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The Final Tryst
by Babs B.

"Here's the pics you always wanted," I say with a grin pushing the photos 
across the table.  You glance at me smiling and look carefully at each shot. 
  Then you take out your reading glasses, flash me another grin, and look at 
each of them, carefully, again.  As you look I laugh inside remembering how 
when we first met you didn't want to let me know that you needed glasses, 
probably thinking that they made you look too old.  So you would just order 
whatever the waiter recommended and we would pretend that your myopia didn't 
exist.  How silly we were.  How comfortable now.
*****
"They're lovely," you say after examining each one thoughtfully.  "Bet you 
can guess which one I like best, huh?" I can't help but laugh out loud which 
makes you laugh too.  Getting into our playfulness I reply, "Could it be the 
one where my backside is totally exposed?"  And I recall how that's always 
been your favorite position as well as, possibly, your favorite part of my 
body.  But the joy I'm presenting on the outside doesn't match the pain on 
the inside.  You seem not to notice and laugh aloud, "Yep, you got it, babe. 
  Perfect."  You had always asked for naked pictures of me but I could just 
never bring myself to have them made.  Now, at our parting, I bring them to 
you, a final gift.  "Thank you," you say sincerely, and slip the photos 
gently into the pocket of your shirt.
*****
	 "Remember how we sparred at first?" you ask.  I nod smiling.  Of course, I 
do, recalling how in the beginning we were jockeying for position, 
bantering, feeling and scrutinizing each other, seeing if this could be a 
match.  I was checking to see if you would stand up to me - would balance my 
assertive energy - not back down - and I had almost scared you away!!  
Almost, but not indeed as you sensed a woman who could equal your vim and 
vigor - a woman who could give as well as she got and who would be there for 
  what you needed and wanted. We had already done the preliminaries on the 
internet and on the phone, but then, face-to-face, we did the final 
investigation to see if the chemistry was right.  And for us and our alchemy 
that required some tussling.
*****
  	"I bet I know which is your favorite memory," I say confidently.  "Well, 
now, sweetie," you reply raising your eyebrows with a grin, "you mean I have 
to pick ONE?"  And we both laugh.  I continue, "It was the time I got to our 
room first.  I was undressing, getting myself ready for you, putting on that 
hot pink satin short number with the spaghetti straps."  Your eyes are 
opening wider as you remember.  "Only I didn't have time to finish my 
preparation before you came in," I say.  Now your grin has turned into a 
broad smile.  You interrupt, "As I recall my plan was to sit down and have a 
long conversation with you --only when I saw you -- half naked -- I -- well, 
I - "  "You were overcome with lust!" I laugh completing the sentence for 
you.  You lower your eyes, smiling, that fond memory making your heart leap. 
  "At my age to think that I had never made love before with my pants around 
my ankles!  I couldn't even wait to get undressed.  I just HAD to be in you 
and on you," and I notice that you're licking your lips as you, even now 
after all this duration, get excited just thinking about that time.
*****
	A part of me feels like tears will fall from my eyes as I ache inside 
recalling the past and knowing what's going to happen, but I don't cry.  I 
maintain the fa ade I've practiced so carefully in front of the mirror these 
past few days. "How about that boat trip we made around the bay," you begin 
and as you relate the story you become animated, moving your arms and hands. 
  "The hydraulics went out on the steering and we were going round and round 
in little circles.  I had to take control of the boat by using the forward 
and aft engines and it took quite a bit of energy to keep her on course.  
And you were laughing the whole time!!"  And I am laughing again now, as you 
recall every detail.  "That was a LOT of work.  I don't know if you 
appreciated all my efforts," you continue with a mocking seriousness.  "I 
was sweaty and exhausted when we finally returned to port."   "Yes," I chime 
in. "It was a good thing we had had sex before we left the dock because I 
don't know if I could have stood you all dirty and dank," I giggle.  You nod 
your head remembering how all you had wanted to do before the trip was play 
with my breasts, but we were overcome with passion and, well, one thing just 
lead to another.
*****
"Remember that day in the wine country?" I ask as you shake your head with 
in a big grin.  "How could I forget," you reply thoughtfully.  "How many 
people buy five bottles of sake on a trip to the WINE country?"  And we both 
laugh talking about how we traveled from winery to winery, tasting but not 
buying.   Then, just before we were to return home the only brewery left was 
one that made sake.  How funny that seemed at the time, and it even seems 
sillier now.  And for an instant I wish we were reliving that joyful 
episode.
