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From: Uncle_Sky@home.alone.invalid
Subject: {ASSM} Story: Ed's Shame Ch. 4 (b/g, pet, rom? cons?)
Date: Wed,  9 Jul 2003 13:10:05 -0400
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The usual warnings apply. This is an adult story, about an adult topic,
written for adults. If you are too young or prefer not to read this type of
material, then don't. This story contains material of an explicit nature
about the relationship between two children. It is not for children. Do not
try this at home.


Now if you have gotten past the warning, join me as I pull another fantasy
out of that dark place in the back of my mind where I keep all my
fantasies. But this is not really a fantasy. It is based on actual events
that have been fictionalized.This is material that shows I am not as nice
as some would like to believe. This story is a little different from my
others.


Ed's Shame Ch. 4
     by Uncle Sky


Ed shook his head as if to clear it when he realized he had been sitting on
the edge of the bed for some time, reliving the dream and the past it
portrayed. He hated doing it but could not seem to escape it. He felt as if
he was doomed to repeat it over and over in his head.


He stood up and went to splash some water on his face. Then to the kitchen
for a cup of coffee. maybe that would help. But as he made the coffee he
knew it was hopeless. He would finish the dream one way or another so he
might as well sit down and get on with it. There was no escape from his
shame.


Eddie woke up early Saturday morning. His mother had left with her boy
friend Friday evening and he was alone. It seemed very quiet and a little
spooky to him. But this was to be his big day. He had to get ready and so
he got up and went in the bathroom to start preparations. He showered and
shampooed. He brushed his teeth and gargled with mouthwash. He laid out his
clothes that he planned to wear for his date. He checked each item to be
sure it was clean and had no holes or any rips.


He had picked a simple outfit that was easy to get on and off. He usually
wore jockey shorts but had one new pair of boxer style shorts. He decided
to wear them today. He picked a pair of brown slacks that were nicely
cleaned and pressed. Instead of his normal polo shirt he had a nice short
sleeved sport shirt, with a collar. He wanted to look good today but not
quite "go to meeting" good.


Next he went and made himself some cereal for breakfast. When he finished
he washed the dishes from the night before and breakfast. He looked around
and made sure everything was in tip top order. He went through the house
room by room checking.


In the kitchen again, he looked in the fridge. Damn! No soda. He had
forgotten that. He made a mad dash into his room and put on his play
clothes. He grabbed the money his mom had left him and rushed out to the
corner store. It didn't take long and he was soon back with the soda and
put it in the fridge to cool.


It was getting close to time to leave now so he changed clothes and brushed
his teeth again. After he rinsed one more time with mint flavored mouthwash
he felt he was ready. It was time to leave. He would get to the theater a
few minutes early just to be sure he was there before Judy.


Eddie paced up and down in front of the movie theater. He was nervous. What
if she didn't show up? What if he couldn't convince her to do what he
wanted? What if she got mad at him and broke up with him? All these things
were running through his mind. Then he stopped. There she was.


Judy was right on time. She was wearing a pretty summer dress. It had
yellow flowers on it. She was smiling as she walked toward him. It made him
feel warm and he smiled back at her. He was afraid to kiss her right out in
the open so he just took hold of her hand and squeezed it. He felt her
squeeze back. She started to move toward the ticket office but he stopped
her. It was time to see if he could get her to go with him.


"Judy, you know I love you, don't you?" She nodded but looked uncertain.
"Well, my mom is gone for the weekend and I have the house all to myself
until Sunday. I want very much to be alone with you. I want to show you how
much I love you with nobody watching. We have so little time together that
I thought it would be nice if I took you to my house. Will you please come
with me?" He held both her hands as he waited for an answer.


Judy hesitated before answering. She knew what could happen if she agreed
to go with Eddie. He would want to do the things she felt were wrong. But
she loved him and did not want to make him unhappy. She had told him she
would do anything for him and she had meant it. She took a deep breath and
looked him in the eye. He looked as if he were pleading. She let out her
breath slowly and answered him. "Yes Eddie. I'll go with you."


Judy did not look happy but Eddie did. His face lit up with joy and he had
a smile on it that didn't stop. He turned and started to walk back to his
house pulling her along. He almost wanted to run but Judy was moving very
slowly. If he had looked, and cared, he would have seen that she was not
looking forward to this visit.


