Message-ID: <32764asstr$1001956203@assm.asstr-mirror.org> Return-Path: <VickieTern@aol.com> From: VickieTern@aol.com X-Original-Message-ID: <a2.1a388e54.28e94d55@aol.com> MIME-Version: 1.0 Content-Type: text/plain; charset="US-ASCII" Content-Transfer-Encoding: 7bit X-ASSTR-Arrival-Date: Mon, 1 Oct 2001 00:38:45 EDT Subject: {ASSM} Scenes, by Vickie Tern, 3/17 TG Femdom F/m m/M F/M etc Date: Mon, 1 Oct 2001 13:10:03 -0400 Path: assm.asstr-mirror.org!not-for-mail Approved: <assm@asstr-mirror.org> Newsgroups: alt.sex.stories.moderated,alt.sex.stories Followup-To: alt.sex.stories.d X-Archived-At: <URL:http://assm.asstr-mirror.org/Year2001/32764> X-Moderator-Contact: ASSTR ASSM moderation <story-ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Story-Submission: <ckought69@hotmail.com> X-Moderator-ID: dennyw, kelly Scenes, by Vickie Tern, 3/17 TG Femdom F/m m/M F/M etc This is a tale about a married couple who try to meet each other's needs, and also their own. What they think are each other's needs, that is. What they think are their own. It includes explicit sex scenes. Married sex, mostly, gentle, loving, and appreciative, mostly. If by reason of age, temperament, or moral principle you shouldn't or don't want to read about such things, think hard what to do about it, and you'll figure it out I'm sure. Scenes from a Marriage by Vickie Tern (vickietern@aol.com) 3. Though Carol was a relative innocent, she was more amused than shocked by this long tale. In part she was amused because Maddy took such obvious pleasure in telling it in all of its satisfying details, and Maddy was her friend. But in part because she understood both Maddy and Scott. There were girls in her sorority who'd played similar control games with their men, mindfucking them into dom/sub relationships for fun and then ruining their campus reputations before moving on to someone else. She'd been shocked at first, but they were no worse than men who scored with countless women and boasted about it, naming names. Lots of men enjoyed their submission, she knew, though none would ever confess it unless their girlfriends instructed them to tell all. Carol asked where Scott was now, and Maddy told her out west in Colorado, active in her husband's business and in various charities, the mother of two darling adopted daughters she adored and was teaching to become proper young ladies. She was perfectly respectable, apparently happy, fully in charge of her own affairs including a few her husband knew nothing about. "Becoming a woman finally made a man of him!" she said, grinning. They exchanged Christmas cards, and Maddy sent her "Scotty" a birthday card on each anniversary of her sex reassignment surgery. Had he remained a man, he'd have remained a mediocre lab technician, never very competent, probably let go after some disastrous mistake. He was much better off. "Wouldn't you enjoy dominating Carl, Carol?" Maddy asked her friend. "Men do love to serve women, you know. It gives them their chief reason to exist. I think it's in their genes, Nature's plan. It has something to do with mate selection, caring for the young, things like that. That's why once we know the score, we fuck hunky guys we could never live with but then we diddle nice guys into marrying us and supporting us and helping us raise our babies. Now and then a hunky guy's baby too, though our nice hubbys never suspect it, and that's how the hunky genes survive along with the wimp genes. The next generation's girls need their hunky lovers and great fucks too, before they settle down. Even after!" "Maybe," Carol had replied vaguely. "Maybe I'd enjoy getting the better of Carl now and then." She knew that these days she had to be on top of Carl and fucking him, not vice versa, to feel the way that basketball player had once made her feel. But she'd never want to humiliate Carl, she'd told Maddy. She couldn't possibly two-time him! They were equal partners in everything, and absolutely faithful. Besides, it wasn't necessary. He'd already do anything for her, she was sure of it. "Even that?" Maddy asked. "Even what Scott did for me?" "Maybe even that," Carol had replied. The idea wasn't that far-fetched, She let her mind dwell on it. It was rather exciting! She knew she sometimes re-imagined her gentle Carl as Fiona, his sweet face bent between her thighs to lick her loins, wearing impeccable make-up freshly applied at the beauty salon. Fiona had once dressed for a date and with her face made up perfectly had paused for a session between Carol's legs. She'd finished up a delicious, grinning, cum-drippy mess, but soooo happy! And a sorority pledge Carol had hazed once had licked her, smeared mascara and lipstick all over her thighs -- it had taken an extra cuntlapping session to clean it