*****
	"I know the hardest part for me was when you were in Penang for over 12 
weeks setting up that new branch office," I start.  "I remember kissing you 
good-bye and having you tell me it would be three weeks at most.  And then 
how upset I was when your return kept being delayed because you kept running 
into all those problems."  "Ah, yes, but the letters," you mention with a 
smile.  "Our letters.  Your letters.  They were soooo good," you continue 
nodding.  It's as if you don't want to talk about that memory.  I think 
that's because when you do, that part of the world triggers your visions of 
the horrors of war that you experienced there and your mind is haunted by 
what you had to do to survive.   But for me it is the sadness I felt being 
separated for so long - and then I realize the separation this time will be 
much, much, much longer....
*****
	Suddenly you begin to laugh.  "What?" I ask.  "Oh," you say laughing 
louder, "I was just remembering that time -- ha, ha, ha -- when we were 
69ing it and you got all excited and you really wanted me to fuck you and 
you scooted down and said something like, 'Take me from behind, baby.  Fuck 
me.'  The only trouble was, there you were over me, PINNING my legs and me 
to the bed."  You're really laughing now making me join in your mirth.  I 
continue, "As I recall, you tapped me on the butt" -- and I move my hand in 
a tapping motion in front of me -- "you tapped me on the butt and said, 'Uh, 
'scuse me, ma'am.  I'd really like to participate here, but my DICK ISN'T 
THAT LONG.'"  Then we're both laughing -- loudly -- perhaps too loudly, 
because the couple at the next table glances over at us.  You lower your 
voice slightly.  "Yeah, the VIEW was FANTASTIC, but I couldn't accommodate 
you," you snicker.  "He just ain't that big, babe."  And then our hands are 
touching each other across the table and we're smiling, remembering that -- 
to us -- hilarious incident in our shared history together.  One I know each 
of us will treasure forever.
*****
We have agreed to this.  We are civilized people.  We know the psychobabble 
jargon like "closure" and so we have decided this is the right way to do it. 
  And it is.  But somehow I wonder if it wouldn't have been easier if we 
could have stood in a room and shouted mean, hurtful things to one another, 
me throwing a plate at you and you raising your hand and pounding forcefully 
on a table.  <<But that's not us,>> I think.  <<But then again, there will 
no longer be an 'us,'>> and for the first time today a tear squeezes out of 
the corner of my eye.
*****
	"Let's go to our room," you say smiling, looking at me carefully.  I nod 
and we get up and walk slowly to the elevators.  As we do I am remembering 
and you are as well, I'm sure, the times we've rushed to this spot, 
sometimes not even wanting to wait for the elevators and dashing up the 
stairs instead.  This time though, our pace is careful as if each step 
should be treasured.  You reach out and take my hand and bring it to your 
mouth for a kiss while glancing at me sideways, tenderly.  You push the 
button and we wait patiently for the doors to open.  When they do we move 
out of the way, you on one side and me on the other, to let the people off.  
  Facing each other we watch as a happy couple exits.  She's giggling 
joyfully and he's laughing aloud, his arm around her shoulder and her arm 
around his waist, and we stare at one another, remembering when that was us.
*****
	We are the only ones on the elevator.  My heart aches when I remember the 
times we've started foreplay here, the rush of the ascending lift pushing 
the blood to our loins and making it impossible for us to keep our hands off 
one another.  This time -- this last time we will ride together -- you look 
at me and tip your head to one side as the doors close.  I push aside the 
pangs of early grief and melt into your embrace.  We don't kiss.  We only 
hold one another, close, eyes shut, experiencing the inevitable surge as we 
are hoisted into the air.  I grab hold of you even more tightly.  Can it be 
that I am trying to hold on to more than your body?  Am I trying to retain 
what is -- what was?  And your embrace too seems stronger -- possibly 
stronger than you have ever held me.
*****
	As we stroll down the hall to our room, I can't help but notice our 
measured paces.  How many times have we raced down this hall?  Too many to 
count.  This time there is no hurry; there are only calm, deliberate steps.  
	You fumble with the key.  <<Why do you ALWAYS fumble with the key?>> I 
think to myself, annoyed but laughing at the same time.  At least THAT 
hasn't changed I chuckle - as I wonder if this remnant of our cherished 
moments together will stay with me.