As they neared his house Eddie assured Judy that nobody ever noticed who
came and went at his house. His mother worked too much and so she was not
very close to her neighbors. They could walk right in the front door with
no problem. And so they did just that. As soon as he got her inside and
closed the door he took her in his arms and kissed her. He told her how
much he loved her and how happy he was to have some time alone with her.


Eddie tried to play it cool. He showed Judy around the house. She was a
little nervous when they got to the bedroom but he didn't stop and she
relaxed a bit. He took her to the kitchen and asked if she wanted a soda.
When she said yes he got one out and opened it. he poured it into two
glasses and gave her one. Then he took her in the front room and they sat
down next to each other on the couch.


Eddie let her drink some of her soda and relax for a few minutes. He talked
about how pretty she looked in her dress. He told her he liked the flowers
on it. He told her she was beautiful. He told her how glad he was to have
her for a girlfriend. He showered her with compliments. She smiled at some
of them and even blushed a little once. He held her hand as he talked, and
enjoyed the touch.


After a few minutes, Eddie took her glass and put it with his on the coffee
table. Then he took her in his arms and kissed her. Their tongues were soon
slipping back and forth and tracing each other's lips and mouths. Eddie
broke the kiss and moved to kiss her neck and ear. He whispered in her ear
how much he loved her. He even stuck his tongue in her ear. She giggled at
that. It was something Leroy had told him girls liked. He nibbled on her
earlobe. He kissed her and kissed her again.


Judy had to admit to herself that she liked this part of it. But she was
still a little tense. She knew what was coming and was scared. It didn't
take long before it started.


Eddie put his hand on her chest. He rubbed her nipples and pinched them. He
moved from one to the other as he kissed her. Then he put his hand on her
knee, below her dress. He slid his hand up her leg until he reached her
panties. She held her legs tightly together at first. But as he pressed
between them she allowed him in. He was soon rubbing her pussy through her
panties. He continued to kiss her as he pried the leg band of her panties
up and got his fingers under it. He was touching he bare pussy now and it
frightened her. It did feel nice the way he was rubbing her but it was
wrong and she knew it.


Suddenly Eddie stopped. He pulled his hand out of her panties and sat back
looking at her. She could see that he had something else he wanted and she
was afraid what it might be. But she had made up her mind before coming
that she would do what ever this boy she loved asked of her.


Eddie took both her hands in his. In a soft voice he said, "I want to look
at you." She seemed puzzled. "I want to see your beautiful body with out
clothes covering it up." She swallowed hard and almost started to cry.
There were small tears in the corners of her eyes but he didn't notice. She
just sat there and waited to see what he would do.


When Judy didn't say anything he started to unbutton her dress. It fastened
in the back and had a sash around her waist. He untied the sash and opened
the back of the dress. He slipped it down over her shoulders and off her
arms. He took her hands and lifted her from the couch. As she stood up the
dress fell to the floor. Eddie picked it up and put it on a chair. He
turned to look at her and saw she was wearing a slip again. He wasn't sure
how that would come off so he hesitated. Then he reached down and took hold
of the hem and lifted it up and over her head. As he did, Judy raised her
arms to allow him to get it off.


Eddie put her slip with her dress on the chair and turned to look at her.
She stood there in just her panties, shoes and socks. He could see now that
she had very small puffy bumps under her nipples. They couldn't be called
tits yet but it was a start. She was trying to cover herself with her arms
but he took her hands and held them away from her body so he could look.


Eddie sat down on the couch and pulled Judy down next to him. He put one
arm around her and leaned in for a kiss. While he kissed her he rubbed his
palm over her nipples. Then he pinched and rolled them between his fingers.
He moved his mouth from her mouth to her chest. He placed kisses all over
her chest finally ending up on one nipple. He licked it and sucked it while
he played with the other one. He was in heaven. Judy wasn't. He wasn't
hurting her physically but he was hurting her.


Eddie was oblivious to her feelings. He was too wrapped up in his own
pleasure. When he decided he had played with her nipples enough he backed
off. He reached down and one by one took off her shoes and socks. This was
it. The only thing she was wearing now was her panties. They were cotton
and had little yellow flowers on them like her dress only smaller. He
thought they were cute and told he so. She didn't smile.


He pulled her up on her feet again and placed his hands on her hips.
Tucking his fingers in under the elastic of her panties he began to take
them off. Down they went over her hips and then her thighs. Past her knees
and down to her ankles. He raised first one foot then the other and took
the panties off completely. He threw them over on the chair with the rest
of her clothes. Now she stood naked before him. He couldn't breath for a
minute. It was what he had been waiting for.


