night was certainly different. "I thought you were going to walk back?" I couldn't help saying; and perhaps my disappointment at having to contend with a third person in the flat brought a sharpness to my voice, for she looked at me and paused. "I . . . I . . . felt a little tired and . . ." she stuttered with apparent embarrassment as she tried to size up the situation. "That's just all right, Promila," Debi was heard from her room, "Go take a shower and eat." "I will warm up the food," I said while you shower. "No, no, I am not very hungry," Promila tried to make us feel comfortable, "Perhaps I should get going, anyway." "Nonsense, Promila," it was my turn to make light of the situation. I tried to calm myself. My throbbing cunt was still dripping and I wondered if the flow would be visible to Promila if she cared to look at my legs. "Go, take a shower while I warm up your food," I repeated. I went into the kitchen and lit the Primus. The rice, fresh from that evening, was still sitting on the dining table. I opened the fridge and the cold air, mixed with a medley of smells from the food inside, swept over my face in a vain attempt to cool my body down. As I took out the "daal" and the fish curry, I remembered again about that night when Promila found me masturbating in my sleep. I felt my earlobes get warm as a tableau flashed through my mind. My cunt throbbed again. "You didn't have to do all that for me, Sharmi-di," I heard Promila's voice from behind me as I was stirring the "daal" on the stove. I turned my head and saw her standing in the doorway to our kitchen. She was wearing her long "maxi" for the night. Since she had had to spend some nights at our flat, some of her clothing and toiletries were there. I couldn't help but notice her statuesque figure again. The loose-fitting "maxi", that hung down to her ankles, did the job of hiding her very sexy figure much better than what my attire afforded mine. Yet, the way the fabric draped her body, flowing down from her firm yet ample breasts like a casual waterfall, suggested an invitingly carnal mystery. "No bother," I cleared my throat and said, "this way it will be faster; and, I have an early class tomorrow." "I will do the rest," she stepped in and stood beside me by the stove, "you go to bed." 'God! Only if she knew what she interrupted!' I thought to myself. She smelled fresh, the mild scent of the soap still lingering about her. My cunt throbbed. I wondered if Debi had fallen asleep again. "Yes . . . I mean . . . okay . . ." I glanced sideways at her. She was looking at me quite intently. Her eyes shifted from my face to my legs and then to my face again. I thought I saw her look at my garb with some interest. Perhaps she was trying to resolve the issue of seeing Debi and me together that evening and the fact that I was standing there in the kitchen not in the most modest of attires. My cunt throbbed. "I will go sleep in Debi's room and you can sleep in mine," I said with a very conscious effort on my part to sound casual. It was not the most brilliant of plans to deflect her speculations about Debi's bed and me; for she would be sleeping on the floor no matter where she slept. Furthermore, she knew that Debi and I shared the same bed from time to time, and, prior to that evening, I had absolutely no reason to be actively seeking to blunt her curiosity about it. I was too aroused to feel stupid about all that. I needed to get out of my gown and feel Debi's nakedness along the length of my burning body. "You . . .? Okay" was all that Promila could manage out of her stupefaction. I had never had the occasion to give up my room for her with such ado, for I don't remember ever spending the night with Debi while Promila stayed over. She didn't say "Oh, no, you don't have to" or any such thing, but I wasn't paying attention to any logistics. Instead all that she said was "You . . .? Okay". Somewhere at the back of my mind I knew that she knew. My cunt throbbed. "Okay then, I am going to bed," I said as I headed towards the bathroom. I struggled to keep my fingers from touching me between my legs where the little nub of flesh felt like it was about to burst. As I washed myself in preparation for Debi's mouth, the cold water sent sparks up my torso and into my nipples. My nipples! I looked down at my breasts and realized then that Promila was actually looking at my breasts! The outlines of my distended nipples were quite prominently displayed through the fabric. My cunt throbbed. I dared not take a towel between my legs to wipe the water off down there. Carefully wiping the inside of my thighs, I came out of the bathroom. "Okay then?" I looked at Promila sitting at the table and eating "daal" with rice. "Hmmm," she looked up at me and nodded with her mouth full. The clock at the nearby Cathedral sounded eleven times as I went into Debi's room and closed the door behind me. As I climbed up on the bed I heard Debi mumble something in her sleep. I got out of my robe and under the sheet that Debi had pulled over herself. I felt my skin against her bare thighs as I put one of mine across hers. Debi shifted and turned her face toward me as my wetness against her skin woke her up partially. I kissed her. "Where's