*****
	Inside I almost lose it, but I grab hold of myself.  Everything looks so 
perfect.  You've taken care with every detail.  You move over to the small 
stereo you've brought, and you push the button.  Sarah McLachlan's 
seductive, sensuous voice fills the room.  Our music, our diva, our room.  
It's not really dance music, but you take me into your arms and we try to 
find the beat, rocking back and forth.  And for the first time I feel your 
warm breath on me as you tenderly kiss and nuzzle my neck, knowing so well 
how much that action will never fail to arouse me.  We separate.   There on 
the table in a bowl of hot water is a bottle of sake, a remnant of our trip 
so long ago.  We just smile at one another -- no words -- each of us 
recalling again that joyful jaunt.  You pour us each a glass. "Here's to 
us," you announce raising your glass high.  I mimic you.  But then instead 
of immediately drinking somehow we both know to link our arms, our hands 
still holding our glasses.  Only then do we sip, our arms intertwined and 
our eyes watching one another.  "To us," I repeat trying to sound cheerful, 
but all I can manage is a weak smile that belies the voice in my head that 
says, Don't let him go.
*****
	The bedspread is thrown over a chair and the covers are turned down, the 
pillows fluffed.  You lower yourself, sitting on the edge of the bed and pat 
the spot beside you.  "Come 'ere, darlin'," you instruct and, of course, I 
come to you.  "Got somethin' for you too," you say with a laugh as you whip 
out a small, gray box.  There inside is a pair of earrings - 14K Gold studs 
in the shape of hearts with two tiny diamonds.  The tears start to fill up 
my eyes, but I am afraid to let you see.  So I just stare at this lovely 
gift and say how beautiful they are and how they're so perfect and how much 
I like them and how grateful I am that you could pick something so perfect.  
But mostly there are so many words because if I don't say them then there 
will be sobbing and tears, which I could not bear to do right now.  I take 
off the pair I'm wearing and put on your gift.  Then I get up to gaze at 
myself in the mirror.  My eyes look a bit glassy from the tears I haven't 
been able to hold back, but I continue to babble on hoping that you won't 
notice.  And I know that each time I wear this priceless gift I will 
remember this moment.
*****
You lie back onto the bed and sigh.  Your feet are still on the floor; 
you're staring at the ceiling; your arms are out to your sides as you say, 
"Oh, Babs.  Oh, sweet, sweet, sweet, Babs," and you let out another sigh.  
And then there's silence.  I want to hear more words.  I want you to say 
you'll change.  I want you to tell me you will make it be the way I need it 
to be -- for me.  I wish more than anything else that you would make some 
witty remark, about the future, our future. But there is only the sound of 
Sarah's soft voice chanting, "...i will remember you, will you remember me? 
don't let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories, remember the 
good times we had? ... i'm so tired but i can't sleep, standin' on the edge of 
something much too deep, it's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a 
word, we are screaming inside, but we can't be heard, i will remember you, 
will you remember me?...."
*****
      	In the beginning our lovemaking was like a fawn learning to walk, 
awkward but charming and beautiful at the same time.  Now it has become the 
dance of experienced lovers, each of us knowing what the other needs and 
wants to make the ballet a success.  I lie down next to you and slowly 
unbutton your shirt, rubbing my hands over your chest.  You love that 
gesture, sometimes placing my hand there for some gentle stroking afterwards 
- after our passion has been spent.  Now I begin there, moving my hands 
carefully through your curly chest hair. How wonderful, I've always thought, 
that you love that action and get as much pleasure from it as much as I do.  
I carefully remove your shirt and gaze at the beauty before me.  Your 
smooth, healthy skin, your firm muscles that are so well toned but not 
bulky, the curly, soft, gray chest hairs, and I gently bend down to kiss 
this part of your body that I love so much.
*****
"I want to give you a massage," I begin.  "Slip out of those pants."  You 
obey and lie back down on the bed.  I tell you to scooch up on the bed, and 
then I smile as I remember the first time I told you to "scooch" and you 
said, "Huh?"  Now you just move yourself further up so your head is on a 
pillow.  "Roll over," I say.  "I want to begin on your back."  So you do.  I 
slip out of my clothes except for my bra and panties, take up the bottle of 
massage oil, which you have so carefully placed on the nightstand in a bowl 
of hot water to warm it, and pour some oil onto your back.  My movements are 
long and slow as I caress your back, relishing in its every nuance.  The 
smell of almonds fills the room and I can hear your breathing coming in 
slow, measured sighs. Your arms are crossed under your head and your eyes 
are closed and I can feel the tenseness in your strong muscles lessening as 
I work.  "Gee, you keep that up and I'll be so relaxed we won't be able to 
do anything else," you tease.  I give you a little slap on the butt and pour 
some oil over your lower body.