Again Judy was trying to hide her nakedness. But he would not let her and
she gave up. She would let him do what ever he wanted to do. She sighed as
he took her in his arms and kissed her again. He ran his hands all over her
back and her bottom and chest and ended with his hand on her pussy and a
finger between her pussy lips. He stroked her pussy for a few minutes and
then stopped. He stepped back again and looked at her. He wanted more.


"I want you to see me too. I want you to undress me. Please."


Judy didn't say anything. She just stepped forward and started to unbutton
his shirt. She was nervous and fumbled a lot. But she got the shirt off,
then his pants and finally his shorts. As she lowered his shorts she was
right in front of his dick. She had never really seen one before. She had
heard that they were big but his didn't look too big. It was sticking out
in front of him, hard and bouncing up and down. She could see his balls
under his dick too. They looked like a little bag hanging down. She waited
to see what he would do next.


Leroy, it turned out, did not know as much as Eddie thought. And so once he
had Judy naked and was naked himself, Eddie was not sure what to do next.
He had been told how to fuck but not much else. So he had Judy lay down on
the couch and felt all over her body. He touched every part of her with a
very soft touch. If Judy had not been so scared she might have admitted
that it felt kind of good.


Eddie leaned down and licked her nipples. Then he kissed his way down her
tummy, past her navel and to her mound. She was hairless and smooth at her
age. He kissed her all over her pussy and stuck a finger in the hole he
found at the bottom of her slit. He felt the slippery juice that was coming
from her pussy. He used it to wet that bump he had felt at the top of the
pussy and rubbed it lightly. She still didn't smile but she wiggled her
hips a little. Eddie even reached under her and felt of her ass cheeks. He
slid his finger down the crack of her ass but was not sure about touching
her ass hole so he skipped that.


After a while Eddie got tired of kissing and licking her and stopped. Judy
though maybe it was over. She was wrong. Eddie had her sit up and he took
her place on the couch. Now he asked her to do the things to him that he
had done to her. Still not happy but determined to do what he wanted, she
began to caress his body. She kissed his nipples just like he had done to
hers. She ran her hands all over his body in soft touches. She wanted to
avoid it but could not so she kissed her way down his belly to his crotch.
She kissed all around it and finally put her hand around his dick and
squeezed it gently. He moaned.


Eddie had kissed all over her pussy and now he had asked her to do the
things to him that he had done to her. She didn't want to but she felt he
would be unhappy if she failed to do everything he wanted. So she bent down
and kissed his dick. She kissed the tip and then down the side. She kissed
his balls and his thighs. She kept a firm hold on his dick as she placed
kisses all over the front of his body.


She stopped for a moment to think. Had she done it all? No. He had rubbed
in the slit of her pussy. But he didn't have one. She thought for a second
and then decided what to do. She started to rub his dick very gently. He
moaned again and reached down to her hand. He put his hand over the one she
had on his dick and slowly moved it up and down. The skin was loose and
slipped over it as she moved her hand. He seemed to like that so she
continued. All the time she was doing it she was kissing his belly and
balls and every once in a while his dick.


Eddie was having the time of his life. She had kissed his dick and was
jacking him off. He wanted to fuck her but was too caught up in what was
happening. He just let her continue as he moaned and pushed his dick up
into her hand. It didn't take long. Suddenly with no warning he started to
cum. He was young and so he didn't have much but he did squirt a couple of
times. It was so sudden that it surprised him. But it scared Judy. She
looked petrified and jumped up with cum all over her hand.


Eddie explained that it was OK and normal. He told her she could go wash it
off in the bathroom. While she was gone he wondered if he was still going
to be able to fuck her. He was sure at this point that she would let him.
But could he do it after what had just happened? As he sat there wondering,
the phone rang.


The phone scared the shit out of him but he ran into the next room to
answer it. It was his mother calling to see if everything was OK. He told
her it was and that he was reading when she called. She told him they would
be back Sunday as planned and that he should be good and get some sleep and
a bunch of other mom stuff. He thought she would never say goodbye but she
finally did. Boy would she be mad if she could see him and what he had been
doing.