Promila?" she murmured. "Eating," I replied and started caressing her breasts. My fingers lightly touched her soft nipples and she moaned as they grew and stiffened in no time. I moved my buttocks back and detached my cunt from her skin. I was afraid that her shifting would bring to end that which I had been so carefully saving for a long and gentle session of the most intense kind. "You are not going to go to sleep on me now," I warned her, "I want us to do it tonight." "I know," she responded by trying to push up against my cunt with her thigh, "I know you're terribly horny tonight." "Aaaah . . . don't" I sat up on the bed to avoid being touched by her between my legs, "I am just too damn hot there." "Heheheh . . ." she giggled lightly and threw the sheet away. Spread-eagled, she presented her half-naked form, in its exquisite beauty, for my feast -- visual and oral. "Let me eat you first," I said as I stooped down on her in all fours and planted my eager mouth on her mons. I rubbed my nose against her closely cropped triangle and licked at the base of her clit. She moaned and closed her thighs on my head. I liked her aroma. I liked it just too much to wait. I wanted to drink her juices, and I wanted to suck on her clitty, and I wanted to immerse my face in her flow. "Mmmmmm . . .. slurp, slurp, slurp," I went right to work. "Ahhhhhhnnnnng" I heard the faint groan from my cousin; her thighs were still pressed against my ears. I couldn't care less at that moment. I was beyond any modesty, as the muscles of my lower belly tightened up in excitement. I didn't worry if Promila - sitting just on the other side of the door - heard us. To be honest, I am not actually sure if I ever really gave any thought to her hearing us. "Do you like it?" she asked as I licked my lips, "do you like eating my 'nunu'?" That generic term from her indicated her level of excitement. That was as far as she could go mostly; and rarely have I heard her using anything more. Debi had to use all her strength to push and shove in order to stop me from bringing herself to a climax already. I was lying across her, nipples to nipples, thighs to thighs, after she had pulled me on top of her. I could almost feel my juices flowing down and over her eager sex, her pussy lips folded apart invitingly for a tongue -- or something. "I love it, Moni-di," I replied coyly, "Do you want to eat my cunt now?" "My God, Sharmi!" Debi's voice betrayed her amusement at the intensity of my arousal, "what made you so hot tonight? But of course, I want to eat you too, and let's eat each other, what do you say?" "Sure, Moni-di," I rolled off her and presented myself to her in all my natural glory, "take me now, please, fuck me with your tongue, Moni-di." Quite involuntarily, I am sure, I was not whispering anymore. My voice was as loud as it would be any other night. I have never been as loud as Debi during sex, but I hardly have been inaudible. In the years to follow, long after we both had moved out of that flat, we wondered and joked about the effect that our undoubtedly obvious sounds of pleasure might have had on our erstwhile neighbor, who, despite having lived in that flat beside ours for several years, rarely exchanged even the most rudimentary of niceties with us. "Before that, I have to go to the bathroom, you imp!" Debi said, "It's been too long already." I understood. I waited patiently as Debi dressed back up in her nightdress, opened the door and exited. I wiped my womanhood with the palm of my hand and gently inserted two fingers. As they slid in and out in slow deliberate rhythm, I closed my eyes and lost myself in my own fantasy land. In and out my fingers moved, taking extra care to avoid the clit that was almost bursting in anticipation. I am not sure how long I was doing it, but after some time I had this feeling that I was being watched. It reminded me of the voyeuristic pleasure that I had afforded our maid several nights ago. The muscles in my abdomen tightened and my pussy gasped with threatening intensity. I withdrew my hand from where it had been engaged and opened my eyes into the freakish green of Debi's room. "What!" I almost screamed in disbelief. There, right beside the bed, stood Debi and Promila. "We were enjoying," said Debi with a devilish glitter of her perfect teeth. "But . . ." and that was all I could verbalize at that moment. I was looking at Promila, who stood a little behind Debi in her maxi. She clutched the front of her dress with both hands and seemed to have her gaze fixed at the floor. "I found her doing it in your room," Debi elaborated, "I thought 'why not', and startled her by going in." "I . . . I . . . I was very hot, Sharmi-di," Promila still couldn't look at my naked form on the bed as she spoke, "You know . . . I was thinking of the other night . . . and . . ." "So, what now?" I asked. "I thought it will be more fun if she joined us," Debi was already on the bed beside me as she invited Promila to climb aboard. "Take the maxi off, Promi," she urged our maid. ++++++++++ End Part 25 (to be continued) <7th attachment end> ----- ASSM Moderation System Notice------ Notice: This post has been modified from its original format. 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