up, to make things as neat down there again as Carol liked them. Could Carl ever be those girls? "But maybe not," was Maddy's response. "You never know." Afterward Carol was careful not to tell Carl the circumstances of Maddy's divorce. He was still such an innocent! With his slight build and his whole adolescence spent as one of the girls, or nearly, gender shifting made him uneasy whenever it entered anyone's conversation. He was always a little uncertain about his masculinity, and who could blame him? At a dinner party once, Maddy'd begun to describe the kinds of men who attended the gender-change clinic at her hospital, and Carol had asked her with her eyes to let it pass. Maddy'd glanced at Carl, who looked edgy but studiously indifferent, immediately understood, and dropped it. Yet Carol did let the notion drift in and out of her mind sometimes. She wondered how her little Curl might look done up now and then as little girl. Cute, she decided. He'd told her about the time he'd gone with the girls to get his nails done, and she wondered if he'd gone with them for other things too sometimes, and was too ashamed to tell her. Had he ever actually gone out with them dressed and made up like one of them? Of course he must have, if only on a dare! The idea pleased her. Her little Curlie! After that, whenever she read her romantic novels she loved to imagine that their strong, sensible heroines with her own face would turn now and then to confide in devoted girlfriends who looked like Carl, girls with Carl's face with just a little lipstick added. And her actual husband Carl, kneeling between her legs and nibbling her pink clit and tonguing her to her first orgasm of the evening, more and more often became her own darling girlfriend kneeling in front of her, hair beautifully cut, face softly feminine, sweetly preparing her for a date with one of her former muscular boy friends, one of those hunky guys who would soon mount her and plunge a massive cock directly into her pussy, then fuck her senseless while she nearly broke her back twisting under him in ecstasy. Elaborating, she saw Carl as her girlfriend husband waving goodbye to her as she left the house to meet her date, for the evening, pleased to be participating in some small preliminary way, wishing her well. Her girlfriend who then went upstairs to get ready for his own date. He always looked so cute when he was done! Her sweetheart! It was only a fantasy, harmless enough. Mainly, she liked things just the way they were. Then came a crisis. Soon after their fifth wedding anniversary Carl came down with a mean flu that developed into a vicious pneumonia. He'd turned blue and could barely breathe when the ambulance arrived. For a while it was touch and go whether the doctors could save him -- he was hospitalized for weeks. Then they wanted to watch him closely during his recovery, so when he came home his doctor ordained more bed rest and convalescence. He wasn't to think about work, he had to save his energy. His boss awarded him the longest indefinite leave the company's insurance allowed, months and months, encouraging him to take it easy for as long as he needed, to build back his strength so he could take charge of a massive project looming on next year's horizon. Carl was so weak he could only nod gratefully. For the first time in his life, no one expected him to do anything. Carol was frantic the whole time Carl was in the hospital, especially when he was in intensive care and it wasn't certain he'd pull through. Maddy was her constant support, her lifeline to sanity. She didn't think she could live without Carl, the fearful phantasm of losing him was unendurable. She imagined all sorts of disasters, then all sorts of alternative disasters. Maddy reassured her as best she could. When Carl finally came home he was a shadow of himself, as gaunt and spindly as ever in his teens. He knew it, and against all reason he began worrying about losing Carol to someone more substantial. Once again he was convinced he was unfit to be any girl's special boyfriend, her love, especially a girl as marvelous as Carol. He had nightmares in which Carol called him up to ask if her plaid skirt would go with the tweed jacket she meant to wear on a weekend jaunt to a resort hotel with the guy she just met. And other nightmares in which she told him she couldn't live as his wife any more. She needed a real man, though he was welcome to stay and live with her as her dear friend, nothing else assumed. He'd wake up terrified, looking fearfully at Carol as she slept peaceably beside him. What might she be dreaming of? When he confessed these bad dreams to her, Carol put all her own romantic imaginings on hold. Little did he know that his fears were in fact her fantasies, harmless