*****
	I've always liked your butt.  You joke about how small, but firm, it is.  
It's a man's butt, I think to myself laughing.  Hairy, little muscles, 
almost no fat, and small.  It hardly sticks out at all when you stand, so 
insignificant and inconsequential to your frame.  So different than mine.  I 
massage it lovingly, kneading it, loving the way it moves when you're using 
it to thrust your hips to me.  And I find myself getting aroused thinking 
about how well you do that.
*****
	I straddle you facing your feet and begin long, firm strokes all along your 
beautiful legs, leaning over as I go to let my breasts, still within my bra, 
touch you lightly.  I wonder if you notice.  Each time I run my hands along 
your legs I pause stretched out over you, my hands rubbing your feet.  Then 
I sit upright again and begin another caress.  I am enjoying the movement 
and on the final stroke I lie down on top of your legs, and hold them 
tightly.  How many times have I lain here, I wonder, relishing in the feel 
of your body all along mine?  I close my eyes and urge my mind to remember 
how wonderful this feels.
*****
	"Front side," I announce getting up to let you roll over.  You're feeling 
pretty relaxed and you leisurely turn over letting out a very big yawn.  
"Oh, sorry to boooore you," I tease.  And before I continue with your 
massage I can't help but tickle you, flexing my fingers all along your 
sides.  You grab me and playfully throw me over you onto the bed.  "Want to 
frolic, huh," you say as suddenly more awake you wrestle with me returning 
every tickle two fold.  I'm wiggling actively and trying to continue to get 
you, but you're definitely getting the better of this tussle.  I'm a pretty 
strong woman and put up a pretty good battle and I probably couldn't out 
scuffle you anyway, but  -- well -- perhaps I don't really want to win.  And 
I relish how wonderful it feels to have you over me, clasping my hands above 
my head, breathing heavily, a fire in your eyes.  The conqueror, you reach 
your head down and give me a hard, powerful kiss of victory, beginning with 
closed lips that are soon apart, pushing my lips apart with your tongue and 
lips, entering me as I pretend to resist still.  Then my soul reaches up to 
you, and I return your kiss with a vigor that matches yours.  It's a kiss 
that says, 'Take me.  I want you more than I have ever wanted you.'  And as 
you release my hands, I wrap my arms around you and grab hold of you tightly 
as you return the grasp.  I can feel your dick hard against my leg and I 
lift my head up off the bed to get another kiss, but now it's your turn to 
tease.   "Nope.  Not yet," you exclaim.  "You have to finish my massage 
first," and grinning broadly you release me and flop over onto your back.
*****
I am breathing very hard in anticipation of what I thought was going to be 
immediate sexual activity and it takes me a moment to compose myself.  And I 
remember how many times in the past you've done this to me/with me.  It's 
been in a different form and sometimes in a different place, but it's been 
the same.  I wonder if you learned it from a book somewhere, or if you 
learned it from experience, or if it's just some innate wisdom you have.  
The knowledge that for a woman it's often the journey to the "climax" that's 
as important as the act itself.  That arousing me and then letting me back 
down and then arousing me again - and again - can make me like a hungry 
tigress greedy for her prey.  And I wonder, my heart heavy, if I will ever 
have as good a lover again who practices this skill.
*****
	I return to my task of giving you a massage while my breath is still coming 
more rapidly and deeper than I would like.  With you lying on your back, I 
begin with your feet, adding a little oil and working it in.  I am enjoying 
the feel of your skin beneath my fingers and I close my eyes trying to 
imprint on my brain this tactile sensation of your body.   I remember when 
you told me the very first time we were together that feet were important to 
you - and how much you liked mine - nicely shaped, healthy skin, no 
calluses, well groomed, painted nails.  And I remember looking at yours and 
thinking how pretty they were for a man's feet.  'It's a match,' I had 
giggled to myself wondering if you said those words too.
