Message-ID: <39730asstr$1039392605@assm.asstr-mirror.org> Return-Path: <vickietern@aol.com> From: vickietern@aol.com (VickieTern) X-Original-Message-ID: <20021208134915.22018.00000062@mb-dh.aol.com> X-MailScanner: PASSED (v1.2.7 24115 gB8Io25W033542 mailbox5.ucsd.edu) X-ASSTR-Original-Date: 08 Dec 2002 18:49:15 GMT Subject: {ASSM} MMMMMM by Vickie Tern 6/10 TG Femdom Date: Sun, 8 Dec 2002 19:10:05 -0500 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: <assm@asstr-mirror.org> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: <URL:http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/Year2002/39730> X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Story-Submission: <ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, gill-bates Mmmmmm! by Vickie Tern, 6/10 vi. To his horror, ten minutes later Nick found himself in a doctor's office undergoing the same catechism. There was Rachel in a white coat. This was the woman who'd prescribed the medications that had made him impotent! This was Kelly's witch doctor! "Hi, Nick," she said. "Still the husband with the towering rages? Still threatening Kelly with physical abuse? I hear Kelly's tamed you some. I bet you're as sweet as my Kevin now. That's a darling outfit, very becoming. No, really! What can I do for you?" "This is my new girl friend Nicola," Kelly replied for him. "I have no husband now." "I've wondered about that, Kelly," Rachel replied, amused. "For some years. But especially the way you were dancing with Jeff last Thursday at the Country Club. Plastered together in both senses! Where did you both disappear so soon afterward?" Thursday night Nick had been home preparing a report while Kelly was out with friends seeing a movie. Supposedly. He remembered that she was stunningly dressed when she left, but he'd shrugged it off. Women like to show off their clothes to each other. He'd been asleep when she returned. "Never mind Jeff now, Rachel," Kelly said, annoyed, glancing at Nick to see how he was taking this information. She knew he knew both of the Jeffs who were club members. One was another regional Vice President in Nick's firm, like Nick now bought off, wealthy, married to a dim bulb blonde. The other was the Club golf pro, muscular, handsome, and single. "It was the Golf Pro this time, sweetheart," Kelly said to her husband when she saw him trying to add up what he knew. "I have to be honest with you now. It was the other Jeff last month, but only a few times. So put your mind at rest. Let's get your legalities attended to, Rachel, shall we?" The doctor shrugged and turned toward Nick while he was still shaken by this news. What was that reference to years? Rachel had never liked him. "So, Nicola, are you a man or a woman." "A woman," he replied. He realized that when Kelly had been questioning him earlier, she'd been coaching him. No hesitation! "I'm a woman." "You need to live like a woman now?" "I guess so." Kelly looked displeased. "Yes, I do," he said with more conviction. He did, too! "And that's why you dress like a woman?" "Yes." "Tell me, do you have normal relations with men? Like Kelly here? If anyone who wants to have relations with Jeff can be called normal -- I know from personal experience that he's hung like a barnyard animal!" "No, I'm a lesbian," Nick replied. He saw that Rachel was goading him for some reason. "So am I sometimes," was her response. "Like Kelly, in a way. Though sometimes not. Maybe we can get together some time when I have fewer patients in the waiting room. Your friend Kelly comes to see me these days only when she needs a prescription for tranquilizers, though once ...." "She knows, Rachel," Kelly interrupted. "About the drugs, I mean. And I should add, she's had her tranquilizers and toast this morning along with her T-suppressants and coffee, so you aren't going to be able to arouse her ire. Maybe we'll discuss a threesome some time when Nicola is better prepared, more of a woman, so let's not be devious about medications or catty about Jeff or any of my previous men any more, shall we?" Rachel was impressed. "Oh, he knows, does he? And he's still here? You've gone a long way with him in only a day or two, Kelly! With her, I mean." She flashed Nick what she obviously thought was an encouraging smile. Then, "Nicola, are you a virgin as far as men are concerned? Your hymen is intact? Your asshole, I mean?" "Yes," he replied. "Then you really don't know what you're missing, do you. Have you ever sucked a man's cock to climax and swallowed?" Kelly came to his rescue. "She will when she feels ready, if she wants to," she said. "Or if it's good for confirming her womanliness, or for us as a couple, if that's what you're implying." "I was," Rachel said. "I have an obligation to all my patients to know why