enough, but still ..... She knew why he felt so insecure -- once again he was an unacceptable adolescent in his own eyes. She reassured him repeatedly with hugs and kisses, he was her only love and she would love him forever no matter how thin he got! No matter what! No help, all that happened was that Carl immediately began imagining other whats. So she scolded him and put him to bed and demanded that he stay there. She came home from work early each day to feed him nourishing broths and easily digestible foods. Each day Carl clung to her and wept for joy that she'd returned to him yet again, he'd been so afraid she wouldn't. Each night they hugged each other, they wrapped themselves in each other as they went to sleep. She knew he needed the comfort. But hugging was all they did, because the doctor had told Carl to avoid all vigorous exercise. Carol was taking no chances -- she worried that even the gentlest sexual excitement might bring on a relapse. Week after week went by, until Carl finally felt fit, still thin but ready to begin exercising again, certainly ready for sex. But no. Carol insisted that he do nothing for the full time the doctors had mandated, many weeks more. His morning boners returned full force. Carol noticed of course -- they pressed deep into her belly or into the crack of her ass each morning. But she refused to act on them until his convalescence officially ended. To make it easier for him she deprived him of the sight of her naked body, suspecting correctly that after his long sexual deprivation -- now six weeks, or was it eight, ten? -- the excitement would only further deplete strength he needed for his complete recovery. Carl wandered aimlessly around the house, idle and increasingly horny. Carol's work downtown meanwhile doubled -- she was obligated to attend meetings daily, and had to put in full days sometimes into the evening hours. She kissed Carl each morning before she went off to work, and as always cautioned him to do nothing she wouldn't do or couldn't approve. Bored, Carl settled into his study to check out his accumulated magazines. There were his Sports Illustrateds. All those large, vigorous, superbly fit men performing strenuous activities -- it especially depressed him to view them now. He picked up the swimsuit issue instead. That was different! Image after image of thin-waisted, ripely round girls, gorgeous, page after page of them, women whose bodies earned and deserved careers and celebrity and the reverent, lustful gaze of millions! All by not eating and then by displaying how various shapes of cloth could wrap their carefully exaggerated curves. All by showing how they could spill out of those pieces of cloth in every direction and yet preserve their modesty! God they were beautiful! These girls are all for show, he thought, not for blow. I bet I weigh less than they do -- they're all so plump where it matters, so ripe that they can all pretend they aren't and then fall way forward whenever they bend over. And it's all there, almost all of them exposed, their tits, their swelling buttocks! All for show, and unashamed to show themselves, praises be, he thought. He took his cock in hand. It swelled up. Less visible than tits was that consecrated slit between their legs. Carol's pink pussy lips rose into his mind's eye, that open crease between her thighs, dew-lapped, dewy moist, waiting to be kissed. Re recalled how her moisture clung to his lips as if her pussy was kissing him back. This year's swimsuits seemed to feature and celebrate pussies even while covering them up. There were no tugged pleats or teeny skirts stretched across hips to mask its presence. Instead, leg openings were cut high, and on model after model, color-splashed nylon and spandex stretched tight to the waist in unimpeded vee shapes fanning out from the place where their thighs met to their bellies, leaving their hip bones exposed, even the hairless sides of their mounds. The bikini swimsuits covered even less than that, or tried to but hid nothing. Women have nothing to hide, Carl meditated. They all curve up from that sacred place between their legs to their belly buttons in one small hard hairy hillock and then one gently curved, soft hill, everything there fully visible. Because with or without cloth covering their mounds, there's nothing there! There's nothing visible in a girl's crotch. Nothing! Between their legs, Carl thought, that's where they keep that damp dark honeyed place with its deep hole. That's what's hidden. That's Victoria's real secret. Well, not quite hidden -- here and there in the magazine illustrationsthe the top of a girl's slit formed a visible pucker in the fabric covering it, a wrinkle in that smooth, bright, flowery display of groins and