its been four years since i moved in with her to write this down ... and that was really all i planned to do at first ... just write ... well, no ... at first, just get the stories straight, just finish my research ... a week, wed said ... id camp out in the guest room ... shed tell the parts she knew about, tell it from her point of view ... and id just sit and listen ...

it wasnt quite the way it happened though ...i started writing this, i began to set things down, to give them sounds, to dress them up in images ... i filled in gaps with things that id invented ... and soon she was the listener ...

she turned me on to sites where i could post... seduced me ... played upon my vanity ...before i knew where things were going, before i had it outlined or a list of