they're here, what they want, to make sure they're not malingering nor persuaded to do anything against their own wills. Are you, Nicola? Do you freely state that you want a body that will match the way you feel?" What were Rachel and Kelly scheming now? "I do," Nick said, because it was literally if misleadingly true. He had to say it to stay in the game. "Very well, sign these papers here. And here. Now under here. Good! This set we'll hold in reserve -- they authorize appropriate surgeons to make you a true virgin and to eliminate any unnecessary parts. As a test of sustained sincerity your signature on this application for surgery provides me with the authority to put you on less drastic procedures, in this case a hormone regimen in the absence of extensive psychiatric counselling. That's if anyone ever questions my judgment, and who would do such a thing? Up on this examining table and lower your panties please, Nicola." He did. His feet went into the stirrups and were velcroed there. She dropped the part of the table under his crotch and legs. He felt helpless, terribly vulnerable. Was she going to cut off his balls? "Hands at your sides or I'll have to secure them there too! Yes, I thought so. See, Kelly? These things dangling here are already fossils. We can dispense with the T-blockers now I think." Rachel seemed amused. "Once plums, then grapes, now raisins. That part's done!" What? Nick wondered. What's done? He asked Rachel what she meant. "You mean my testicles? Is there a problem?" "Your former testicles? No problem at all, Nick. You are not a man any more, nor will you ever be again. You're chemically castrated. A gelding. You're making less testosterone right now than I am I bet. There's nothing down there to interfere with your progress into womanhood. In fact to recover any kind of sexual energy you'll probably need to take in trace amounts of testosterone in some form. Luckily, semen contains trace elements. I do prescribe cocksucking for you to recover your desires. The more you do it, the more you'll find you want to do it! Some girls actually find swallowing sperm addictive, did you know that? They can't get enough!" She smiled reassuringly at him. Was she kidding? What was she saying? Nick felt confused! "Rachel," Kelly said. "I told you, no disrespect! I mean it ...." "Don't worry," Rachel replied, grinning. "My little joke. His estrogen replacement therapy will include trace elements of the other things he needs. We'll soon have him feeling horny again! I know you need something to work with." It suddenly sank in! Terrible news! Nick thought. My balls gone? Why am I not shocked? Those tranquilizers again? "Now, Nicola, you're going to feel two little pricks, no, not like the one I'm looking at. One on the inside of each thigh," Rachel said next. "I'm going to insert two slow release estrogen and progesterone capsules under your skin there. They'll keep you going for three months, and they'll speed some sizable changes in the distribution of your adipose tissue. There. Also, to jump start you I'm injecting you too. There we go! And there! All right, Nick, congratulations! Welcome to the sisterhood! You now have more female hormones flowing through your body than a ballroom of pregnant debutantes! Expect to be nauseous for a few days. Well, maybe not, but expect to feel really lovely, really nice, really soon! Soon you'll have hips and breasts and a bigger tush, things every woman needs. All natural, all your own doing! We'll decide what else to do then. You and me and your wife. By the way, she can't really be your wife any more, can she? You being a woman and all?" "Yes, she's my wife," Nick said. "I love her." He watched Kelly's face twist, conflicted by this failure to play her game yet gratified by his confession. "And I'm her wife, I guess. We're friends." Nick wanted Kelly to be proud of him, and at this moment she was. "Great save!" she told him. Then to Rachel, "Later, Rachel! We'll talk!" "Yes," said Rachel cryptically. "I'm looking forward to it! I must say, I'm feeling very good about your 'Nicola' here." A few minutes later they were back in the car and driving toward Nick's next appointment. "You need to have your hair done properly," Kelly told him. "And a few other things too." This is moving way faster than I'd anticipated, Nick thought. But I suppose Kelly's rushing it deliberately, so I won't have time to back off. Why? Why really? "What are you thinking?" Kelly asked him. "I want to know everything!" "My bra pinches a little," Nick said, to answer her with something. He was still trying to grasp the enormity of it. His testicles finished? Gone? It was appalling! He wished he could feel anger! Sorrow? He'd never wanted kids, so did it matter? Best not think about it at all! "Do