crotches. One ravishing blonde in particular was wearing a shiny charmeuse bikini, and had spread her legs wide and tilted her lower pelvis far forward as if the camera had briefly interrupted her aerobic exercises. All that should be concealed was revealed. Carl could make out her entire slit -- the thin bathing suit material was tucked snug into her crack. Sure enough. As he looked into her eyes she smiled invitingly at him, and told him she'd love to watch him pull himself off. Never a man to disappoint a lady, he screwed up his determination to do so and then did so. She watched with intense curiosity as he climaxed, spurt after spurt caught in a previously prepared kleenex. Then she rewarded him with a dazzling smile and a suggestion that next time he should remove her bikini bottom altogether and come join her. "It's so hot down here," she complained, pouting, reaching to rub herself. That image was still with Carl the next morning when he carefully disengaged from Carol and staggered out of bed, his wife still asleep, and still groggy found himself standing naked in front of the full-length mirror on his closet door. For the first time since he'd fallen ill, he looked at himself closely. There he was once again, a strange, scrawny teenager easily ignored by girls in the first flush of the hormones flooding their bodies, all of them looking for excitement with big ripped well-padded guys, eager to explore their new sexuality. His arms were thin, he had no belly, and his narrow waist supported a rib cage with every rib visible. Hip-bones as prominent as a bathing suit model's flared out on either side of his groin. I've got to put some weight back on, he thought. I'm a scarecrow. No way was he one of those tumescent musclebound hunks girls dream about. He wasn't even as filled out as the swimsuit models he'd admired only yesterday. Breasts make a big difference, he considered. Even scrawny women's chests are well-rounded, they have large melons of ripe flesh growing there, hanging down from there. How do they grow them? What do they feel like? Some models he'd admired yesterday had small breasts thrust out by some secret construction inside the swimsuit, but others had breasts hanging unsupported from their chests inside loose tank tops, their nipples hinted or plainly in evidence as they poked through thin cloth. He made a note to inspect one of Carol's bathing suits to see how all this shaping and suspending occurred. She had both kinds, he knew that. He always felt uneasy when they took beach vacations and men stared or leered at Carol's impressive figure, especially when her nipples showed. Still, women did wear that kind of suit in order to be noticed. To feel proud that they were attractive women. It was good for their morale. Their right and privilege. Men do that too I guess. They show how heavy they're hung by wearing thin Speedos, Carl thought. He stared at his own crotch, down where his flaccid cock hung over his balls. Women had nothing hanging in the juncture of their legs to clutter that hill's smooth descent into the cunning cleft they keep hidden further down. Nothing at all, he thought idly. I wonder what it's like to have nothing down there. He remembered some of the girls he'd been friends with, maybe a little overweight, who wore their slacks stretched tight across their generous thighs and pulled taut against their ... nothing. Put their whole blank vee on full display. They rolled their hips as they leaned back in their chairs, proud that they were gifted with ... nothing. Crotches make the biggest difference, he decided. Oh yes! He hadn't seen Carol's for weeks, months, but the girls in all those swim suits reminded him that Carol had one of those things too. One of those nothings. She too had nothing visible. More important, she too kept something deep and devilish hidden further down. He did so want to kiss it, to express his gratitude toward her, his love for her. "Not till you're all well," she'd told him when he'd last tried. He suddenly felt an intense desire to see a real woman's crotch. He considered pulling back the blanket and lifting Carol's nightie to stare once again at that smooth place of worship. Maybe he could ask her what it's like having nothing dangling down there? But she was still asleep, and his illness had distressed her, she'd been sleeping fitfully, he didn't want to risk waking her for such a frivolous reason. So randomly, experimentally, he pushed his own his cock and balls down and back between his legs, and clamped his thighs closed to hold them there. To see while he was thinking about it, what it looks like in the flesh, this newly appreciated presence of an absence. Then, to enhance the femininity of what he saw, he struck one of those swimsuit girl