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Subject: {ASSM} RP: JZL00_03: Story Titles Etc for JZL (nosex, background, explanations) {Jeff Zephyr}
Date: Fri, 15 Nov 2002 02:10:05 -0500
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The Story Titles, etc., for JZL (Jeff Zephyr's Life) (JZL00_03):

What is JZL?  Jeff Zephyr's Life, or the My (Sex) Life Story.  Putting
it in every post makes the titles too long, and if you read many of
them you'd get the idea of what it was anyway.

So, what do the titles mean:

JZL11_01-_Summertime_and_Shows_{Jeff Zephyr}_(b+g+ exhib, b-solo)

JZL, followed by a number for the year, then, the part number.  The
title follows, my name (just has to be there), then the story part
codes.  The year is put around the school year, which starts in August
or September, not around my chronological years, as that fits the
tempo of my life better.  This story is:

Year 11, 1st part.

Parts up to year 10 are only one per year.  Not even that, actually --
I cover a couple years at a time for the earliest parts.  There are no
other parts in that section, nor are their likely to be any.

Part 0 for each year covers what goes on in that period, an overview. 
A place for me to comment about how I feel about the things that
happened, rather than inside the story, as well as a way to warn
readers of things they might not want to look at, if it bothers them.

Year Zero for the entire series is my introductions and notes.  That,
so far, is one part.  JZL00_00 Introduction to Jeff Zephyr's (Sex)
Life Story (nosex) is this document, explaining what I'm trying to do,
and why.

Parts aren't in strict chronological order within a year.  Not much
point in that, when it is hard to tell which things came first, and
also since I wrote around relationships, and many times had parallel
ones.

---

Misc Q&A and comments:

Writing abou the distant past is like making a bed with the cat
around.  No matter how hard you try, the cat always ends up under the
covers when the bed is made.  OK, you could lock the cat away
someplace, but that defeats the whole purpose in having cats around.

In the story case, the cat is reminiscences, the inability to talk
about the past without some reference to future events, and how you
think about the stuff that happened now.  I try to keep each story
centered in the viewpoint of the past, but I'm unwilling, and possibly
unable, to keep other thoughts out of the tale.


Having sex with lots of partners was easy.  Just be available, and
say yes a lot.  Except for a brief period in my 15th year, when my
girlfriend was competing with me, I didn't "keep score," counting how
many people I did it with, or how often.  Nor do I feel like counting
up those I've written about.  I may have forgotten a few, but the
numbers aren't relevant.

I've read that sexual promiscuity is related to low self-esteem.  God
knows that is a possible link, but what teen is supremely
self-confident?

On the negatives, I had parents who fought often, were repressive and
restrictive of our choices, drank a lot, and were hard to please. 
Straight A grades didn't impress them much at home, or for very long. 
They were proud enough of our accomplishments in front of friends, but
less so to us.  Any problems they had with us were strongly criticized
or punished, and any rewards were light and capricious, often not even
a "Thank you" or "Great job!"

But I'm not trying to write "How I hated my parents, and that ruined
my life."  I don't know that my situation was much different than many
teens, so I'll leave this part here.

I don't know if I was good looking.  Those who loved me told me so,
but I didn't believe them.  At least, I never let my ego get carried
away, thinking that I was "all that."  I've met others, who I thought
were very attractive, and ran into the same "No, stop saying that, I'm
not cute," kind of response.

I was pretty athletic for a "nerd."  I wore glasses, was into science,
math, music, and computers, and I was shy.  With time, I got pretty
good at pretending not to be shy, but inside I always felt that it was
pretense, and was always nervous around new people.

On the dick size things, the actual size probably doesn't matter much.
We had a discussion on ASSD about that, and without measuring it
again, I can say that it falls within the average size range -- it
doesn't stick out from the toilet paper roll (a test for average size
when hard is to put it inside one) very far, or break it ;-)

When I was twelve, my size was good for that age.  And it got hard
easily.  I'd been masturbating for over a year to climax, and that
exercise may have made that happen more.  Other boys had the same
problem, but I felt that it was a good thing to happen, something to
be proud of.  I didn't mind if it stuck out in gym class.  We got to
see each other naked while changing, and in the showers.  Not all
schools do that, but ours did for 7th grade.  I found all the naked
boys around interesting, and was curious about the differences between
us.  Some of them noticed this, which led to teasing.  Both good
naturedly, about my hard dick and its relatively large size, and less
so, about my interest in boys, and being a fag, queer, homo -- and
other similar terms.

By fourteen, I wasn't exceptional in size.  I didn't mind that,
though.  The teasing of 7th grade turned into an interesting
reputation with girls.  My adult size is only a bit above average, but
I'm happy to say that it still sticks up hard easily enough, and I've
enjoyed its effectiveness often.

--

The years go by in periods and relationships.

5 Early Experiences, including Sheila the Babysitter   Yet more of my
childhood play.  Covers everything through age 8. 7 Kissing Sherry at
school, lots of usual kid stuff

9 - On the Farm, learning to get naked outside 10 -Debbie played naked
with me. Kissing Sherry and Maureen, sibling experiments

  These three parts make up all so far for my early childhood
experiences.  I don't expect to add to them, because there just wasn't
a lot of sex story stuff going on then.

11 - First sex with Annie, Sherry, and Maureen
12 -- Jr High.  Liz, and my romantic exhibitionist love with Gail 
13 -- Big trouble at school and home, serious depression, and Sandy.
14 -- Trouble in Paradise, Slut period start, lots of little
relationships 
15 -- Stacey and more slut stuff.  Boys can be sluts too ;-) 
16 -- Jackie 
17 --Jackie, and HS graduation 
18 -- University troubles, Maria 
19 -- Life with Uncle Sam, no ties 
20 -- Back home and to school again 
21 --School Affairs 
22 -- Moving out, Dominance and Submission play
23 -- My naked roommates and me
24 -- Just the three of us, Ricky and Mari and I 
25 -- Gonna graduate soon, so I better think about settling down



-->>




  "True" true is relative, though.  I call my stuff semi-true -- it is
based on what I remember, but I can't really recall every detail, and
why write it that way, when I can let a bit of fantasy remembering
make it come out better?  I mean, call it a bedtime story for my lover
(and reader), something with enough truth in to still be truthful, but
filling in the blanks with hot stuff, so it doesn't bog down.  I want
dialog and action, right?  Memories are vague things, good on some
things, not so good on others.  If it is close enough to make me feel
the past when I write it, isn't that good enough -- even if I read it
later and say "It didn't happen that way.  Well, not exactly.  But I
can't quite say what was wrong about that, I just can't remember!!" 
It is still amazing, all the little things I do remember.  The way
someone looked at me, how we kissed, little phrases, but every detail?
No way!  I'm happy if I can remember enough to make it sound real, and
not leave me stumped, thinking that I just don't know anymore what
really happened in my life.

  Anyway, I don't care if stories are truly true, semi-true, or not
true.  If it feels real and fun, that is enough.

--



Copyright by Jeff Zephyr (jeffzeph@hotmail.com) 2001.  Please don't
distribute in an altered form, or with any charges for acquisition.

If you liked this story, want to put it in a free collection, want to
tell me how I could write better, or just say hello, write to me at my
hotmail address.  

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