they always? Women's bras, I mean?" "When you have real breasts we'll get you bras that are properly fitted," Kelly replied. "Don't worry. Your injections will see to it, but I'm also thinking about implants, so you can enjoy them sooner." Then with a mischievous smile she added, "Rachel has this thing about oral sex! You know what she prescribed for you as we were leaving? A very interesting notion. That to confirm your womanhood and the change in our relationship, to test your sincerity as it were, I should ask you to suck the cock of every man I've slept with. The first few would be debasing and demoralizing and humiliating, maybe even disgusting, because down under you still think you're a man, and you aren't gay, so giving another man sexual pleasure would be ... difficult for you." She smiled at the thought. Nick said nothing. He was feeling sick at the thought. Suck another man's cock? "But by the time you'd brought them all off -- there are probably a dozen still in town -- you wouldn't care any more. You'd be into promiscuity as far as I am, and servicing a man would be as easy and ordinary as breathing. You might even like it. You might feel proud that you can bring men off one after another! All that cum might give you a warm feeling in your tummy!" Kelly noticed with satisfaction that her husband said nothing, not even by a change of expression. It was really outrageous, that idea. To Nick it probably sounded like a preposterous insult, as Rachel had intended it. Rachel claimed that to punish Kevin she'd once made him fellate a stranger in a bar while she watched -- 'that straightened him out,' she'd said. Probably not true, but still, Kelly thought, all this talk does help Nicola get accustomed to the fact that I do sleep with other men, and also that no matter how bad things seem, there are always worse things I could be asking of him. While he's worrying about how to avoid going gay, I'll have no problem at all making him over into a respectable woman. She glanced at him. "Fix your lipstick, honey," she said gently. It was fine, quite neat, but he needed the practice. Then as he fumbled with his purse latch and looked for his lipstick tube, she continued. "Maybe we'll follow Rachel's advice. Sucking cock might be a good test of your new femininity, come to think of it. You'd know immediately how you're really feeling while you're sliding your lips up and down a man's tube, whether you're doing it as a woman with a man or as a gay man with a man. Or as a straight man forced to do it with a man." She looked at him. Nick remained impassive. She decided to keep going. Lay it all out and see if he cracks. "Especially the first time you open your ass to a man and he slides himself into you, and it feels good. That would bring you around. A few cocks in your mouth and your ass and you'd be so purged of masculine jealousy or feelings of humiliation that I'll bet you'd enjoy the feel and flavor of cock as much as I do. Jeff the horse would be a little too hard on any girl's mouth or cunt, certainly on a new girl's ass, no doubt about that. So we may save him for graduation ceremony. But you have a lot to learn before then." I'll bet even now he hasn't accepted that there's no going back, she thought. But by tonight he will know in his heart that he can only move on. I want him eager to move on. I know him. Part of him still thinks this is all very tentative, I bet. He thinks he's biding his time. I'm a little whacko, he's probably thinking, I'm on a binge, so he's humoring me. Well, my sweet new Nicola, maybe I am! But I've thought about this for a long time. And your foul temper is now gone -- one teeny pill daily is all it takes to mellow you out now. Your sperm is gone, along with your male hormones. Your balls are gone, irreversibly. The girl-juice Rachel just injected into you won't go away either! And now we'll make your face irreversibly feminine, so you'll have nowhere to go but straight ahead! Ten minutes later Kelly drove into a mall and pulled up to a salon called "Chez Betsy." "Betsy's doing us a great favor," she told Nick, her voice now quite serious. "She's turned over half of her establishment to you for the next few hours. Her girls will prove to both of us that you can be as lovely as any other woman. But they have a lot to do. So you behave yourself, no matter what they want you to do. Go on, now. Betsy knows what's wanted." Deeper and deeper! A beauty salon? Nick began to feel helplessly trapped, for the first time. This was out of control. "You won't be staying with me?" he asked. "There's no need for me to hold your hand, love. The manicurist will do that. I have something I must do before we begin our next few days together. Betsy will call me when you're ready, or I'll be back after a