After he hung up the phone Eddie went back into the living room. Judy was
not there. He thought she must still be in cleaning off his cum. He waited
for a bit then realized something. Her clothes were missing. He had not
noticed but they were not on the chair where he had put them. He ran into
the bath room and then looked all over the house. She was gone. His chance
to fuck for the first time was gone. But what had happened? He thought
everything was going along fine. Why had she left without a word? Was she
mad? Was she scared by his cum? He thought about getting dressed and
following her home but decided not to. He might be seen and he didn't want
her to get in trouble. He would see her Monday and they would talk about
what happened and he would make her feel OK about it. He didn't have a
clue.


Eddie didn't go out the rest of the weekend. he stayed home and didn't even
call Leroy. He just wanted to think about what had happened and about how
much fun it had been. He even dreamed about it that night and again Sunday
night.


Eddie was feeling strange Monday morning. He felt like something was wrong
but he didn't know what. He went through his normal routine and at the
usual time was waiting for Judy. She didn't come out of her house. Neither
did her mother. He was worried but what could he do? He was not supposed to
go to her house and he hadn't seen her mother leave. That meant she could
still be there. He waited as long as he dared and then went to school. Judy
did not show up that day. Nor the next day. Or the day after that. In fact
she did not come to school all week and when Eddie went to her house in the
morning to wait for her he didn't see anyone. Not Judy and not her mother.
He was really worried now.


Saturday morning rolled around and Eddie was still not sure what had
happened. He gave it a lot of thought and decided to go over to Judy's
house and see if she was home. If her mother came to the door he planned to
say that they had missed Judy in school and wondered if she was sick.


He almost ran all the way to her house. When he got there he knocked on the
door. There was no answer. He tried again. Nothing. He knocked louder. No
answer but he heard a noise. He turned and saw a lady coming out of the
house next door. She was looking at him and came over to see what he
wanted. He told her he was a friend of Judy and was looking for her. The
lady looked surprised. "If you are a friend then you should know. They
moved away very suddenly last monday." With that she turned and went back
into her own house.


Eddie went home. He was very upset and sad but his mother couldn't get him
to say why. He stayed home most of the time except for school. He didn't
even see or talk to Leroy. He was crushed and didn't know what to do.
Nobody could or would tell him what had happened to Judy and her mother. He
never did find out.


Time heals all wounds they say and such was the case with Eddie. He missed
Judy a lot. But he got on with his life. He just didn't have a clue what
had happened.


Eddie never did have another girlfriend in school. He wasn't popular and
the girls didn't like him. He just plodded through school wishing it would
be over. Year after year was the same. He didn't fit and missed having a
close friend to talk to. For some reason he never did spend any time with
Leroy after that Saturday. He always said it was because Leroy was bigger
and had friends his own age.


One day about four years after Judy went away, Eddie was walking down the
street when he saw a beautiful girl across the street. She looked like Judy
except her hair was nicer and she was wearing makeup. She was very pretty
but Eddie was sure it was Judy. He yelled over to her, "Hey, Judy." The
girl looked at him and kept walking. He called out again, "Judy, it's me
Eddie." He crossed the street to get closer. As he got near her she stopped
and turned. She looked mad as hell. Her eyes were flashing with her anger.


It was Judy. She pointed her finger at him and yelled as loud as she could.
"You son of a bitch, don't you ever come near me again." And with that she
stomped off down the street.


Eddie was blown away. He couldn't believe what had just happened. Judy had
loved him. Why was she so angry? What had he done to deserve that? He
turned and walked home thinking about it.


As he walked along Eddie thought back over all that had happened between he
and Judy. It took a while but it finally got through his thick skull. He
had destroyed the love of a girl who had nothing else. She had trusted him
and he had taken advantage of her for his own pleasure. He was ashamed.


Ed sat at his kitchen table and wept. He always did after he had the dream.
He never got over Judy. He thought he had but she always came back in his
dreams to curse at him for what he had done.


And so Ed had lived a lonely and solitary life. He never had a sweetheart.
he never married. He lived alone with his shame. And now that he was
retired he spent much of his time in the parks. He knew why but would not
admit it even to himself. He watched the little girls, always hoping to
find Judy. The little girl he had loved though he didn't know it. The
little girl whose body he remembered in detail to this day. The little girl
with the bright smile and the pretty dress with yellow flowers and panties
to match.


He saw many little girls that reminded him of his lost Judy. He never
touched them or even got near them. But he watched. Carefully, he watched,
in shame.


The end


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