poses -- knees turned one way, hips the other, shoulders one way, head the other, one hand on a cocked hip, the other hand with fingertips lightly fluffing hair on the back of his head, elbow raised and head held high. He crouched slightly as if preparing to spring at a lover, mouth partly open, eyes half shut as if in an erotic daydream. Wasn't this the pose, now? From under lazily drooping eyelids, he stared at his reflection in the mirror. Yes, it was very feminine! He felt squeezed down there between his legs, a familiar ball ache beginning where no balls were visible. And his hip bones were too angular, but he waggled them once anyhow, to see them sway. Thin as he was, he was a girl down there now all right. There was nothing visible at all between his legs except that classic, smooth, hairy vee. He even had a mound of sorts. No resemblance otherwise. Narrow waist, true, but no curves at all, no soft fullness. A chest as flat as a girl's groin, mocked by dime-sized areolas and nipples. Giving it the old school try, trying to complete the picture, he reached under his pectoral muscles and lifted them up and toward his mirror reflection with his palms, just like that gorgeous babe in the red two-piece who'd seemed to be offering her boobs to anyone who happened to glance at her. Then like her he shot his hip even further sideways. Not persuasive, not really female, but better, a lot like it. He tossed his long hair -- it was below his ears, he'd been overdue for a trim even before he fell ill -- just as the girl in the bikini had tossed hers when the picture was snapped. His hair wasn't big hair like hers. It just hung down neatly -- Carol insisted that since he wore it a little longer than most men he had to keep it neat. I wonder how girls get their hair to puff way out that way, Carl thought. He studied himself. I see a thin girl with no boobs, he concluded. But that's better than nothing. Suddenly, her heard an amused voice speaking behind him! "If you mean to get rid of those things you usually have hanging down there, honey, let me know first so I can make other arrangements. And wouldn't a good bra support you a lot more comfortably than your hands?" Carol's voice! Carol awake! She sees me! Carl spun around shocked, astonished, embarrassed! Sure enough, there she was, lying in bed with her arms comfortably tucked behind her head, resting on her pillow, watching him at her leisure as his naked feminized body crouched there in its girlish pose! "I was...I was just..." he started to say. How long has she been awake and watching me? Did I do anything really stupid? Posed cutesy girly, I guess, that's the worst of it. I hope. "I saw what you were just, honey," she said. "You still are, just. You look darling! But why are they still hiding? Come out, come out, wherever you are!" He'd been so surprised he hadn't changed his posture, just rotated it, swiveled it to look at her, legs still clamped shut, pectorals still gathered up in his hands like small boobs. Now he looked down and saw that he still had his woman's crotch, presumably a vulva hidden below it, his smooth uncluttered mound disappearing between his legs no doubt to split into labia at the entrance to his pussy, all of this fully on view to his wife, no male genitals anywhere. Abashed, he let go his breasts and hastily stepped sideways. His equipment swung forward again, free. Cock and balls fell back where they belonged, front and center. "Ahh, Carol, I'm sorry. It was ...." No, he'd better not mention that he'd been checking out the girls in the Swimsuit Issue and that his mind had drifted to how attractive they looked, that was all. That he was horny, starved for the sight and feel of female flesh. That he'd jerked off under the appreciative eye of one of those swimsuit girls. That was way too much to say. No telling how she'd take it. "I just wanted to see...." "Honey, your face is bright red! You're blushing! What could you have been imagining? There's nothing to be ashamed of!" "Well, uh, I don't want you to get the wrong impression about, uh ...." "About what?" She was still lying back but now really amused, partly uncomfortable because her darling was embarrassed, yet oddly enough, enjoying his embarrassment. Feeling delighted and superior! Her sweetie was afraid that he'd exposed a shameful desire, that he wanted to look like a girl! To look like me, she thought, what a compliment! And he'd been caught in the act and now felt the way Maddy's Scott had felt when his desire had been found out. No, Scott's wasn't found out, he didn't have any at first, that came later, that was how he overcame his embarrassment. But who can tell the difference? Maybe my Carl wants to be a girl but he's too ashamed to say so, and now he's been found