*****
	I notice that my breathing has become more regular as I work on your legs - 
adding the warm oil and rubbing gently, relishing the feel of your skin.  I 
think how great it is that I am getting as much enjoyment from this as you 
are.  As I move up to your hips, you're watching me, no doubt wondering what 
I will do.  I look at you - a silly, sly smile on my face - and you smile 
back.  I tip my head to one side and we both wonder whether I will continue 
by pouring warm oil on your cock.  We don't take our eyes off one another  
-- staring.   I straddle your legs and hold the bottle as if to pour, but I 
don't turn it over far enough.  It stays suspended over you.  Still we watch 
one another.  Your grin gets bigger and I suspect mine does as well.  Our 
stare almost becomes a glare -- each daring the other to blink.  Your grin 
gradually turns into a smile with your teeth showing, and still you look at 
me.  I notice from my peripheral vision that your dick is beginning to stir 
- enjoying this game.  "Welllllllllll, darlin'?" you drawl.  "Yesssssssss?" 
I hiss, and by now I notice your dick is beginning to swell.  And still we 
just gaze at one another.  My turn to tease now.  I move my arm forward and 
the warm oil pours onto your tummy, our eyes still locked.  I lean over and 
never taking my eyes from yours I begin to rub the oil over your belly.  I 
notice how your cock would like some of this tender attention, but I do not 
oblige.  You're the one who blinks.  Actually you close your eyes, take a 
deep breath, and I see your body relax a bit as I massage your upper body.  
You had been so ready - prepared to pounce if I had wanted it - but now 
you're content to let me finish and I am glad you have because I don't want 
to miss any part of this ceremony.
*****
	As I lean over you for the second time to massage your shoulders and neck, 
I feel your hands along my sides and back.  I close my eyes temporarily to 
enjoy the feel of your caress.  And smoothly you undo my bra to let my 
breasts hang loose.   I remember how the first time we were together you had 
given me my first orgasm just by playing - gently and tenderly and lovingly 
- with my breasts, your hands and your mouth endlessly stimulating me until 
my pussy was dripping and I could wait no longer.  And I wonder to myself 
how many men know - like you - how closely a woman's tits are linked to her 
cunt and how the right attention there can win her heart.  "Kiss me, hun," 
you say as you carefully fondle my breasts.  And without hesitation, of 
course, I do, loving the feel of your lips, the taste of your tongue.
*****
	"Your turn," you declare pushing me over onto my back.  You take up the 
bottle of oil and pour it over my tummy.  "You have great skin.  It's sooooo 
soft," you say gently and I know you mean it because you have said it to me 
so many times in the past.  As you massage my upper torso I close my eyes 
and relish the feel of your touch.  You massage my tummy, my shoulders, my 
arms and, of course, my breasts.  Soon my nipples are becoming harder from 
all your attention.  Only then do you lean down and lick them - long, slow, 
juicy licks.  And you suckle softly, murmuring.
*****
	You turn your attention to my legs and feet and I realize how wise you were 
to take that massage class years ago, because you know how to apply just 
enough pressure and how to stroke my muscles until they're practically 
calling your name in ecstasy.   Then you straddle my legs and pull my 
panties down a little bit.  Pouring oil there you begin rubbing my belly 
over and over.  By now my entire body aching for you and you somehow sense 
that but don't rush anything.  I long for you to tear my panties off and 
take me, but the wisdom you've gained over the years serves you well as you 
lean over an kiss my belly and instruct me, "Turn over, babe."
*****
	The feel of your hands on my back is like a welcome hug after a stressful 
day, your touch washing away all cares.  And the strokes to my thighs and 
calves makes me long for you to be between them.  Only then do you ever so 
carefully remove my panties and as you do you begin kissing every spot of 
skin that becomes exposed.  Then you begin kneading my ass.  You've always 
liked doing that but his time you do something you have never done before.  
You begin kissing while rubbing, covering every inch of my butt.  It's like 
you're savoring every detail, wanting to remember what it looks like and the 
feel of it in your hands and mouth.  And as you continue your movements I am 
aware how arousing your actions are.  How incredibly sensual that feels.  As 
you linger there longer than you ever have before, I begin wishing you had 
done this to me sooner - many times - because I did not know how exciting 
your deeds could be.  I didn't realize how many nerve endings were in this 
area that would have responded so favorably to your hands moving firmly and 
for so long, with little accompanying love bites.