few hours. Hurry now, out of the car!" Kelly had found the morning's activities quite exciting. She'd dreamed of this morning for months, this revenge, and now she was actually living it! She was actually wiping out the man she'd quarreled with so bitterly and furiously for so long, erasing him before her very eyes and his and replacing him with a girl she could love, the kind of girl she'd wanted to live with ever since Janet. What a final victory! She'd gotten so wet enjoying it that she'd had to borrow a tampon from one of the saleswomen to stop trickling. So while Nick was in one of his changing rooms trying on blouses and skirts she'd called one of her stalwart young men on her cell phone and arranged to meet him for lunch and a session of hard fucking afterward. She craved it. She told him she needed to be fucked senseless by an iron-stiff heavily-muscled naked male body, really pounded! He'd laughed and promised to do just that. Kelly was now looking forward to it. This was all working out so well! A double dose of tranquilizers had gotten Nick through all of her confessions of last night and again this morning, enough of the decisions, all of the shopping, and into and out of Rachel's office with his body loaded with the female hormones that would soon determine its shape and his future. Even the news that his testicles were shrunken, that his masculinity was gone, lost, even that didn't seem yet to have sunk in. She knew one thing now though that she hadn't known before. He hadn't yet wavered once in his desire to stay with her at all costs, even at this ultimate cost. He thought he could get out of it later, no doubt, but he really was willing to go where she wanted him to go. Though he'd been an impossible husband, he really did love her! What a marvelous person! What a darling! What a difference between this Nick and the contentious bastard she'd married! As Nick lost zest she'd been surprised to find that she really did miss their crazed, grasping fuck fests, all that squeezing and wrenching and wrestling for domination. She'd looked for that kind of sexual combat elsewhere and she'd found it soon enough. It's easy to manipulate males when you aren't married to them, when they have no claim on you. And Nick defeated was something special! Look where she was with him now! She was getting laid by some of the most vigorous young men around, and soon she'd be sleeping with a dedicated pussy worshiper every night for the rest of her life. She'd be married to someone as devoted to her cunt as Janet had been, even more so. Could life get any better? Nick got out of the car, and Kelly drove off toward her tryst, thinking happily that from now on she wouldn't need makeup to hide the hickeys and bruises some of these men left as evidence of the passion she incited. She could even exhibit them to Nicola and watch her grow envious! Not jealous, the way a man would feel when his wife had been fucked to exhaustion by someone else. Envious! And not of the men. Of her! Nick walked carefully through the door into Betsy's salon, consoling himself that when this one day was done, when Kelly was finally satisfied that he was truly her girlfriend, her worshiper, her nightly cuntsucker, when she eased off, he'd be able to decide what to do, even whether he really could live the rest of his life without her. Maybe he could. He'd always admired her feistiness, and they'd always had great sex, or so he'd thought. He did love her, he supposed. But she'd done some unforgivable things! She'd hit him way below the belt. She'd tried to drug him into submission, and that was appalling, he supposed, even though he didn't yet feel appalled -- those damned drugs worked! And now these hormones! What to do about them? If he'd been in fact deprived of his masculinity beyond recall, if his hard choices were now celibacy or womanhood, maybe female hormones were the way to go? And why did he feel he still wanted her? Because the adversary in him still couldn't admit defeat, cut and run and save himself? Because in his peculiar way he really did love her. He'd thought so once. He thought so still? Betsy treated him from the outset like a woman. "Hi, Nicola!" she greeted him cheerfully. "We've been expecting you! You look worried, honey! Relax, today isn't even the first day of the rest of your life, not yet anyhow! You haven't begun to live! But you will! What a lovely outfit, I adore that scarf! You've been shopping? Right this way! We're going to make you so pretty, you'll never believe it!" "Thank you," Nick replied. Despite himself he felt gratified. The scarf had been his own special choice. Women are always complimenting each other on their outfits -- I must remember to do that, he told himself. There's no going back. Like it or not, the