out? The way he's always ashamed to confess lots of things? Is he a real transsexual? Could this be the root of his shame? Would confessing it be his liberation? Carol suddenly realized that after all those years of growing up with girls and thinking girl thoughts with them, of course he'd identify with girls! Maybe that was why he'd hung out with them, so he could imagine he was one of them! Of course! She wondered whether that was what had attracted her to him from the beginning. His instinctive understanding of a girl's problems, his immediate sympathy, no, empathy, when she described how it felt to be dumped by a man! My curly girly Carl, she mused. Is he "Carla" to himself when he's imagining he's a girl, I wonder? Is she Carla, I mean? Does the girl in him need a man? It was an unaccustomed feeling, being suddenly privy to such a huge secret about her beloved's hidden inner life! Also unaccustomed was the way she felt so utterly in charge as he stood there embarrassed, stammering and apologetic, as if waiting for orders or waiting to be excused! Maddy had mentioned how good that can feel, being superior, in control, on top, a domme. How partners are never really equal. How satisfying it is to put your partner off balance and watch him do your bidding without even realizing that's what he's doing. To watch him perform despite himself. Like Carl right now. "I was just fooling around," Carl finished lamely. She wanted to make the moment last a bit longer, so as she lay back in queenly repose she stared him disbelievingly, just long enough to see him quail and maybe even begin to plead, still crouched, one hand extended toward her in supplication. Plead what? Who knows, she thought, maybe least of all my sweet baby at this moment. So she broke off her judgmental expression and smiled. Time to take him off the hook, she thought. I don't know exactly what he was up to just now, but something like his pride must be involved, maybe his self-respect. His manhood too in some way. I'd better let him know it's OK. Whatever he does or wants to do after what he's been through is OK with me! I only wish he'd tell me his desires in advance, so he wouldn't feel humiliated when I discover them accidentally! If he wants to look like a girl, I can help! "Honey, it's OK! I feel the same way!" she said to him earnestly. "I sometimes wonder what it would be like to be a man, the way you're wondering about being a woman. How inconvenient it would be to have those things hanging down there, always getting caught in my pants when I sit down, and how convenient it would be to be flat up top, not to have to put up with these heavy globes I've always got bobbling up and down on my chest. It's sweet that you have the same kinds of thoughts now and then about me." "Yes," he said. That wasn't exactly it, but it was forgiving, what she'd just said, so it was good enough. "I'm sorry!" He was, but he had no idea why. "Why sorry? You don't have a bad figure, honey, compared with lots of girls. You're very trim. No real curves, but lots of girls look angular. Think of it this way -- no flab, no cellulite, no love handles, so no real complaints!" She smiled wickedly and added, "A girl can't have everything, you know. We all learn to emphasize our good features. You've got yours!" Now what did that mean, Carl now wondered. She beamed at him and held out her arms. "I need my good morning kiss, baby. Then I've got to get up and get to work!." He did that, gratefully! Twenty minutes later they'd both showered and were getting dressed. He was inspecting an array of sports shirts hanging in his closet, wear which one for another day at home, when he suddenly heard her call "Carl!" He glanced over. There she was, standing on the other side of their bed wearing only her brassiere and panties, facing him with a wide grin, her palms tucked under her plump breasts and lifting them up, those marvelous globes, offering them to him. She saw me do that and remembered, he thought. He felt embarrassed yet excited. He decided that in response to her gesture's generous, good-natured mockery he should amuse her with a wolfish howl. He did. It came out more like a whimper, but she was satisfied. "Now yours," she said, grinning even wider. I don't want him to feel ashamed of any of his desires, she was thinking. Carl tucked his palms under his chest and lifted up his scrawny pectorals. He said nothing. Will I ever live this thing down? he was thinking. "Mmmmmm!" Carol said. "Nice, honey!" Then she finished dressing, and they went down to breakfast together as they'd gone down together every workday morning of their five-year old marriage. So why do I feel in some vague way that something is different now? 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