*****
	And by now - of course - my every pore, my every millimeter of skin, my 
every nerve ending truly aches for you to finish the job.  And once again - 
one last time - I am totally yours.  As you spread my legs I surrender to 
you, sighing deeply as your hard cock enters me.  Part of me wishes I could 
delay this orgasm, but I can't - I never have been able to - when you get me 
to this point.  And as my body tenses and my pussy convulses, I see you 
smile.  You remove your cock and move your face to my pussy, lapping up my 
juices, licking every crevice, and sliding your arms under my butt.  As you 
continue your mission I raise my hips up to you and you suck my clit making 
me cum yet again, this time crying out as my legs begin to shiver 
uncontrollably, grabbing hold of your head.
*****
	I am trying to catch my breath when you're over me again, your hard cock 
filling me up, and I am certain that if there is a heaven it must have a 
part like this.  Your lunges are hard and forceful and my body responds in 
kind by rocking in sync with your thrusts until once again I sense the sweet 
agony of release washing over me.  Sensing what is happening you let 
yourself explode into me, filling my pussy fuller of cum than she's ever 
been while she milks the sweet nectar from your throbbing pole.  We pause 
for a moment, my arms around you rubbing your sides and strong shoulders.  
As I wrap my legs around your hips, I feel your body relax as you lower your 
weight onto me and I am almost sure I will cry as I know this is the last 
time I will feel you here like this -- so wonderful.  After you kiss me 
tenderly and roll over off me, I lean over to lick and suck every last bit 
of cum from your now diminishing cock.  As I taste the mingling of my juices 
and yours this one last time I try to savor every nuance of flavor and smell 
- lingering longer than necessary to do the job but not long enough to make 
my heart content.
*****
	Then we lay in one another's arms, snuggling, relishing in the afterglow of 
true contentment, enjoying one last time the connections we've made, the 
bonds we've built.  And as we began so we end.  You place my hands on your 
lovely chest to stroke it contentedly like I have done so often in the past, 
my fingers running one last time through the soft, gray hairs.  And I clench 
my teeth tightly to keep myself from crying.
*****
	You head for the bathroom to bathe.  I don't arise and dress.  I lie back 
down and pull the covers over me and close my eyes, wanting to remember 
every touch, every kiss.  I want to linger here for as long as possible with 
your smell still on the sheets and the taste of your body still in my mouth. 
   I fold my arms tightly across my body as I hear Sarah's soft, sexy voice 
murmuring, "...hold on.  hold on to yourself for this is gonna hurt like 
hell.  hold on. hold on to yourself.  you know that only time can tell, what 
is it in me that refuses to believe my love, you know that you're my best 
friend..."  When you return from your shower you're humming.   "What?  
Totally ravaged are you, Huh!?" you say with a laugh looking at me on the 
bed, and I am almost overcome with sadness as I recall how many times you've 
said those words to me.  Seeing my face, you become more serious and sit 
down beside me.  "It's over, huh, babe?  Are you sure?" you ask.  Part of me 
wants to cry out, No.  Hold me forever.  But I don't say those words.  
They're in my heart, in my mind, in my mouth, but the words I hear myself 
saying are, "Yes.  I guess -- I do believe this is the best way," knowing 
that this is solely a rational decision and not one my heart endorses.  You 
lean over and kiss me gently on the forehead.  "Thanks for the memories -- 
oh, and the pictures too," you whisper, your voice beginning to crack.  
"You're wonderful -- still."  You take me into your arms and we say, "I love 
you," one last time to each another.  You rise up quickly -- is it to keep 
me from seeing your face? -- and gather your things.  You look at me, and we 
give each other a half smile. "Stay in touch...," we say at the same time.
*****
As your slender frame moves through the door, I have a flash of the future.  
You're lounging alone on a patio, an older man now, the grandfather of 
teenagers.  "Mirrorball," an 'oldies' album these days, is playing on the 
radio.  You take out the pictures of me from so long ago.  They're crinkled 
around the edges and the image is beginning to fade -- probably a lot like I 
would be if you were to see me in person, you think to yourself smiling -- 
but you close your eyes and the memories come flooding back to you 
comforting and covering you like a hot bath on a cold day.  And you 
reminisce about what was and dream about what could have been ....
*****
I touch the gold hearts on my ear lobes and I whisper to the shadow of your 
presence still in the room, "Bye, Luv ...."  Only then do I take off my mask 
and release the sobs that I have been so carefully concealing deep within me 
....

Bye, Luv ....

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