way forward is the way out. Let's see where it takes me. He sat down. None of the girls seemed to recognize that he was a man, or anyhow none of them cared about it. Doreen, Betsy's chief hair operator, and Connie, her expert colorist, stared at his head. Doreen gathered up his long hair in one hand and examined his reflection in the mirror. "Plenty to work with here," she said. "You're going to be gorgeous, honey! You'll break hearts." "I hope not, Doreen," Nick replied, reading the tag on her smock in reverse in the mirror. He'd play along. "But if I must, I must." The two beauticians giggled, and though he couldn't tell why, Nick joined in. It felt odd. For a fleeting moment he did feel like one of them. Even without Kelly around, he was a girl. They were three girls together. Three hours later Nick was unrecognizable. His long hair was now thick and several streaked shades of blonde, and it fell smooth and glossy to below his ears and tucked into a cute curve just under his chin. His whole face now looked much smaller under the full hairdo that framed it. It was a "Jennifer Anniston" doll look, Doreen said, very soignee, except that his brow was hidden under long wisps of bangs. "Now your face is nicely proportioned," she told him. "Very feminine." She explained to Nick that his new hairdo looked simple but would require considerable care. "It'll hang straight down and swing with each movement of your head, and it'll always look full-bodied," she told him. "But it'll curl and crinkle unless you set it in huge rollers each night and then brush the curves out, a hundred strokes each morning, until it's all come perfectly smooth again. Of course when it's in your way when you're doing housework or something, you can easily put it up in a French Twist or a high ponytail with a scrunchie -- that'd really look quite attractive if a man should happen to come to the door." Nick just stared at himself in the mirror. He saw a girl made up to go anywhere. His face looked elegant, subtly shaded and toned, and his eyebrows were thin and arched over beautifully oval eyes. "You'll have plenty of time to take proper care of your hair," Doreen added. "Because your make-up won't take any time at all. That blue eye shadow on your lids with just a hint of purple high up, the white streak just under your eyebrows, the dark eye liner, and that luscious red on your lips? Those aren't ordinary apply-and-wipe-away cosmetics, honey. They're permanent stains. Well, not permanent, we should all be so lucky, but they won't need retouching for months! Don't they look nearly natural? Your boyfriends'll hardly know -- they'll think it's all you -- especially because no matter how affectionate they get they'll never manage to kiss the colors off. You can cover them with other shades of cosmetics of course when you want to go more dramatic, or if you need to match the shades of some outfit you're wearing." "My face doesn't wipe off? I'll look like this all the time?" Nick asked, a little disturbed. "When will I look like myself again?" Doreen was puzzled. "Honey, this IS you. What do you mean?" "Like a man? Sometimes?" "Oh, you're into that? Listen, you'll enjoy this! If you really want to make yourself look like a man, you'll need to wear a heavy pancake makeup on your cheeks and eyes to cover the blush and the eye-tones, and at least a pinkie-beige lipstick -- we have a shade called "Bare" if you want to carry it around. Because that's what you'll have to do. You'll need a whole extra make-up kit in your purse. Then every few hours you'll have to excuse yourself and go somewhere to re-apply your make-up and refresh your lipstick. I wonder where you'd go for that? The men's room?" She giggled. "The ladies' room is where you belong. And to look feminine you don't need to do anything -- you'll look perfectly made up dawn to midnight and wake up as pretty as when you went to sleep. Why in the world would you want to resemble a man, honey? You're gorgeous! Enjoy it!" With that, Nick heard one more door to his former life closing behind him. Wear lipstick to avoid looking as though he were wearing lipstick? Betsy came by. "Yes," she said. "That's exactly the look Kelly wanted -- wide-eyed and innocent. That dab of shadow in the upper corner of each eye is just right, Doreen -- she looks so worried and vulnerable, as if she were asking for protection! Men will fall all over their hard-ons trying to help her cross the street if she looks at them like that. Oh, yes, honey, you should know that the hairs in your eyebrows are all tattooed on now. That makes for a much higher, thinner arch. You look as if you were questioning the world and yet mocking it. Guys love that, you'll see. They love the challenge it implies. All in all you now have cocksucker eyes -- that's what I usually call them, though in your case I guess they're cuntlapper eyes. They'll look so wistful and imploring when you stare up at someone's face from between their legs. They'll melt! They'll do anything you ask!" Nick was now scarcely listening. His little rebellious schemes, his stalling tactics, had collapsed utterly. Permanent make-up? How can I ever explain this look to anyone? he asked himself. I can't! Unless I play Kelly's game and become a girl, so it needs no explanation. And for my hair to look less girlish I'd have to cut it off altogether! Yet even bald, my face still looks like a woman's! My face, a woman's. Is that what I am? Nick was shaken! For the first time he realized that he'd been trapped, outmaneuvered, committed to Kelly's plan despite all his private reservations. He'd was already what she'd wanted, he was no longer himself. Confidence oozed out of him for the first time, and he looked around feeling timid, a little frightened. Betsy whispered something to Doreen, who responded "Oh yes, I forgot!" and went away for a moment. She came back behind Nick as he sat there, and he felt a sudden sting in each of his ear lobes. When he looked in the mirror, there were delicate gold hoops hanging from each lobe. "That's so pretty!" she said. "And no problem, they're perfect circles, they go with everything and they don't come out! Don't you just love them?" Nick just stared. It was like falling deeper and deeper into an abyss. "Kelly did specify ruby red for your lips," Doreen said. "Men like that in a girl, so they can see clearly what's wrapped around them and sliding up and down. I guess Kelly wanted it too, for her glimpses of your mouth when you're kissing her where she loves it. But I couldn't do it, I'm sorry! Tell her that. Raspberry red is your color, definitely, with those shades of blonde hair. I changed the shade on your nails to match. So now you're perfect, honeybun! Here, let me show you how to quarter your hair for the rollers. You'll need to sleep on them every night from now on, you know. But it shouldn't take more than a few minutes for you to put your hair up after you've been making love, not much longer than it'll take you to douche." Nick's mind whirled as he realized how completely he'd lost control. He stepped carefully back to the outer reception area to await Kelly's return, and found she was there already, wriggling on the seat of a chair impatiently. As he looked at her hips squirming, Nick felt an unaccountable affection stir in his chest. Erotic desire returning? She did look beautiful, as if she'd just finished an extremely satisfying workout at her health club. Her face was flushed, her eyes sparkled, and a small smile was playing across her face. She was thinking about what? She looked up and suddenly saw her husband -- now not the man she'd left behind, now not a husband at all, but a soignee young woman! At first she didn't recognize him. Then it came to her all at once. "Nick? Nicola? Is that you, darling!" she said, a bit awestruck. "You ...you're... so feminine now! So simply lovely!" What have I done? she was thinking. This is marvelous! He's perfect! He's a whole new person! I mean, she is! I must take her to bed immediately, and put that gorgeous face between my legs and keep it there all night! "I hope you don't mind what they did," Nick said a bit apologetically, waving his beautifully manicured hands at his own face and hair while wondering at her astonished facial expression. "Because I can't change it. The make-up. Doreen says it's permanent. This is it." Nick felt strangely in need of reassurance. "This is me now. Tell me it's all right!" If she doesn't like it, he was thinking, what'll I do? Leave? Ask her to leave? He felt suddenly sad. Near tears. And he realized immediately that this was unusual, to be so emotional about needing her approval! Was this a side effect of those hormones Rachel had pumped into him? "You're perfect, Nicola!" Kelly finally said, obviously impressed. "I love it. I couldn't hope for a more beautiful girlfriend! I want you to kiss me. Let's go home!" end 6/10 VickieTern@AOL.COM -- Pursuant to the Berne Convention, this work is copyright with all rights reserved by its author unless explicitly indicated. +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ | alt.sex.stories.moderated ----- send stories to: <ckought69@hotmail.com> | | FAQ: <http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/faq.html> Moderator: <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+ |Discuss this story and others in alt.sex.stories.d, look for subject {ASSD}| |Archive at <http://assm.asstr-mirror.org> Hosted by <http://www.asstr-mirror.org> | +---------------------------------------------------------------------------+